gushing about my crush in 3...2...1...
Ok so remember how I was gonna have a class with ‘bill’ for the first time in a long while? Well I did and it was really surprisingly fun. There were only like 7 people so it was just me and bill and his friends, not the ones who hate me but his actual nice friends who I kinda get on with by default because they are in most of my classes. Anyway so bill was sitting next to me and I say this like it’s a big deal because it is, to me anyway, as he saw that I was moving my bag to this particular desk BEFORE he moved over there I.e. he is consciously sitting next to me and, like, I’m probably reading too deep into this, but seeing as most guys in my grade consciously sit AWAY from me I was already confident. Anyway so out of nowhere he just started talking to me, not in an oh-no-there’s-nobody-else-to-talk-to way because his best friends were literally there ready to start a conversation with but oh no bill picked me. Small insignificant me. And here’s the thing, bill is shy. I could hear the shyness in his voice when he was talking to me cause he kept stuttering and repeating my name like he expected me to turn away. He was asking me just regular questions about the homework and stuff but giving the impression he was actually interested, so I just went along with it and tried not to do anything awkward and get this, I didn’t do anything awkward! However I also wasn’t brave enough to actually say anything with all his friends there and he had to leave early to go to his next class, so that’s that for another month I guess. I’m just kinda scared now that he likes me but doesn’t think I like him back, cause whenever he talks to me I just go into full shy mode because I’m just not used to guys wanting to talk to me, oh jeez I’m a sad sad human being. On the plus side I don’t think I’m in danger of forgetting what he looks like again because he did something weird to his hair lol
now that I think about it I have this theory that his friends were trying to set him up with me...they kept trying to get him to talk about something other than homework and when that didn’t work they just looked directly at me and started talking about how great he was at the subject while he was just getting steadily more red. If that’s the case then wow friendship goals