Username:Vazchu
Name:Nidhiki
Gender:Male
Everything you should know about Nidhiki§ Favourite colour; All light and bright colours. § Favourite place; On fields or cliffs. § Favourite season; The autumn and the spring, because both has so many colours and makes him happy. § Favourite thing to do; Being with others and having a whole lot of fun.
§ Family; Unknown due to the loss of his memories from his younger days. § Relationship / Mate; None right now. § Friends; He'd be friends with just about anyone, since he likes others so much and hates to be alone.
PersonalityNidhiki is a lad who lost his memories after an accident in the mountains. It was an earthquake and the stones that managed to get loose from the mountains grip high above dragged him along down and was almost able to bury him alive. He must have hit his head pretty bad, because after that incident he lost his memories of what he once was; the only clue he had was his own name – because that was the one and only thing he could remember when he finally awoke again. He doesn’t remember anything at all about himself, but that doesn’t make him sad or drives him in a search to find out who he once was. It’s rather that he has decided to leave it all behind in the past where it belongs, Nidhiki truly believes that there were some sort of reason as to why he lost his memories
(but this is probably because he doesn’t even remember how he lost his memories, but we shall let him believe that it was because of fate, right?). What he is now can’t be described as “different” or “the same” as he was before, since no one seems to have known him before he lost his memories
(but that might give one the impression that he was a loner once upon a time and didn’t have any direct contact with anyone). Anyway, these days he’s the kind of lad who always wants to have others around. He’s very social and kind, because he dislikes being alone so much after the time in the cave where he woke up without knowing how he got there. He fears being alone in fact, as soon as he’s alone he will more or less freak out and run until he finds someone to stick around with. Nidhiki likes to talk and make others happy by telling jokes; truthfully it’s rather hard to make him stop talking. When he’s sleeping is probably the only time that he’s almost quiet
(he’s not entirely quiet, because he snores and talks in his dreams) and also when he’s sad.
Nidhiki is a playful lad, even though he’s more or less deemed as an adult by now. But who can resist being childish and play every now and then? It’s fun after all, so why pass it up because you’re “too old”? – that’s at least how he sees it.
But then again, even Nidhiki knows how to act properly in certain situations. One could say that he changes his playful side into a rather serious and calm side when he sees the need to do so. Not to mention that his serious and calmer side has started to grow as he grew older – making him look more adult and less like a teenager to his behaviourr.
What do I fear so much?
Am I alone…? Where is everyone…? Is this a dream…? It feels like it, far too much like a dream… I don’t remember falling asleep… I don’t remember waking up… It’s all a blur… Where am I…?
It was dark all around me, the ground was cold and the emptiness whispered about the nothingness in the air. I couldn’t see all too far in front of me because of that pitch black darkness. I almost didn’t even see my own charm where it barely sparkled beside me. My heart beat loudly in my chest, why…? An indescribable feeling dwelled within my whole being; it could be described as how it feels when you’re falling down within a dream – but worse.
I can’t remember… Anything at all… What happened…?
I slowly raised my head and tried to look around, but that mere action was in vain – I couldn’t make out anything at all. As I once again lowered my head and rested it against the ground, I came to realize that the cold surface most likely was stone. Was this a cave…? If so, where’s the exit…?
Soon I found myself trying to find my way out, but it didn’t matter where I went, because all I seemed to find was collapsed piles of stones. The roof seemed to be the very same way.
Did I fall down here after an earthquake…? Did I pass out from the fall…? But why can’t I remember anything but my own name…?
After a time period that felt like days I finally was able to get a whole open in the collapsed sealing. A small pillar of light broke through and enlightens my life a little. It seemed so peaceful, that light. It was warm and seemed to tell me to follow it, to get back to wherever I had come from. I decided to follow, its call was far too kind for me to resist. I didn’t want to be in the pitch black darkness anymore, I didn’t want to be alone anymore.
I fear it… The darkness of this cave… The feeling of being all alone… The blur that covers my memories, keeping me away and never letting me through… Is it true…? That I can fear…? Apparently it’s true… I truly have a sense of fear…
The stones fell down to the cave’s ground around me and suddenly the light embraced me. I felt welcomed, as if it had missed me for an eternity. I started to run even though the bright sunlight blinded me after such a long time in the darkness. The longing to embrace the light just as much as it embraced me made me keep running until I could see the light blue sky high above. Finally free, I could finally stop fearing the darkness in that cave for the time being.
I am alive, I am certain of it… I am here now, I will live… Even if I never may know who I was before… I am someone right now… I probably was someone before, but who I was won’t matter anymore… Because my name is still Nidhiki.
