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- LOCATION; cafe โ TAGGING; Johann, Lyall, Dakota โ MENTIONED; -- โ WC; 1,032
- A smile, the kind that seemed to bring out the cupid's bow at the crest of his mouth, settled onto Johann's lips, and although, on her outermost level of cantankerous awareness, Carson found it absurd, it worked like an unobtrusive salve, allaying her temper and smoothing back her hackles as if she had been an ill-behaved dog, bristling at nothing more than its own reflection in a pond. Most importantly, it gave her the excuse to marginally let down her defenses and settle into Johann's company, even if she kept the table between them as if it were the physical guarantee of being allowed to keep someone at arm's length. And if he were to come at her with any of that mushy pack love stuff, she would find a fire-poker (or an adequately sharp stick) and defend herself as if her life depended on it.
indentindentindentHis response provoked a huff, a wryly amused and perhaps even slightly surprised sound from the back of her throat, and she silently, absently, tapped the tabletop with her left hand's fingertips. If she were someone to consider such things, much less admit them to anyone, she might have mentioned that Johann had possibly the smallest ego of them all, even when he could have afforded a sizeable one. Instead, she shrugged her shoulders faintly, and the fabric of her coat gave a hushed rustle as it shifted, caught only by her ears in the steady noise of the cafe interior. When her shoulders settled again, they were somewhat more relaxed, and her body language less poised to defend. To restate, Carson had never actually been concerned about anyone's reputation, so Johann's inference was nothing more than a source of amusement for her.
indentindentindentHowever, his conspiratorial dive closer was what truly snagged Carson's attention, and she turned her eyes back to his, even when the words themselves were more a source of puzzlement than an understanding found in some manner of inside joke. Was it nothing more than a knowingly worded barb to catch her interest and have her wading into the bustling crowd outside in his company, or had the alpha fumbled and dropped his marbles somewhere among the stalls outside? It was tentative, and Carson herself wasn't even certain why she was smiling, but the corner of her lips quirked up, much in the way one smiles when they are uncertain whether they are in on the joke or possibly the subject of it, but the answer seems irrelevant.
indentindentindentThe conversation happening at the back of the room was a matter that Carson, in all of her foresight and prudence, might have been willing to dismiss so that she could instead focus on less unpleasant things, considering she thought of it, at worst, as nothing more than an unfortunate coincidence that had the potential to bring some unpleasant yet inevitably harmless scrutiny down on her and her kin. Yet it clearly concerned Johann far more than herself, because his posture had gone rigid and the smile had faded from his features in favour of settling them into harsher, worried angles. In the end, it was his reaction that diverted Carson's attention more than the conversation itself, and she regarded him with expectant eyes, inching again closer to reticence than she had been a moment before.
indentindentindentYet the sudden severity in his eyes was not something Carson could have prepared herself for in such a short time, and were she not so concerned with keeping her reactions to herself, she might have flinched under his glare. The situation had flipped in the blink of an eye, and Carson could feel the wolf pacing in the corner it had abruptly found itself in, and baring the whites of its teeth in uncertain flashes. It was instinct, but when Johann turned his eyes away from her, she knew he was about to confirm that sore fear of hers about getting close and vulnerable with anyone or anything. Was the booth getting smaller? Was that even possible? Carson tensed, as if to take a punch, but it was not enough, because his accusation sliced like a knife into the bare skin of her many insecurities โ his words were veiled, but it did an awful little to lessen the impact.
indentindentindentThe booth turned into a different place in another time, the conversation too close to what had happened then. Cassandra had accused her of carelessness, of endangering the quiet life of their family. Johann had no right to โ. Guilt tightened Carson's throat and stoked the animal instinct to flee before the walls could close in. She stood so abruptly that the table between them trembled where it had been riveted to the floor. Her skin was prickling, shivering under the force of the wolf that was baying to leap out, but even in her heightened state, she knew that she could not let it happen in the middle of a busy cafe. She would only be proving Johann's point.
indentindent"I didn't see a thing," she hissed from between clenched teeth, even when she could feel curious eyes begin to turn and burn holes into her back. "And I don't care who you think you are, but I don't have to stand here defending myself to you."
indentindentindentCarson wheeled around so that she could leave, but she had been so caught up in the tension of the moment that she had missed the peal of the bell and the arrival of Lyall and Dakota. She nearly collided into the latter, but managed to avoid it and merely passed her with a harsh brush. She granted neither the beta nor Lyall a glance as she made a beeline for the door and spent the last of her patience on not tearing the handle from the wood when the bell made its tinging announcement to the patrons. She burst out into the cool evening air, roughly shoving her hands back into her pockets and heading along the sidewalk with fuming steps without a destination in mind. People flowed past her, but she hardly noticed them, as her mind was turned inward to keep herself from shifting right then and there.