I'd like to think I'm creative, but I kinda leech off of other people's stuff because I think it's cooler than mine. that seems to be a fairly normal natural response, "oh, that's better, gonna take it," but it makes me feel kinda bad sometimes. is it some underlying sense of inferiority maybe or am I looking too deeply into it? idk
staying on the topic of unoriginality, why do so many people feel the need to stand out or be wholly unique/special?? it's ok to not stand out. I'm pretty sure it's because in the modern world people are raised with a sense of specialty from the start. we are encouraged to be our own individuals and follow whatever our own desires set out for us but it's just not realistic!! plus it commonly manifests into unhealthy egos, whether it be narcissism or perfectionism (didn't you know? perfectionism is a misplaced ego. talk to me about it sometime, it's actually pretty interesting). what ever happened to seeking out strength in others? that's what people mean when they say opposites attract. peeps gravitate to those who have traits they admire, usually because they lack it themselves.
ugh I could go on a whole tailspin into how first-world socialization is an absolute mess. countries are riddled with mental illnesses and personality disorders because its citizens are fed the beliefs that you need to be completely self-sustainable and independent, and that somehow relying on others for some things makes you weak and unworthy. I might be projecting a little because I struggle with my own self-worth but it's not hard to see that more family and community oriented areas grow up to be much more functional.