by Mykie » Mon Mar 05, 2018 5:05 pm
Dear self,
Get it together. Your grades are slipping, your anxiety is rising, you cry too much. Sometimes you need to just breathe, focus, and dont let your problems stop you from achieving what you need to get done. Everything is falling apart. Sometimes i wish i could just take the burden out of peoples lives by not being there. I’m a terrible friend/person, and i apologize whoever meets me. There are times i wish i could just be taken away by some freak accident but then i think about the people who care about me. Theres not many but they’re there. Right now i’m sitting in the bathroom, crying, thinking about how i thought i used to have it bad. I used to be so happy and the slightest thing would make me upset, but now, now I dont even know what happiness is. I always have on a fake smile, i always act fine, but on the inside my heart just wants to beat one last time and get over with it. I didnt want to admit to myself that i wished it was over, but now i have and i feel much, much worse. I feel selfish saying these things, knowing it could be much worse and my life isnt all that bad. I dont know what is continuously bringing me down. I want to talk to my mom about feeling this way, but i dont want her thinking its her fault, i dont want her to feel like she raised me incorrectly. At the beginning of this school year, it was great. I had friends, i had people i could talk to, i wasnt as awkward, but now, I feel like there isnt much for me in life and i feel like im just taking up unnecessary space. The only thing i wish i could answer is ‘what went wrong?’ What went so wrong in my life where i dont even want to be alive anymore? Just what happened?
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