one might believe this molly thinks she's better than everyone
else. one might believe she is simply shy. simply dislikes crow
ds. simply dislikes...the clan itself. none of this is true though
the molly simply doesn't interact with her clanmates much du
e to her condition. at first glance, firefly seems cold and dista
nt one that speaks with a dignified though broken voice. firefl
y is quite cautious and overly suspicious of others, though she
hates herself for this, she can't seem to stop doing so. she fea
rs little, but her biggest fear is herself. despite, her distrustin
g nature, she would trust anyone before herself. she question
s her own motives often, wondering if these motives are posti
ve ones or the opposite. yes, firefly is often trapped in a over
whelming sea of doubt. she refuses to confide in others, for f
ear of...what could happen to them because of her. how wou
ld others see her, if they knew the horrifying thoughts that cl
ouded her mind? though the time of her mother is long gone,
the thoughts still horrify her every time. the time when her
mother walked beside her, before she went mad. her mother
was had lost litter after litter, and finally had another. howe
ver, these kits were to die shortly afterwards and it wasn't lo
ng after that she found out that her mate had cheated on he
r with a outsider. one of the kits, her mate brought back to t
he clan, but her mother wanted nothing to do with the kit. s
he took poor care of the kit, often lashing out at her father.
oh, what a horrible time that was. firefly's life was constant
banter between her mother and father, and it wasn't long b
efore a flame sparked shortly after the mysterious death of
her father. her mother despised her and it wasn't until warri
orhood that firefly had had enough. she confronted her mot
her on a patrol one day, and that's when her mother attacke
d. she was driven mad with grief, confusion, pain, and so ma
ny other emotions. firefly herself was driven with rage and c
onfusion, she didn't understand why her mother hated her, a
s she had watched the loving mothers of the clan treat their
kits with pure affection. however, she wasn't jealous of the
m, she just wanted to know why? why wasn't she loved by h
er mother? why did she hate her? what had she done to des
erve this? as the fight went on, her mother began to spill al
l of what she had done, including murdering her father. thi
s was enough, for firefly as she lunged and landed the killi
ng blow to her mother. she pushed her mother into the riv
er at the clan's border, before leaving with her bloodstain
ed claws. she carried the blood of her mother, but even th
ough she hadn't even flinched afterwards she has suffered
from ptsd since. memories, dreams, the simplest word, ca
n cause her to snap back to that time and become a feline
one wouldn't dare to mess with. she has improved little sin
ce then, forever trapped and haunted by the ghost of her
mother. sometimes, if it is quiet she can hear voices...it d
rives her mad, but she can't seem to do anything about it.
and thus has suffered in darkness since. ───────────
