Username: Goddess Sword
Link to guild:
StarsongCharacter used in prompt:
Suterra |
Rugan |
Fanael |
Dota |
Shiru |
DorbanPrompt:
What is your guild members biggest fear? Feel free to explain this fear through any means possible, whether it be a poem, story or some kind of artwork!
Prior to forming Starsong,
Suterra had a rather average life; Aside from their trips foraging on behalf of their merchant friend, they spent their time simply relaxing and enjoying life in Catalena. It was only after they formed the guild alongside him that they really found a purpose - And, in turn, a fear.
Suterra's greatest fears are that their journey will be all for naught - That they will fail in their goal of reaching the surface, hold their guildmates back in their goal due to their near-complete blindness, and, perhaps worst of all, that they might reach the surface and never be able to see the sky they dream so much of.
Had they been able to see the future, perhaps they might have never formed Starsong at all.Rugan has few fears - Or at least, few that he is open enough to share, or even contemplate alone for more than a few minutes at a time; given the opportunity, he much prefers to simply drink his emotions down until they can't pester him any more.
Starsong's merchant fears injury and death; his brief experience as a fighter proved quite dangerous, nearly leaving him without an ear, an experience far too close for comfort. Combined with the frailty of Scottish folds due to cartilage issues, the shift in careers suited him just fine, but in turn gave rise to another problem - The concern that he and his... less than honest and upstanding ways in merchantry might cause genuine harm to others. The last time that this occurred, it threw Rugan for quite a loop, and he spent several days holed up in the back of his shop, absolutely plastered in an attempt to avoid the uncomfortable implications of the situation and his reaction to it.
Raised as a Caligo,
Fanael never knew true fear for a long time - Even bleeding out in the tunnels, he viewed his situation as an irritating, troublesome consequence of the cruelty he and his people had faced, more than something to fear. It was only after being quite literally dragged into Starsong that his view of the world began to change; and only after the group reaches the surface does his fears begin to surface.
Fanael worries that his first genuine friend, Khalil, might still resent him for the choices he made during their time together; his cruelty and name-calling, his harshness towards the things that made the cat happy, and, most of all, his betrayal during the Caligo raid on Catalena, during which he abandoned the cat who'd saved him in an attempt to rejoin those who had thought him dead and wanted all the residents of the city Khalil had sought out to join him in the afterlife. Though Khalil is kind... he fears that, perhaps, the cat might still hate him for what he did deep down, and that he is right in doing so.
Dota, the guild apothecary, grew up alone; her Catalenan father left her before her birth, too frustrated with the circumstances surrounding his relationship with her Caligo mother, who in turn eventually abandoned the young kitten in fear that she would be driven away or killed for her Caligo nature should she have stayed in the city, or be executed as a traitor alongside her child should she return to her people far below with a half-Catalenan child. Though she knew not of the circumstances of her birth, she knew that she was alone for as long as she could remember, and had to rely on herself; already a great burden to bear from such a young age. When Fanael caused her to realize the truth of her heritage, then...
Dota fears that she will be forever hated and rejected, especially after the revelation that she is half-descended from the arch enemies of the Catalenans with whom she makes her home, the only one she's known in her life; if her own parents loathed her so much that they would leave her on her own, surely others would unhesitatingly do the same. Her acting as a healer is done in large part as a result of this fear, in hopes that by proving herself useful, the others of the city might not be so quick to turn their backs on her.
In the desert where
Shiru was born, little grew - Though the oasis formed long ago by great mages could sustain enough life to give rise to a little civilization in the sands, it could never provide enough to truly thrive. Shiru grew up with fine silks and blown glass and sharp, strong weapons, but meager meals and little else, save the occasional treats brought back to her from the city of Catalena during their harvest festival - And she was one of the lucky ones, from a well-off family who could afford such luxuries.
Though it might be odd for one of her upbringing, Shiru fears not having enough - Enough water, enough food, enough anything. Famine and hardship are things the others of her desert home knew well, and, though it might be selfish and privileged, as she'd always been so much better off, she dreads the possibility that she might someday find herself in the same situation as them. After reaching the surface alongside the rest of her guild, she develops a severe distaste for winter as a result - With few plants growing and prey hidden away sleeping the season away, the cold and snow drives her concerns to the forefront, and the loathes the time and the feelings it brings with all her being.
As for
Dorban... he has known great loss in his life, losses that he can never allow himself to forget or forgive. And yet, the only hatred or revenge he takes out are on himself - A great sense of self-loathing and regret hangs over him like an eternal storm, one which can split and part for a time, but never truly dissipate.
Though in truth there was little to be done about the circumstances, Dorban fears that he might again let those he cares about die due to his own misjudgement; having lost his best friend to a raid monster in their youth after agreeing to leave the cat behind to distract the beast while he and the others of their battalion evacuated the settlement and sent for reinforcements, something which he blames himself for - Had he simply stayed with him, he believes that things might have been different. He still bears the weight of what he deems his greatest failure to this day, and were it to ever happen again, he would surely never forgive himself.