My Forms *Only for me to use* I may make forms for others

[Darling, Darling]

This will be where I'm keeping all my forms. I also may make forms for other people on request.

[Darling, Darling]

~The Red Haired Dreamer~

The Basics:

It's my last big breath, what you want me to do?
When you act all cool like you already knew.
Then I'll be stuck here cold just waiting it through,
till your heart starts beating for somebody new.

Name:Well you seem like a not so creepy stranger so my name's Alexandrea Brandy Sullie
Nickname: My friends call me ABS,Alex,Al
Age: Well... I'm ______
Birthday: This bombshell of amazingness was born on October sixth.
Gender: Well Mr. Stranger sir, I think it's very obvious.
sexuality: I'm as straight as a stick but, not one of the bendy sticks. The straight ones. Say other wise and I'll beat you with one.

~The Crazy Awkwardness Known As Me~

The Personality:

You know that it's true because, it's beautiful people like you,
Who get whatever they want, and it's beautiful people like you,
Who suck the life right outta my heart, and it's beautiful people like you
Who make me cry, cause nobody else can be nearly as cruel as you,

Personality: I'm an all around sweet heart everyone says. Whenever I meet people I tend to make strong impressions, whether it's good or bad. I'm what my friends call "Classified crazy," but I'm just to random for their brains to keep up with most of the time. Though I'm almost always happy I can be serious. I also tend to hurt. When I'm like this I usually go somewhere by myself because, whenever I do lash out at people it's not personal most of the time but if I do it will take a while for me to apologize to you just because thats me. Whenever I'm in a serious mood I am by far the best listener there is. I don't share secrets due to the fact that I usually forget them but it's all good. I'm usually the friend people go to for advice which I find pretty funny seeing how I can be a mess.
Likes: Disney movies: I absolutely adore disney and my favorite movies are the Lion king; which I know every word too, Toy Story; Woody all the way! My most favorite one though is Finding Nemo. I have my own Nemo stuffed animal.
Movies: I love just sitting back and taking a break to just watch drama not involving me.
Texting: I just want you to know that my phone is ALWAYS on silent but whenever I see that amazing, beautiful blue light it means someones texting me.
Saying random facts: Everyone needs random knowledge in their lives, right?
One Direction: They have amazing music but, I don't really know much about them in general. Guess this'll be awkward.
Dislikes: Snobs: Nobody likes snobs.... They scare me. A lot.
Stuck up people: They're well....Stuck up and don't know how to have fun.
Sadness: When others are sad I tend to become sad as well.
Loves: Singing: I've been singing since I was seven and have been singing ever since. It helps me express how I really feel and people take me seriously when I do.
Playing the piano: I learned how to play when I was twelve and decided to continue to the point where I could write my own stuff and play without having to try very hard if not at all. That and it sounds pretty.
Hates: Clowns: When I was four my family and I went to the circus and I went to go feed the llamas and this clown kept following....Worst circus ever.
Circuses: I hate circuses to as well.
Crowds: I have slight stage fright. It's not that bad though.
Fears: Clowns: I hate them with a passion...
Obsessions: Stuffed animals: I love them! They're just so cute and fluffy, and adorable, and fluffy..... Oh wait, sorry.
Food: I.Love.Food. I can't last an hour without snacking on something.

~The Love Life Of ABS~

Pretty Obvious C:

\ It's a wicked game that you're making me play,
as I call home and you're walking away,
And it's all quiet clear what you want me to say,
but you'll be so long gone if I ask you to stay,
You know it's true~Beautiful People: Cher Lloyd

Boyfriend: Nah not now.
Crush:
Celeb Crush: Channing Tatum
Ex's: A bunch of Josh's, a few Eriks, one or two Dante's, and many Zacks. What can I say I love variety.
What I look for: I like a boy who knows how to have fun. He needs to be able to let loose and just let things take their course. I also like it when they're serious though. When ever I speak about serious things or need help I don't want someone who will just joke about everything. Most important I want someone who will be loyal and love me for me.

~The Not so Interesting History~

History:

Yeah I went through your phone didn't like what I seen,
You promised you'd be true you made a fool out of me,
My friends tried to warn me that I'd waste my time,
I saw your true colors almost lost my mind~ End up here: Cher Lloyd

As a little girl I guess you could say I was pretty much the same sadly. I still have my corner in my room with my stuffed animals towering in one big pile. What can I say I love them all. Well in my teen years I guess I was considered popular and a class clown. I have had many boys some I've played some I've been played by. Thats why in high school I became the player in the relationship. Not very nice but eh, they deal. Now that's about it.Oh I made it big at a recent talent show that was uploaded on youtube. Pretty strange huh? Sometimes I regret it though.What most people don't know is that I lost my best friend to suicide when I was 16 so I take the subject seriously and can burst out crying randomly.

Alright kind sir. You can go now. Have a nice day and watch out for those unicorns.

[Darling, Darling]

The Actress

~The Lovely Life of Miss Montgomery~

~Scene one, and Action~

The Basics

It's my last big breath what you want me to do,
When you act all cool like you already knew,
Then I'll be stuck here cold just waiting it through,
Till your hearts beating for that somebody new,
Cause you know that it's true,

Name: I think my mom was drunk when she named me because it's Lexington Marie Montgomery. Strange first name, I know.
Nicknames: Everyone calls me Lexi or M&M if you're close to me.
Age: Well kind stranger, I just turned ___ a few days ago.
Gender: I'm a girl...
Sexuality: I'm straight. Say otherwise and I'll beat you with a stick.

~It's The Look That Catches the Boys Eyes~

Description

Cause it's beautiful people like you, who get what ever they want,
And it's beautiful people like you, who suck the life right outta my heart,
And it's beautiful people like you, who make me cry,
Cause nobody else could be nearly as cruel as you,

Height: I'm pretty short with a height of five foot three.
Weight: As I'm such a shortie, I weigh 92 pounds.
Hair Color: I'm a natural blonde, and no, I'm not a dumb blonde.
Eye Color: My eyes are a hazel color I think. It's like gold-ish green.
Frame Type: Im classified as petite.
Clothing: I enjoy Hollister, Arepostale, Rue 21, and Wet Seal. My favorite shoes would have to be pumps and converse.

~Your Attitude Defines You~

Personality

It's a wicked game that you're making me play,
Where I call back home as your walking away,
And it's all quiet clear what you want me to say,
But you'll be long gone if I ask you to stay,

Personality: I am a very down to earth girl. I am a go to person and I am by far one of the best listeners there is, but sometimes it gets annoying. Everyone comes to me but when I need someone to talk to everyone suddenly disappears.I sometimes when upset, snap at people and can be very hurtful. When this happens I'm slow to apologize because well thats just me. I enjoy being the center of attention sometimes but I also enjoy staying in the side lines.
Likes: Walking: I enjoy taking long walks. They help me think.
Singing: I am a very vocalized girl and have been in many contest and always wound up in first. It's one of my favorite things to do.
Shower singing: I love it! It's also fun to annoy people with it.
Eating: I am a rather BIG fan of eating and can't go an hour with out food. Thank you God for my high metabolism.
Swimming: Back home we had a swimming pool which I swam in every morning.
Music: Everyone loves music....Everyone.
Dislikes: Crying: I hate when I cry. No one has seen me cry since I was 16.
Annoying people: Pretty obvious of why I don't like them.
Back Stabbers: I've had my past mistakes....
Loves: Acting: I've starred in multiple films and I just love it. I was going to go to a acting school in New York.
Fears: I'm afraid of loosing another person again. I don't think I could deal with it again.

~The Trip Down Memory Lane~

History

Cause it's beautiful people like you, Who get what ever they want,
And it's beautiful people like you, who suck the life right outta my heart,
And it's beautiful people like you, who make me cry,
Cause nobody else could be as nearly cruel as you.

As a little girl I always enjoyed singing and acting which is why I decided to major in it. Growing up I was always in the in crowd. I had many friends and was considered popular. In middle school I met my very best friend Jorge Arruda. We were practically together 24/7 and our parents felt so comfortable with our relationship that we would stay at each others houses even though he was a boy. We stayed like this until sophomore year in high school until he committed suicide. It hurt everyone but me the most. He was my everything. He was always happy and could put a smile on my face by doing the simplest things. And he slipped away just like that. In the following months I battled depression and also thought of suicide but reminders of him always trying to make others happy and him wanting for me to be happy made me stay. In the junior year I got a tattoo on my lower back saying, "Prevail," and one on my left shoulder saying Memories.

~The Busy Love Life~

Love Life

It's my last big breath what you want me to do,
When you act all cool, like you already knew,
Cause it's beautiful people like you, who get what ever they want,
And It's beautiful people like you, who suck the life right outta my heart,
And it's beautiful people like you, who make me wanna cry,
Cause nobody else could be as nearly cruel as you,

Boyfriend: Not at the moment
Crush:
Ex's: I think that there are to many to list. I tend to be the player.
What I look for in a boy: I want someone who will be there for me when I need someone to listen to my problems. He needs to be rather serious but, know how to hang loose and have fun. I don't need to have gifts I just need someone to take care of me. He has to be able to deal with my random break downs and, he has to be a cuddler.

[Darling, Darling]

~The One and only A.B.S~

Dun Dun Dunnnn

~The Boring part~

Name: Alex Bentley Sullivan
Nicknames: ABS Bentley Al Kevin
Age: __
Birthday: Jan 2 at 12:40 am
Sexuality: Straight as a stick, well not those bendy sticks but the straight ones. Say other wise and you'll get hit with one. C:
Crush:
Spouse: HAHAHAHAHA no. I don't think anyone can handle little 'ol me and my awkwardness.
Kids:

~T.A.A.B.~

~The Amazing Adventure Begins~

Personality:
Were to begin? Well first of all, You'll probably never find someone as random as me even if you try. I tend to stick out in the crowd and use my randomness and awkwardness as a source of making people happy. Sometimes though I can be very serious and I don't take lightly to people talking about touchy subjects such as my past. I tend to snap at people when I'm sad or upset and push myself away. I may not apologize about it but that's just me. Gotta love Bentley eh? I am usually quiet around strangers and it takes a LOT of time for me to warm up to others let alone trust again. So if you want to get to know me take it slow, you go to fast you'll scare me.
Likes:
Video games:I tend to enjoy playing video games even though I may be a girl. *Cough* Zelda rocks *Cough*. I can be a really big gamer and when I play I get into it.
Piano: I started playing when I was 7 so If I hadn't liked it why would I continue? I love learning to play more recent songs and Sorry but I kind of don't like that classic stuff.
Animals: I am an absolute animal freak and I tend to compliment animals more than friends. Silly me.
Disney movies:Finding Nemo and Toy story have to be by far the best movies ever made on this earth. Who cares if I'm a grown woman
My absolute favorite clothing item would have to be skinny jeans. Sure you have to do a dance to get into them but why hide your figure? God made you this way.
Spreading happiness: I love to make others happy and I do it as often as I can but, it doesn't mean I'll go skipping through the meadows with you.
Shower singing: I enjoy singing in the shower and I'm proud of it.
Loves: Food: I absolutely adore food. my eating scheduale usually consist of constant snacking and I can't go an hour without food. True story.
Music: I was raised around music so It came naturally for me to like music.
Singing and composing: I enjoy to not only sing but write my own music and I must say I'm pretty good.
Chocolate: Most girls worst enemy but, If you don't know me, I'm not like most girls.
Dislikes:
Being unhappy: I hate being unhappy because if I'm not happy how can I make others around me happy? When I feel this way I usually distance myself from people.
food poisoning: I've gotten this at least six times in my life and it sucks, but.... The food was totally worth it.
Lovey Dovey-ness: I absolutely hate it when people act like this. I mean I understand a simple I love you but, the I love you wars are ridiculous.
Annoying people: There's not much explaining for this one.
Fears:
Someone finding out that I'm NOT ok:I hate it when people worry about me and get concerned. Sure I've had my bum- well more like ditches in the road but I try my best to get over them and pick up the pieces.
Loosing someone else that I love: I've lost someone before and I really don't want to loose anyone else in my life.

~Look At M- Just Kidding go away~

~Power Rangers Roll Out!~

Height: I'm 5 foot 4. Yes I'm a shorty but, most shorties are ninjas.
Weight: At the time I weigh 90 pounds which is a pretty good weight for someone petite like me. Yes, in the past I was anorexic but I quickly learned that it was stupid and stopped.
Hair color: My lovely locks of amazingness are a dark brown almost black. Brunettes all the way.
Eye color:My eyes seem pretty normal. I mean, they're a light goldish color with dark brown specks. Pretty common right.
Clothing:
Skinny jeans: These are my all time favorite things to wear
Shorts: Every once in a while you can find me in a pair of shorts. If basket ball shorts count then a lot more often.
T-shirts: I enjoys loose tees that have words with meanings on them.
Tank tops: Well what do all normal/not so normal people wear when its hot?
Converse: Best shoes ever. Who needs high heels? I prefer the comfortable road.
flip fops: When I'm lazy or late for something I'll just slip a pair on.
Her old shirt and Varsity jacket from Jorge: Pretty explanatory.

Others: Zippety doo

~Welcome to the Secretive Place I Call My Past~

~This topic I take seriously~

History:

When I was thirteen I met my best friend and long ago crush Jorge. We spent the summer
together and were practically inseparable. When summer ended though we became a bit
distant and on October 6th He committed suicide without giving the slightest
clues of unhappiness. I blame myself still for not picking up any signs.
He would always keep everyone smile and he taught me how
to see the good in every situation and for that
I thank him even thought I do hate the
way he handled his problems I can't
change it so I work with what
I have left day by day.
Important memories: October 6th.

[Darling, Darling]

~Dallas Montgomery~

The Basics

Name: Dallas Drew Montgomery
Nicknames:Dallas is pretty good I guess.
Age: I'm 17. Why do you ask?
Gender: Think real hard before asking this again. Next time you'll find a fist in your face.
Sexuality: I'm Straight. No doubts about it.
Siblings: Alexandrea is my little sister. We're pretty close.
Crush: Not really
Girlfriend: Not at the moment.

Personality

Personality: I'm what you call down to earth. I usually go with the flow but if you annoy me I will do something about it. I tend to speak my mind not really caring what others think. Friends call me a trouble maker and well, I am. I'm usually the one coming up with the dumb stuff and always getting caught. Though I seem like a bad boy I can be polite as well. If you're my friend I'll be there for you and ready to punch in a few faces.
Likes: Food: What growing teenage boy doesn't?
Surfing: I lived by the beach growing up.
Swimming: I've been swimming since I was six. Plus I was a life guard last year. Good way to get the girls.
Tv: All sane people enjoy tv.
Video games: I'm a boy, not a girl.
Dislikes: Annoying people: They just well, annoy me. If you're one of these people I'll tend to be rather rude to you. If that doesn't scar you off I'll go off on you.
Jocks: I may be into athletics but the boys who are flat out stupid annoy me immensely.
Fears: I have a fear of heights.

The Looks Do Matter

Height: I'm six foot three.
Weight: I weigh 150 pounds.
Hair: My hair's naturally black.
Eyes: My eyes are a normal Brown.
Clothes: I'm a guy. Give me pants and a t shirt and I'll be fine. I do favor Converse though.

History

History: As a Middle schooler I was a pretty good kid. Good grades, good group of friends, had a nice girl. Then came High school when I changed. I became more of a dare devil and with my changing life style the girls began to change. I admit I am a player. Back at school I had girls following me everywhere. Most of the relationships were flings though.

[Darling, Darling]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CAmjT1hZs8

People live for the fame, the money, the clothes,
I live for the ones who couldn't,
I Dance for the one's who will never get,
The chance to see the next day~ Parker C. Willis

The whole Show

Well hi, I guess if we're going to get to know each other I guess I'll start.My name's Parker. Yes I know it's a boys name but hey, I can't go back in time and tell my mom how stupid it was.If you really need to know my full name it's (Name:) Parker Cali Willis.If that's to long you can just call me (Nickname:) Parker or if you get close enough to me you can call me Parker Pear. Now if you're wondering if I'm legal I am. I just turned (Age:) 18 a few weeks ago. Yay for me! I get to make all my decisions. Hahaha no. I still live with my parents so they pretty much make all the hard choices for me. (Family)My family consist of my mom, my dad, and my little sister.Though my sister can be annoying at times she's my sister. I can't declaim her. She happens to be one of my best friends.I'm there for her when she needs me and she's there for me when I burst out crying.If you really want to know what type of people I like I'll inform you that (Sexuality:) I'm straight as a stick but, not one of those bendy sticks. I'm one of those really straight sticks. Say other wise and I'll beat you with one.While we're on this topic I might as well continue.At the time (Crush:) I'm not crushing on anybody. There aren't a lot of cute boys where I live. Well there was one, but he let fame get to his head.Seeing how there are no cute boys here or nearby (Boyfriend:) I'm currently single.But, I haven't always been single. I was known as the girl player at school. (Ex's:) I've had my share of boys and toys but I stopped this habit when I met this one boy. It doesn't matter because we don't talk anymore.

Well we're going to get a little bit deeper and talk a little bit deeper things. (Personality:) My friends describe me as the "White Oprah". I'm usually the one my friends go to when they have problems. I listen to them and most of the time give them really good advice.Sure, it gets kind of annoying always listening to people talk about themselves but, I do because I care about others and their happiness.When I'm not helping others I'm usually carefree and fun to be around.Some say I'm the life of the party and boy do I like to party.I'm usually known as an all around good person but, even we snap sometimes.I tend to when either upset or sad, snap at others.I can be rather mean and hurtful when this happens and it will take me a while to apologize. Maybe it has to do with my ego.Well now that you know a little bit more about me I'll start with the things I enjoy and make my way down to the things I hate. (Likes:) The thing I love the most would have to be dancing.I've been dancing since I was seven and I've done it ever since.I'm known as the dancer in town.My best friend used to say I was going to make it big.I quit dancing for a period of time when I was depressed though but, a lot of thinking and therapy got me back into the dance room and it's helped me deal with things a lot.Music is also something I enjoy. Without music I wouldn't be where I am today.My second love would probably have to be surfing. I started surfing in eighth grade.One more thing I also like would have to be shopping. I think I speak for almost every girl when I express my love for shopping.Now to the things I dislike. (Dislikes:)I hate failure. It takes me a while to accept when I fail but, when I do I put my all into improving. I really hate when people are sad as well.I'll go out of my way to cheer people up even if in the process it upsets me a little.I hate, absolutely hate annoying and self centered people. All they think of is themselves. (Fears:) My number one fear would have to be loosing someone else in my life. I've lost people before and no, not relationship related people. A while ago my favorite cousin died of cancer and exactly ten months ago my best friend committed suicide, so don't tell me I don't know what it's like to lose someone because, I do.Another fear I have is rejection. Whether it's on the dance floor or anywhere else. It scars almost anyone though. A rather strange fear I have is plastic surgeries. The people who get it scare me. It reminds me of Frankenstein. I also hate scary movies. Just throwing it out there.

If I get a bit emotional about this part I'm sorry. It;s just my history's a really messed up and complicated one. (History:) Well as a little girl I was the star child. That was the case until Middle School. I met my very best friend Jorge there in 6th period in English class. We got to be really good friends and during the summer we were always at each others houses. He'd give me guy advice and in return I'd give him girl advice. You could say he was the sprinkles to my Ice cream. We were like this all the way through High School until I met this one boy. I totally ignored him and I was to caught up in this boy. When he left for X Factors and ditched me I realized how bad I'd treated him. We quickly made amends and went back to normal. Least did I know that in that long period of time things were horrible for him. A few months later he committed suicide not saying a word or giving any hints to anybody. I fought depression after that and even thought of ending my life. I didn't though because I knew that he would have wanted me to make the best of my life and do what I loved to do which was dancing.

Now I guess we can talk about the random things. I'll start with my accomplishments I guess.(Accomplishments:) Well I've danced in the katy perry California girl video. I'm a pepper mint. I've been in the new remake of the movie fame. I played Alice, the dancer of course. I danced in so you think you can dance, a while back and I saved a sea turtle once. Just throwing it out there. (Body Modifications:) Well sir, I have my three piercings on my left ear and two on the other. I also have a belly button piercing but my family doesn't know yet. (Theme song:) Well... My theme song would have to be those two catchy ones by Cher Lloyd that I choreographed. End up here and Love me for me.

[Darling, Darling]

And they say,
She's on the class A team,
Stuck in her daydream,
Been this way since 18,

But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream

So I guess that I should Introduce myself. My Name: Is Caitlyn Jay Morgan. I guess you could say I was named after my mother. I wouldn't know much seeing how she died giving birth to me. Dad said I always seemed like a Caitlyn and so you have it. My Dad'f father's name was Jayden but that would seem like a weird name so he just stuck with Jay. As for my last name, it comes from a long line of old people. Pretty simple right. If you get close to me I usually go by Nicknames: Cat, or Cj but, you can only call me Cj if you're close to me. If you're not it just annoys me. Well, Im Age: finally 18 and able to do whatever I want. Yay? I was born on July fourth. Crazy right? I still live at home with Family: my dad, step mom, and half sister. I'm pretty cool with my dad but Not so much with my 'New' mom. She tries to hard and seems so fake. I guess me and my sister on neutral. I honestly can't wait to move out though. I think most teens will agree with me on that though.

Well lets get a little deeper then shall we? Personality:My friends call my the crazy one which is probably true seeing how I'm ADHD. I'm usually everyones source of laughter and I enjoy it. Most people will describe me as being outgoing or blunt, which is true. Whenever I hear something I usually speak my mind about what I think of it if it's hurtful or not. I also tend to be sometimes rude and mean. It's usually because I'm upset or hurt.When like this I tend to often lash out at others and my words can be very hurtful. If this happens it will take a while for me to apologize because that's just who I am. Whenever someones sad or feeling down I tend to try to make them happy by being random which is the usual with me. If this doesn't help I can be the best listener there is. I have also been told that I give very good advice and close friends have called me, "The White Oprah," a few times. It's a bit weird if you ask me but, you didn't so yeah. Be nice to me. Most of the time I'll be nice back.

Well let's talk about my likes and make my way down to the dislikes now. Likes: I like to take photos. I think I could do it as a career if I wanted to but, I really don't so I won't. I really like food. Thanks to my rather high metabolism I can eat as much food as I want and I do. I tend to only go a hour or two without having to get more food. Another thing I like to do is sing. Only a few people have heard me sing including Jorge. I'm rather good to if I may say so myself. I enjoy walking on the beach as well as surf boarding seeing how the first thirteen years of my life I lived on the beach. I also like sea turtles. One time I rescued a baby one from a seagull and named him Buster. I kept him as a pet for a while until dad found out I was keeping an endangered species in our back yard. I love beanie babies. I have a corner of my room dedicated to them. Strange, I know. But hey, every one has a certain thing they love right?

Now for the non-fun dislikes. Dislikes:I hate sea food. I love everything else but, absolutely hate sea food. I also dislike being judged. I'm me, it's not like I can just go change into something that I'm not. I hate when people look at me and talk about how I'm such a failure to my family. Sure I made a few mistakes but, I tried my best to fix them the best I could. I hate clowns. I have a strange fear of them and they just creep me out. The thing that probably upsets me the most is when people make others feel like they aren't worth anything. You were sent to this earth for a reason because that guy in the sky has a plan for you. So what there may be a few bumps in the road. You look at them, and jump over them and leave it with a laugh. That's pretty much the basics of what I like and dislike Mr. Stranger sir.If you want to know anything else about them just ask. I won't bite. A lot..

Now let's take a trip down Memory Lane. It may be a long and scary one but it's where I go to feel the happiest. History:As you may have figured out my mum died giving birth to me. So I never met her. I've seen many photos and videos though. She was a lovely woman who looked so different compared to me. I have her eyes though. Everyone says I do. Growing up without a mother was tough and when kids at school asked questions I felt horrible. I met my best friend Jorge in third grade. He was a year ahead of me so he was like a big brother to me. He was always there for me when I needed him and I thank him for that. We watched over each other like we were actually related. We made a pac that no matter what happened we'd always be there for each other. We stayed this way even through my dad's new marriage when I was thirteen. I stayed with Jorge during this time frame refusing to come home. I finally came home when dad found out where I was staying. Jorge and I used to talk about making it big one day and sometimes I think he wasn't just kidding. It happened in my sophomore year. When he ended his life that is. He hadn't bothered to tell me that his mom and dad were fighting and the abuse that was going on in his house. He just did it. Gave up on life itself and it hurt. It still does. I went down hill from there. I did drugs and even drank at one point. It helped me though. Well, at least I thought it did. It was like the whole situation wasn't real. I kept telling myself that Jorge's going to pick you up for school today but, he never has and I know that he never will. It's something I have to live with. I used to also cut myself. I have the scars still see? I stopped though in my last year of school and I entered rehab. I've been okay'ish ever since. I still miss him though. I haven't dreamt once since the day he ended his life. Sometimes I wish I did so I could talk to him. I know its realistic but that's all I got now. Fantasies and bitter sweet things like videos and photos to remind me that this is real. I never told him that I loved him and I regret that the most though. It was as if God were laughing at me for not being brave enough. Maybe it was funny. Maybe this was some sick joke.

Description:Right now I guess we can talk about what you see.That is before I burst out crying. I must say I'm not that bad on the eyes if I can. I'm rather petite with the weight:of eighty nine pounds and the height of five foot three. I know I'm VERY short but I can't change that fact. Skin:I have a rather pale skin complexion for someone who spends so much time in the sun. Maybe I have a condition. My hair: is naturally brown and curly. It gets lighter when I'm in the sun or if I blow dry it right after a shower. I often want to dye it but with the overly large amounts of different shades people say it would be a waste of money. Yes my hair is in fact natural. People say I always had my mother's eyes.Eyes:They said her's was a mixture of all sorts of blues. in the middle my eyes are a dark blue with gray specks and around it is a ring of teal. The rest is just a light blue. Now for the not so natural things. Body Modifications: I have two earring on each of my ears. I have a butterfly tattoo in my lower belly waist area. I also have a tattoo on my lower back with the lyrics from the song Poison and Wine.Clothing: My clothing consist of skinny jeans, short shorts, dresses, T-shirts, Tank-tops, flip-flops, Vans, Converse, and sometimes high heels.

My love lifes pretty plain seeing how I've only been in love once. He'll always be my first. Crush:I'm not crushing on anybody right now even though there are many boys around to crush on I just don't get the time anymore. I mean to be honest I could continue to make excuses but I just don't get the point of crushes at the moment and most likely any future moment. Boyfriend:I haven't had a real boyfriend in three years now. As said above I don't see the point in being in a relationship. All they do is distract you from what really matters. What am I saying? Love means a lot in life. I'm just do stuck in the past to really care. Ex's I've had quiet a few ex's but the relationships didn't last long. What to look for in a guy:I usually look for a guy with a good personality and a funny personality. He has to be able to share his food with me and watch all my Disney movies without falling asleep because I love Disney. This fairy tale of a guy needs to be able to be serious though so he can balance me.

[Darling, Darling]

And they say
She's in the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream
Been this way since 18
But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting
Crumbling like pastries
And they scream
The worst things in life come free to us
Cos we're just under the upperhand
And go mad for a couple of grams
And she don't want to go outside tonight
And in a pipe she flies to the Motherland
Or sells love to another man
It's too cold outside
For angels to fly
Angels to fly

Hey, It's nice to meet you. I guess I should start by telling you about me. Well, My Name: is Kassidy Andrew Trumen. I was named after my mother who I never met seeing how she died giving birth to me. My great grandpa's name was Andrew so that's where I got my middle name and the last name is pretty easy to figure out. Some people call me Nicknames: Kas, or even Kat seeing how that's what my initials spell. As for my Age:I'm finally 18. You would think that this would seem exciting but, it's really scary if you think about it. I mean you're getting kicked out of home. Speaking of home, I live with my family, well part of it is my real family. My Family consist of my dad, my step mother whom I really don't like due to her seeming so fake, and my half sister. Even though she's a reproduction of my

father and the she devil my sister is pretty cool. Plus, I can't just disown her....Right? Well She's basically one of the closest people to me. Whenever I'm down; which is ofter, she's there to listen to me and is by far one of the most amazing people on this earth. I guess we should talk about my Personality: now. My friends describe me as the crazy one which is probably true seeing how I'm ADHD and all. I'm usually the one to laugh in a serious time like at a funeral which I have done before but I had a right. They say I'm usually just a little ball of sunshine and that I'm easy to get along with which is good right. Well when ever I'm not goofing around and starring at strange things and saying random facts or opinions, I'm really sweet. I have been told multiple times that I'm by far one

of the best listeners there is. I'm often the go to person when you have a problem that needs to be fixed. I can be mean though. Whenever I'm upset or sad I will tend to lash out at others. When this happens I can be very rude and hurtful and I will say sorry in advance right now. If I snap at you it will take a while for me to apologize because thats just the way I am.When I'm upset I tend to distance myself so I can prevent this. Overall if you're nice to me I will most likely be nice right back to you. Just remember that if you ever need anything I will do my best to do it or at least make the situation better than it already is. Oh please don't use the words hate around me I won't take you seriously. Just saying.

Alright now for the Likes and dislikes. I'll start with the Likes: I.Love.Food. Me having a high metabolism is great due to the fact that I am in love with food. I tend to have sharing problems when it comes to my food and this one time I bit my friends hand when she tried to take my beef jerky. I love beef jerky as well. I love to sing even though only a few people have ever heard me sing. I also play the piano and I have been playing since I was twelve. I am in love with ALL disney movies and who can blame me. They're magical right.Now for the Dislikes:. I hate stuck up people. They're selfish and only care about themselves. I also hate it when people try to take my food. One thing I can't stand is when people try to make others feel like they aren't worth anything. You are the reason for someones smile and you better remember that.

Now for my long and depressing History:. As a little girl It was hard growing up with only my dad but, he did his best and I'm thankful for that. In elementary school I got picked on a lot when topics about parents were concerned. I met my best friend who just so happened to be a guy named Jorge. He was a year older than me but did his best to stick up for me. We had been friends since 2nd grade for me and 3rd grade for him. We stayed this way all the way till highschool and many people seriously thought we were brother and sister. I mean sure we were always with each other but siblings, nah. I met this one boy who I really liked and Jorge and I stopped hanging out as much. After the nasty break up in sophomore year Jorge was there for me. In that time period though I didn't know what type of problems were going on at his home. A few months after that he committed suicide not giving anyone a clue or any signs. I still blame myself for it. I cried a while on a daily basis and even resorted to drinking. I got into a bad crowd that year and the next but in my last year of highschool I got sober and in memory of the whole struggle against depression I got a butterfly tattoo on my left wrist where some scars can be seen. Underneath the butterfly are the words, "Prevail,". What really helped me the most was the realization that he would have wanted me to smile and be happy even with him gone. It was as if he were letting me know that I didn't need him to stick up for me any more like the times in elementary school. Jorge was telling me that I wasn't that scared little girl anymore. I was a young woman with her future in front of her and so I got better for us.

On the brighter side lets talk about my nonexistent love life. So you make be wondering who I like and who my Crush is. Crush: At the moment and near future I won't be liking anyone due to the fact that I have very high standards and I tend to compare boys. I will move on eventually but it will take me time so just sit down grab a ticket and wait for your number to be called. As for a Boyfriend: I don't have one nor do I need one. I never got to tell Jorge how I felt and I never got to tell him that I loved him so I'm very shaky when it comes to relationships. Take it slow and maybe, just maybe I'll let you in. Now for my short list of Ex's:. I have had a few but, not recently because you know... I have things I need to deal with. I've had four or five ex's though. Now What to look for in a boy:I look for someone who knows how to have fun and just be themselves. I want someone who will take me seriously and except me for my flaws and there are a lot of flaws. This prince charming has to have a really really big appetite so I don't feel like a total cow when we go out to eat.

Now for the looks. As you can see I'm pretty short with a Height: of five foot four. I'm very proud to be called a shorty though. With me being so short I only weigh Weight: 87 pounds and 3 ounces. For my Choice of clothing: I would prefer my favorite old t-shirt, regular t-shirts, tank tops, Vans, Converse, Skinny jeans, Shorts, and of course sweat pants. My Hair color: I naturally a giant mix of browns. Somedays when I blow dry my hair I can even pass off as a dirty blonde. My Eye color:is also very confusing with dark blue in the middle with a pale blue ring around it and the rest is a blueish gray. As for Body Modifications:I have my ears pierced twice on each side and my belly button is as well. For tattoo's I have three of them. The butterfly with the word prevail and one on my lower back with the song title 'The A team,' on my lower back in cursive. On my ankle I have a small cross with the words strength on the inside of it. That's about it for telling you about me. Sorry if I bore or offended you in any way but, I really don't care.

[Darling, Darling]

Elizabeth Cee Montgomery

Well hi there. Nice of you to stop be and say hello. Since we're going to have to get to know each other why don't I go first then love. First things first, my full(name:) as listed at the very top is Elizabeth Cee Montgomery. I got my first name from thee Queen Elizabeth herself with my father being a British Historian and all. I got my middle name Cee, from my mother who always had a fondness of the waters she grew up around in Australia. At least that's what my dad tells me seeing how she died a few weeks after giving birth to me in a car accident. I get my last name from a long line of British men. As for(Nicknames:) I get the usual Liz and Beth but, if you get close to me or I like you, you can call me Ellie. I love this name due to my obsession with elephants and the part that it goes with my name. Now if you just so happen to be blind or mentally unstable I shall inform you of my(Gender:). I am without a doubt 100% percent female. The doctors wrote on my certificate that thats what I am and that's how I will always be. Now as of my(Age:), I just turned eighteen on July fourth which is pretty funny seeing how I'm Australian and British. My birthday has made me rather fond of the US so that's a plus. Speaking of where I originate my(Family:) consist of my father and I. My mum died a few weeks after giving birth to me. It was in a car accident with a drunk driver on the interstate. My dad has been a great father and has made up for the absence of my mum. Due to her being gone I have become a daddy's girl. I've grown up to be very girly though so it's all good. I love my daddy with all my heart though.

All right lets talk about the attitude that I'm known for then.(Personality:) My friends describe me as being literally the life of the party. I am described as always being happy and when others are around me it seems like its very contagious. I love to be with my friends and I tend to be very random. What I'm know for is being very awkward in serious situations which is good because it either lightens the mood or confuses people but, confusion is always better that seriousness. I can usually be found on my couch on my laptop because it's my baby. I can be fun to be around and not very serious or I can be very sensitive and understanding. My friends usually go to me when they need advice or just somebody to listen to their problems. I have been told that I give the best advice which I find very flattering yet funny because, I have a very complicated life. I'm almost always happy but when I'm sad I tend to snap at others which is why I usually distance myself from others. If I do lash out at you it will take a while for me to apologize due to the fact that I like to solve the main problem at hand before making amends. It has nothing to do with you it's just the way I am I guess. When I'm upset I usually just seclude myself in my room and just watch reruns of my favorite series. My father raised me by myself and majoring in history made him rather old fashioned when it came to manors. I'm rather polite when it comes to talking but I'm not afraid to throw around a few swears here and there seeing how I'm not much of a christian. This doesn't mean I'll swear like a sailor. People who do this annoy me because the way they talk tells me that the only place that they'll ever get in life is living on their mother's couch and working at Walmart with a minimum wage income.

Alright lets talk about the things I like then the not so fun things I dislike.(Likes:) The one thing I love the most would have to be food. I have a belief that I can't go an hour without snacking on something unless I'm asleep. This is why I'm thankful for my high metabolism. Another thing I like is surfing. My father moved us a few blocks away from the ocean my mum grew up on. Oh how I miss Australia. I love to sing though the only person who has ever heard me would have to be my dad. I have a cd with a few songs I wrote myself. I also play and write my own music on the piano. I love animals and when I was five a rescued a baby seat turtle that I named Momo. Don't ask me why I named it that, I was five. I kept it in our backyard for a while.

Now for the(Dislikes:) Though I lived by the ocean I have a keen disliking to sea food. It probably came after I saved Momo. Another thing I hate is sharing. Sure I can understand the basics but if you try touching my food I will bite you. I also have a fear of clowns. My dad took me to a fair when I was six and a clown popped out of no where and I've been scared for life. Another thing I don't like is when people annoy me. I often get the urge to hit people in the face though I've only hit five people in all my years. I HATE it when people who can't sing think they can. It's like dude, if you can't do it why even try? I hate when people bully others. I have often been judged for not having a mom and when others are at the persons harm it just p*sses me off. Who gave you the right to judge someone you don't even know?

Let's talk about a rather depressing topic I like to call my(History:). When I was little I lived in London with my father. I spent most of the time with him and his many books while he wrote one of his many best sellers. Not only was he a historian but, he also wrote books. We lived off of microwaved meals for a while but he hired me a nanny so I could have a real person to take care of me. We moved to Australia when I was three to the closet city to the ocean that my mother grew up by. Father always talked about her and it was always good things that I heard. He said that I got my voice and eyes from her. He is in fact proven right by the pictures that I have seen. It was pretty hard going to school and being judged for not having a mum but it's quiet alright because it made me stronger and who I am today. In middle school I met my best friend Daniel. Daniel was an all around sweetheart and we became very close. During the summer Daniel even stayed with her while her dad was locked away with his studies. It was ok though because Daniel was like a brother to me nothing more. We stuck up for each other and stayed close until high school started. I met this one boy I really really like and I totally ignored Daniel. Me and Mr. He Who Shall Not Be Named, went through a bad breakup a few months later and of course Daniel was there for me. In that time period though, I had no clue what type of family problems went on at his house hold. His parents were fighting and were even bringing Daniel into the loud shouting. Daniel committed suicide a few weeks after we made up. It was around the end of my Freshmen year and the following two years were filled with me fighting with my dad, drugs, and alcohol. I got better though in my Senior year knowing that he wouldn't want me to live my life like this. I got better and with all my improvements I realized that throughout my life in Australia Daniel had watched me grow. Apparently the problems at his home had always been like this but, Daniel had gotten to close to me to end it earlier. He waited until he knew I would be somewhat ok without him but I still miss him sometimes. Well, most of the time.

Lets talk about love now why don't we? At the time(Crush:) I don't like anyone. I've been to busy thinking about more important things in life like my well being and the ones around me. I've had a few boys openly come up to me and say they like me but it's going to take someone special to get through my thick walls I've put up over the years.You will have to either be a god in a boys body or have to impress me greatly for me to like you. As of a(Boyfriend:)? Hahahaha! You're funny. I haven't had one since freshmen year and that only lasted four months. I haven't had one since I lost Daniel because I find it hard to get close to another boy. If you wait and are patient I may let you in though. You might want to grab a ticket and wait for your number to be called though. Now for my pretty long list of(Ex's). I have a rather unusual number of ex's. When I was younger I was quiet the player if I may say so myself. I've dated a few Kevins, Joshes, and Dylans. There are a few more but I don't want to continue on with the strange names. Lets just go over what I look for in a guy ok?(Looking for in a guy:) I'm looking for someone who knows how to joke around. He has to be able to take things rather slow. This stranger must be able to be serious and take me seriously as well. If he wants any chance at being with me he has to be somewhat a good cuddler because when I'm upset or lonely I will cuddle. Mr.??? will have to have a big appetite so I don't feel like a total pig as well. It be good for his health as long as he didn't try to steal my food unless I offer it up which probably won't happen. Ever. It would be nice if he had a liking to music. After a while I'd probably let him listen to me sing.You'll have to be a very amazing person to get me to sing though.

I'm just going to list random things about my looks. Starting now! My(Eyes:) are a boring brown but I can't complain I get complimented on them all the time. My(Hair:) hair is all natural with many shades of blonde and really light brown in it. If you must know my(Weight:) is 87.3 pounds. Very exact I know. I'm rather short with a(Height:) of five foot two. Very short I know. For clothing apparel(Clothes:) I absolutely love skinny jeans and converse. I wear loose t-shirts and sometimes a dressy shirt. I enjoy wearing hoodies as well. Now for(Body Modifications:) I have three tattoos. There's a cross on my ankle but, its very small. There's a small micky mouse on my left shoulder blade and I have the word 'Prevail,' on my right wrist.

[Darling, Darling]

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give up
Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" and you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?
And please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand

"Well hello there. I guess this is kind of like twenty one questions. Fun game right? Well let's start with the basic stuff and just make our way down. My Name: is Alice Cee Williams. I was named after my mom's favorite book which just so happened to be, "Alice in Wonderland,". I got my middle name from my dad who's a marine biologist but, Sea sounded weird. My last name comes from a long line of Williams. When it comes to Nicknames: I go by Al, or just Alice. If you're a cool person I'll let you call me A.C. though,".

" At the moment I'mAge: eighteen years old. My birthday's on the fourth of July which I find insanely funny seeing how my mom was Australian and my dad's British. Speaking of my dad, my Family: consist of just him and I. My mum pasted away when I was three in a car accident. I don't remember much about her though. My father is an excellent man who has raised me just fine. I have pet dog if that counts as a family member... I currently still live with my dad and I'm totally ok with that because I like his company even though most of the time he's off in his study. Me and Jd get along just well. Jd being my dog that is. I do wish my mum was still here sometimes though. For girl advice and all. Growing up I had no one to talk to so when the time of the month came it was pretty awkward with me and dad. I love him with all my heart though and he does his best,".

Let's talk a little bit about my Personality:." Everyone describes me as being outgoing and an all around good person. I think I'm known most around my group of friends for being such a good listener. They say I'm the go to person when somethings wrong or is bothering them. I'm glad to listen though often giving really good advice which I find funny seeing how I can't deal with my own life. I enjoy making other smile and laugh which is why I'm described as being random and bubbly. I can be really serious though and I myself have my own problems. It's rather difficult for me to get close to others after the past incidents that have occurred in my life.I try my best though so people don't worry about me or ship me away to an insane asylum. That wouldn't be very fun.When I'm upset or mad I tend to distance myself from others because I can be mean when I'm upset. I tend to let stress get to me and snap at others very badly. I won't apologize at first because I usually want to deal with the main problem in hand but, I will eventually apologize to you,".

"Now for my likes and dislikes. First we can talk about the Likes:. I love to sing. Not many people have seen me sing and the only real person to have would be my dad really. I also play and write my own music on the piano. I have been dancing since I was twelve and I have both degrees in music and dancing. I'm going to become a drama teacher though so I'm majoring in acting. If dancing and my music doesn't work out I'll always have acting as a back up. I love to swim and When I lived in the Uk with my dad I'd always be found in the pool. I love christmas like almost every other person would. I like to decorate my room with christmas lights because it gives the room a magical touch. My favorite thing would probably have to be milkshakes. Vanilla milkshakes are by far the best inventions ever. I order one whenever I go out to eat or go through a drive threw. I used to ride horses competitively until my horse died. I was very attached to him so when he did pass it was hard on me. I go back to the stables sometimes though,".

"Now for the shorter list of Dislikes:. I hate when people pick on others. You don't know what their life is like and you don't deserve to ridicule them about little things the exist. No one should be degraded by people who have low self esteems. Before you judge someone else look at yourself hard in the mirror and just find out what your life status is before picking on someone else. I may seem like I'm ranting but I seriously hate this with a passion. No one has the right to make someone else feel like they aren't worth anything. God made you the way you are you will always be perfect in his and in my eyes,".

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" and you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?
And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To say what we have

So I make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" and you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?
Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" and you're not listening
How long til we call this love, love, love?

I'm scared today, more than I told you I was yesterday
Give me a moment to catch my breath
And hold me every second left
Proud of me, that's the only way I want you to be
Look at me and love what you see
I won't make it alone, I need something to hold
Kiss me on my shoulder, and tell me it's not over
I promise to always come home to you
Remind me that I'm older to be brave, smart, sweet, and bolder
And don't give up on what we're trying to do
Don't count the miles, count the I love you"s

The History is A Very Messy Thing

"Well as listed above you might have figured out that I'm talking about my history. When I was young my mother was killed in a car accident on a interstate. The driver turned out to be a drunk, go figure. I grew up not know her but, my father would tell me things about her sometimes when I asked. He said I had her eyes and everyone else agreed. I was also told that I have her hair which after looking back at old photo's proved to be right. She was very beautiful my mother that is. It was hard in elementary when all the kids asked questions and made fun of me. I usually stayed to myself but one boy caught my eye. He was always happy and soon he approached me. After that day in third grade he always looked after me like a brother. His parents fought a lot at his house so dad often let him stay with us and he even got his own room. Well, it was the guest bedroom but, it's all the same right? We grew up together him always teaching me things. In fact we never even got into a fight in those twelve years. When we got into high school he committed suicide. No warnings, nothing. I fell into depression and sunk down to very very low levels. I resorted to drinking and hung out with a bad crowd. In my junior year of high school I went through rehab and got better. Seeing how I did so good at recovery my dad let me get these tattoos I always wanted. I have a Micky Mouse tattooed on my right shoulder, a small cross on my left ankle and the word, 'Prevail,' in cursive on my left wrist. I've been sober and ok ever since but, I still do cry over him at times... He waited though. There had always been family problems at his house but he waited. He waited for me to grow up to the point that I wouldn't take the same road as him,".