[ToritheElf]

We all have our fears right? Those deep down fears that when we think of them it just hits home, it makes all the fear we have ever felt in our lives come to the front if our minds? This fear makes every other fear seem so small. This fear is like a swirling cloud of black in our minds, always ready to grab us and pull us under. It is always there.

Well this is my fear, my one true bane. My fear is I won't be able to get out of my small town.. That I will be stuck in that town forever. Don't get me wrong! I love my town, it is my home. All my friends and family are there, but it seems like a death sentence for me to stay there. You see all my life I have been told I have so much potential, that despite every abuse, or bad thing I have ever faced I have shown so much strength that is just screams that I will do something great. That is good, right? Wrong. It seems that ever since me and my mom moved to this town her and my grandmother have always told me, "Get out of this town, Victoria. It is a death trap. You won't survive in a town like this". They aren't being mean or anything, they are right. I have always been a doer, a very proactive person, so a small town wouldn't have much for me. I would wither.

But.. my fear is how can I get out? What can I do? I mean I can get a degree, I am already half way there in high school. But, my friends..? My family..? How can I leave them..? How could I abandon them..? I would be alone.. Utterly alone... and if you know my, you know I hate to be alone most days, that I love being with people. Not a huge crowd! but with people. So how could I go to some big name art school and be so alone? Trust me, I know I can make new friends, but my biggest fear really is being alone I guess. Maybe I have two big fears? Leaving my town, but being stuck in it?

I have no idea, but I am glad to rant about this. If you put up with my entire rant, thank you. I just really needed to get this off my chest, and some art and a mini-rant seemed legit. So. thank you, and if you have the same or similar fear leave a comment. I don't know if this fear is just a small town thing or if it relates to big city folk, not that there is anything wrong with a city! I hope to live in one, one day. Anyways, just leave a comment or just favorite is you have the same fear. Thank you for your time, CS.

<3 Love your favorite elf, Tori.