by Bilbo Baggins. » Thu May 03, 2012 1:49 pm
well this is just some vent art...theres been a lot of negative going on in my life lately. I'm falling behind in school, and my mother is trying to convince me that meeting with the counselor would be a good idea. But that would mean getting pulled out of class, and I don't think I could deal with that, for various reasons. Also I have issues with my sister. She's a lot nicer, more accepting person than I am, just overall a better, purer person than me. Ever since she was born, I've felt that my mother treats her better than me. I can see why she would. I'm not immediatly likeable, and people tend to ignore me unless I interest them with my odd quirks and strange ways. There are certain situations (actually most situations) where if it is a choice between my sister and me my parents both side with my sister. And they generally acknowledge her accomplishments more than mine. For example:she gets straight A's, we have a party. I get straight A's, its one "good job!" and then its over. I just feel like I'm not good enough...I love my parents and I try to please them, but I feel like no matter what I do its never enough. one hour ago I was giving encouraging advice, and now I find that I need it. its been this way for nine years, and I just don't know how much longer I can go on feeling inferior and disliked by those I love.
I'm an adult now! don't message me about things i said when i was 12