by koi.fish » Tue Mar 19, 2024 4:00 pm
idk man I have an exam in like less than 24 hours that I haven’t studied for and I suck and I’m a loser and I can never get things done unless it’s at the last minute and the teacher for the subject singles me out specifically I’m not sure if she’s racist or what but like I got average marks last year and only messed up last term and a practice test so why does she have a problem with me specifically. She lied to my parents about me not handing in work that we agreed I handed in but no??? I emailed you and all you said is to see you at lunch and when I didn’t because I saw the email after lunch because you sent it to me in the middle of a lesson you just said I didn’t show up and handed it to me???? Like ok???? What part of this interaction ever conveyed any communication skills from you?? And now I’m stuck having her mark my exams that are crucial for me getting into uni. And getting into university what the heck why have I been wasting the last couple of years worrying about it so much to the point where I can’t pinpoint anything in my high school life that isn’t stress or anxiety. Why do other people get fun and cool school experiences and I don’t. If adult life is worse then literally what is the point???? I know I chose an all girls school on purpose so that I wouldnt be distracted by relationships or whatever but now it’s kind of boring idk my friends are all way closer to each other than they are to me so it’s not like I can substitute a romantic relationship with a platonic one because they don’t particularly care about me that much??? Or maybe romantic relationships are way too hyped up and aren’t even worth the effort it takes to get to know people and care about them. Idk what I want and what if I realize it when I’m way past the age of being able to achieve it? Also about that one teacher, my parents keep defending her, like mate are you not concerned about how she’ll be biased and not mark my exams properly???? She’s done it before, she lied to the head of department and you, what makes you think she won’t do it again????