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'══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════2/21/2004first grade
the year of fear.
i wait in the hall
on watchful ears
A tucked tail
and moistened cheeks
Just one kind soul,
my sad heart seeks.
friendless, alone
a saddened groan
at six in life,
know this pain
My heart beats with
the falling rain.
Never shall
I trust again.------------
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𝘱𝘳𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘢𝘯
𝘱𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘦𝘥
4/28/1997------------
4/12/2008poems are
like a fire
they burn
...like my ire
they crumble
...like my desire
they crackle
...like a pire
they breathe
when i cannot
...respire
they speak
what i cannot
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7/15/2006red roses, all around
please find me
i'm never found
the boys all know me
the girls despise
they all say i
sleep around
i've never dated
i've never kissed
at this rate
i never will------------
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2/25/2007
i'm tired! i'm sick! just
take me home
i don't want a roommate
i want to roam
why won't you let me
talk to my friends?
this hell you give me,
it never ends.
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3/12/2007
normal teens go to
the mall, the beach
parties, the movies.
my group home goes to
doctor appointments,
the mental hospital
detention centers
going to school is our
only reprise;
we can pretend
to be normal here.
6/1/2007
my foster sister.
she has been here longest
her scars are the deepest
her eyes are the dullest
but she is the strongest.
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6/15/2007
this won't go away
these constant fears
my life could be gone
at any moment
all i've worked for
in the hands
of some brutal staff
some spiteful nurse
my mental health
they decide.
at a moment's notice
the police could arrive
to take me away
without another word
i have no say in my life
but they have it all.
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2/3/2008
they always say
blood is thicker than water
they never say
the true quote.
the blood of the coven
is thicker than
the water of the womb.
my foster siblings
are my new family.
mothers aren't always kind.
families aren't always whole.
some families, you have to make.
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aaa '══════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════════Soft teardrops fell on the page as Ceviche relived her past. It brought back memories of pain and loneliness, and she felt
herself slipping into the same dark place she used to be in. A gentle sob brought a flurry of footsteps coming to comfort
her. She looked up at her girlfriend, visibly worried, and embraced her warmly. The two girls sat at the kitchen table, in
silent adoration before Hoa decided to finally pipe up. "Please...no more of this. You need not remind yourself anymore of
your past. You are a lovely woman." She knew very well the struggle Cev was going through. "You are wanted and loved."
Ceviche suddenly began to shudder violently. She dropped to the floor in despair and started wailing. "Wh-what if I'm not
good enough?!" she choked, her heart pounding out of her chest. She was having a panic attack. Hoa patted her gently
and gave her reassurances. "You
are good enough...I love you so much! ...everything is going to be fine. We're going to get
married, we're going to have a family...You are going to be a wonderful mother." Ceviche sobbed. "I'm scared to be a mom.
What if I'm not good enough? What if I lose another one?" she sobbed. Hoa wrapped her in her arms. "No, don't speak like
that. You're going to be just fine. That was a choice you had to make in the moment; it won't happen again. I'll make sure
of that." she smiled at her. "I'm going to keep you safe here. I never want to see you feel pain." Ceviche wiped her tears
away as the anxiety subsided. Hoa gave her a sweet kiss on the cheek and walked back into the kitchen to get breakfast
ready for the two of them. "We'll have a wonderful life here. We have a big house...we have each other...life is great right
now." Hoa brought the food to the table. "In my village, we would have a saying... ' The path may be full of stones, but a
strong mind has no trouble breaking them.'" It doesn't translate well, but it reminds me of you when I think about it. You've
gone through a long stony road, but you made it all throughout your life and came to your happy ending. I'm so happy to be
here sharing this life with you..." Ceviche wiped the last of her tears away, smiling softly. "You're right...even though I've
had an awful twist and turns through life, I never would have met you if I didn't have all these trials and tribulations.
The wind whistled through the trees on a warm spring day, and birds gently sang overhead as the couple made their way
down to the clearing behind their house. The sky was bright and clear, and the fields seemed alive with the blowing grass.
They laid out on their big picnic blanket and laughed all day till the sun came down. Ceviche felt at peace with the birds
and the bugs and the trees, and felt her heart swell as she watched her cute girlfriend laugh and smile.
There's nothing
better than this, she thought,
I truly am blessed to be alive right now. A few years ago she never could have imagined a
life as perfect as this, it seemed so impossible to her then. The crickets began to chirp as the sun started setting, and the
fireflies lit their path as they decided to head back inside. Never again will I spend all my time inside on my phone or my
computer...there's just too much in this world to see. Ceviche could never have imagined she'd spend an entire day without
checking obsessively her phone out of loneliness. She no longer had to worry about her abusive ex friends and boyfriends
who tormented her online. She no longer had to worry about getting enough to eat at night. And most importantly, she had
someone always by her side, keeping her safe. Ceviche decided as she lay in bed next to the most amazing person in her life,
to pull out her poem book and write a few more entries about how she felt. This moment was too perfect to forget about.
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4/21/2016
i wonder if she knows
how deep my love goes
her laugh makes me melt
she knows how i felt
no one gets me
like she
5/2/2013
the winds blow
the birds crow
my wistful heart
lives in the trees.
i love the birds
i love the bees
i even love
the mosquito stings
this is my home.
this is my home.
no one can take
me from here.
never again.
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6/10/2018
the sun has set once more
another day in a paradise
hidden to the rest of the world
here with you is my
heart, and i
have given it to you.
all that i am, all that i will
ever be, i
have given it to you.
i want you happy
and i want you by my side.aaaaaaaaaa
you are my sunshine
you are my sky
you are my trees
you are my
paradise.
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