The Testing ☢ The Pain ☣ The Revolt v.3

[Ayato ototochan]

Max
He leaned into the touch and nuzzled into him when he hugged him. He bit his lip "I...I love you too...b...but please...please stop...abandoning me..." He looked up at him with teary eyes "please I'm begging you...I...I don't want to be alone...I...I don't want to be away from you..." He quivered "I...I hate being alone...I...I was always alone until you came along...and...and I...I put my trust in you and...and I never do that...it...it hurts when you leave me behind..." He whimpered

Awwww *blushes* )

[fiver]

Eric looked at him before nodding. "I'm sorry..." He said softly before planting a kiss on his forehead before pulling back slowly. He offered a smile and ruffled his hair some.

[Mrs. Winchester]

Ashley

She nods. "Do you mind if I explore around the building?" She asks him sittin up and resting on her palms.


(*we are family* song plays in background)

[Ayato ototochan]

Max
He whimpered "pl...please don't lie to me Eric...do you...do you not want me around you any more? Do you...do you really want to...to dump me off?" He asked and looked at him. His eyes were filled with pain and fear. The fear that it was true and the fear that he would be alone yet again. He was starting to become more untrusting the more Eric kept leaving him behind. He was still vulnerable to words and actions. Words hurt as did actions. His trust level would slowly inch down anytime someone would hurt him verbally, physically and via actions as well. And right now he really needed someone but his trust levels with Eric continued decreasing the more Eric left him behind.

Haha!!)

[fiver]

Eric let his smile fade as his hazel eyes looked down. "I never wanted to dump you off max. That was never my goal..." he murmured. "I can't believe you'd think that but then again I've given you every reason to believe that...I promised you I wouldn't leave and I broke it... "now he hurt more, he lied to his brother and scared him. Nothing he did ended out, once again he failed to meet expectations. "I'm going to be honest with you as well... if I ever scare you or hurt you... leave. I don't want you to stay because you feel you have to. I know this is going to hurt more but...I wish you didn't look up to me... it's not because of you...it's me. I keep hurting you and your trying to act fine and that just makes me feel worse. So please. You can make this what you owe me. Leave me behind"

Eleven nodded. "Of course you can."

[Ayato ototochan]

Max
He quivered "th...then why?" He asked before flinching and his eyes widened in pain "b...but if...if I do that...I...I won't...I won't have anyone...I...I don't want to leave you! I...I'll...I'll try to do better...I...I'll keep my mouth shut...I...I'll do anything! I...I don't want to be without you!" He whimpered and backed away feeling hurt and a little betrayed "I...I will try to keep my feelings to myself...I'll I'll be good...I won't bother you I swear!" More tears came to his eyes "I'll be a good boy...I...I won't do anything bad...I'll...I'll do anything you want me to I swear!" He quivered "I...I don't want to be away from you! I have no one else! Your my big brother, my...my only family! The only person who I love and ...and the only person who...who I have opened myself up to..." The tears started streaming down his cheeks. Those words stabbed him through the heart over and over. Maybe Eric was being honest but that didn't mean that it didn't hurt. He acted older than his age most of the time but now he was back to being the vulnerable child he was supposed to be at his age. He also didn't understand what was going on anymore. He felt afraid, hurt, panicked, betrayed, sad, mad...he felt everything and it just confuses him even more. He shrunk back "I...I'll try not to be mean...I'll...I'll be good...I...I'll be a good boy..." His eyes dulled "I won't tell anyone...I'll stay quiet and stay in the background...I won't make a sound I swear...j...just please don't make me leave!"

[fiver]

Eric frowned as max took it as expected. His hazel eyes filled with more pain. He couldn't do this anymore... He could not be what others wanted him to be. "Max please...." He wanted what is was like when he could just have a good time with max...He didn't want this, him bending to try to make him happy. He was no big brother, he was no friend. Eric hung his head and stood slowly. He didn't ow what else to do or say. Honest hurt people. Lies hurt people. And he hurt in general.

[Ayato ototochan]

Max
He flinched and grabbed his hand when he stood "d...don't leave me!" He squeaked in fear "pl...please I...I'll do anything just...just don't leave me!!!" Tears continued streaming down his face.

[fiver]

Eric held his hand back when he grabbed his. He squeezed it softly as he watched his tears roll down his cheeks. "I wasn't leaving." He said quietly before looking to the side

[Ayato ototochan]

Max
He whimpered "y...you promise? I mean you really promise?" He was quivering