[ThewolfMissy]

Here I am again.. Broken hearted...

It seems like every time I turn around I am getting my heart crushed..

I have made a lot of bad choices..

Worse decisions.. that started as thoughts.. that I acted on..

Feeling like a moron is not a new feeling.

What is sad, is that it feels normal for someone like me.

A person always getting crushed..

Always the one left behind..

Always the one left alone..

No matter how much I love him..

No matter how badly I want and long..

Desire and dream..

I follow my Lord's decision.

It may be raining today..
But if I just wait.. If I just have a little bit of faith..

Perhaps a rainbow will appear..

A rainbow full of promises.. That i wouldn't be destroyed like this again...

Oh, how I love him.. I do...

But He is my Perfectly Perfect Prince Charming.. the One who saved me. I will always choose Him.

But my knight in shining armor? I still needth him.

I have yet to find him.. it feels like..

But for now.. I will stick with my Perfect Prince.

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Heart broken.. crushed...



Lines not mine.
*DON'T STEAL MY FURSONA*

[ChickenSm00thie8493]

Lots of wasted time....

[ThewolfMissy]

Lots of wasted time....

I don't consider it wasted.. Just the opposite, actually..

[ChickenSm00thie8493]

Any work put into a failed result is wasted in my book.

[ThewolfMissy]

Any work put into a failed result is wasted in my book.

Do you really think so little of what we had?

[ChickenSm00thie8493]

No, I do not. What we had was a beautiful thing, but you killed that, so therefore it all means nothing now.

[ThewolfMissy]

I don't even know what to say.

[ChickenSm00thie8493]

I'm not even clear on why you ended what we had... But I love you, Missy, I really do. And nothing could ever change that. You were probably the best thing that happened to me. (Other than the whole coming to God thing. Lol) I am a bit angry, but not at you in particular. That's what therapy is for. But the reason why I know my anger isn't directed at you is because I can't find a single thing to say bad about you other than you leaving me. Nothing at all. All I think about is how much I miss you and much i'm going to have to miss you. You were my best friend and you were about the only person I talked to about anything. Not even Derek got as much information as you. And that's saying something. xD I meant it when I said you were my first girl and you will be my last. I'm not a liar. I never had any thoughts of ever betraying you or hurting you. You were going to be mine forever... Forever ever? Forever. But since you don't want that, I will respect your decision. Goodbye my Baby, my HoneyBee, my girl, my BEAUTIFUL, MAGICAL, CUTE, Missy.
Forever yours. </3
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And no, i'm not manipulating you. I know you don't believe ever since you asked me and I denied it, but i'm not. I would never do that to you. Cliche phrase, but it's true.

[ThewolfMissy]

Jacob..
I will explain again why I had to end it.

First of all, please don't take anything I say right now as snapping. That is not what I am doing.

Haven't you ever heard God's voice so clearly that it amazed you? And when you hear it, you know you should obey?
Well, that happened Wednesday night. Like I told you, God told me it was time for us to step away.

God comes first before anything in my life; Any feelings I have. Any desires. Any person, any family member and so on.

Yes, it was still my decision because I listened to Him. I am not ashamed nor regret obeying God. Doing God's work isn't easy nor is it supposed to be. I am not sure where God is leading me, or what He is doing but I am trying to trust in Him and His perfect plan.

Jacob.. you are in a fragile state and to be bluntly honest, you have many issues right now that you need to get taken care of.

You need to get a lot of emotional and mental things handled.

I cannot handle you right where you are right now. I am sorry to say that, but I can't.

Do you get it now? Do you understand?