by ThatPersonWithaFace » Wed Mar 04, 2015 9:24 am
████Cavan sniffed and looked up as he heard Nene call his name, hurriedly wiping the tears from his face in attempt to hide the fact that he'd been crying for most the morning, knowing it probably wouldn't work. "I'm up here," he called back, "on the roof."
████He gave her a smile as she made her way up but it slipped away as he saw the guilt on her face when she saw the tears on his. He shook his head and said quickly, "Please don't. This isn't about what happened, well, that's part of it but it's not because of it." He held his hand out to her and gently pulled her down into his lap, wrapping his good arm around her. "With the exception of the other day, I haven't let myself cry since the day I learned my dad was dead and that meant my mother was too. Not when I learned Eztli had a monster in her or when we got kicked out of our home because of it, not when we learned our uncle was dead or when she almost killed *me* because of it, not once during all the years of chasing after her and being terrified each time I'd find her she'd be feral or already lost to her demon, not even when I found out what happened to our mother. I've never let myself because I had to be strong for Eztli, I couldn't risk her seeing me break down. Not to mention seeing your Alpha cry tends to be bad for a Pack's moral, so I always hid the worst of my emotions." He looked out at the forest that surrounded the cabin and finished, "So I figured that now, away from everyone with no risk of anyone seeing me other than you, would be a good time to finally let it out. I had hoped to be done with it before you got up though, but I figured if I couldn't it wouldn't be a big deal with you."
████Cavan smiled at his mate, and lightly kissed her shoulder. "You know, Nene, I've never told anyone this, not Eztli or even Paion, although she probably knows, but all my life I've battled pretty bad depression. I mean, I love my family and my Pack, but the only sure thing my future ever held was most likely loosing the person I cared for most to a monster that I've tried for fifteen years to find a way to get rid of and failed, then still having to run a Pack mostly alone. I truly believed I wouldn't be able to find a mate especially not as long as I have Eztli to deal with and I doubted anyone would want the person I knew I'd become after loosing her. I never wanted to be Alpha either, I never wanted most of the life I have. But now I have you, now, no matter what happens, I have a future I can look forward to. Even if I loose everything else I have you. You've made me happier than I ever thought was possible, Nene." He smiled and gently pressed his lips to hers, as he did so he slipped his hand into his pocket and pulled out the little black box Paion had given him earlier and held it to where she couldn't see it before breaking the kiss. "I was gonna plan this out more but I feel like now's the best time, and I know we've already decided on this but you deserve it to be done right. He used his thumb to open the box and held it out in front of her to reveal a white-gold ring with a wolf head holding a diamond in it's teeth. The eye was a sapphire, blue like his markings and favorite color, and there was a ruby an equal distance on the other side of the diamond, red like her hair and her favorite color. "Will you marry me, Nene?"
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But in the corner, at the cold
hour of dawn, sat the poor girl, with
rosy cheeks and with a smiling mouth,
leaning against the wall--frozen to
death on the last evening of the old
year. Stiff and stark sat the child
there with her matches, of which
one bundle had been burnt.
"She wanted to warm herself,"
people said. No one had the
slightest suspicion of what
beautiful things she had seen;
no one even dreamed of the
splendor in which, with her
grandmother she had entered
on the joys of a new year.
Pet's name: The Little Match Girl