Below is going to be a much needed rant, so don't feel obligated to read it.
I'm just about at a breaking point. And I'm not sure what to do to fix it. I have a list of issues that I have to work through, which includes anxiety, depression, having anorexic tendencies, abandonment issues. I've been emotionally hurt by so many people, people who I poured my heart and soul into them, and not before long they leave or push me away, which only adds to the giant hole in my heart. I can't understand why I am so bad that people see me and go running? I try to be nice, I give everything I can give, but I guess that isn't enough. My only desire is like any other persons, to be loved and appreciated. And frankly, it is rare that I ever get that. My family is dis functional, my parents are divorced. Almost all the time I have to fake a smile even when I'm upset, and it kills me. If I try to express my emotion, I am merely met with the response that I need to get over my attitude and smile. When anythings wrong I must smile, because no one takes my emotions seriously, or they are just too blind or too lost in their own world to care......I'm tried of no one understanding.
Probably will add more to this drawing later. Just needed to get that off my chest.
I'm just about at a breaking point. And I'm not sure what to do to fix it. I have a list of issues that I have to work through, which includes anxiety, depression, having anorexic tendencies, abandonment issues. I've been emotionally hurt by so many people, people who I poured my heart and soul into them, and not before long they leave or push me away, which only adds to the giant hole in my heart. I can't understand why I am so bad that people see me and go running? I try to be nice, I give everything I can give, but I guess that isn't enough. My only desire is like any other persons, to be loved and appreciated. And frankly, it is rare that I ever get that. My family is dis functional, my parents are divorced. Almost all the time I have to fake a smile even when I'm upset, and it kills me. If I try to express my emotion, I am merely met with the response that I need to get over my attitude and smile. When anythings wrong I must smile, because no one takes my emotions seriously, or they are just too blind or too lost in their own world to care......I'm tried of no one understanding.
Probably will add more to this drawing later. Just needed to get that off my chest.
