by L.I.N.G.E.R » Thu Mar 07, 2019 1:51 pm
⚔ L I O N G A Z E ⚔
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Liongaze || 36 Moons || Hazeclan Warrior || Clan Camp || Tags: Lilypool
《 You see the tears you think I've cried. But find your fears aren't justified. 》
Talking about needing to keep an eye on someone brought back memories of when I would protect Mousefoot. The little tom had been unable to defend himself as a kit and some of the other kits had decided to pick him as a target. I missed those days, without someone to protect it almost felt like my purpose was lost. In a way I was grateful for being able to protect Ivybriar, it let me have that sense of purpose back. I imagined I would have found something else to occupy my time if none of this had happened, but it would have taken quite some time. Still I wanted some time to properly mourn when this was all over, I hadn't had the opportunity to say my proper goodbyes to my brother. I sent him a quick promise that I would get to it as soon as possible, I just hoped that I would be able to keep that promise, but if I wasn't...Well then I supposed that would mean I was up there with him and there would be no need for goodbyes anyway. That was a harsh thought, but a very possible reality with how things were going. I would do everything in my power to keep that from being my fate or the fate of the clan as a whole. Realizing I hadn't said anything in response yet I gave him a brief nod. "Yes I understand, it can be difficult."
The change in Lilypool's voice when he spoke of Ivybriar's struggle allowed me a glimpse into his own struggles. It was clear that he cared for her and wanted her to be safe, he shared her pain with her. That was something I understood and I let my tail swipe across his shoulder to provide some sort of comfort for him without cutting off his words or his thoughts. I agreed with him, and tilted my head when I noticed where his gaze had landed. My eyes drifted between Lilypool and Dawnblaze, reflecting curiosity until the former looked away from the fiery warrior. I made no comment though I could take a guess as to what Lilypool was feeling, his heart was his business. I just hoped that whatever happened he would end up happy. "When things get difficult it is usually within our basic nature to try and find someone or something to blame...Though division is not what the clan needs right now. There are also those who simply do not understand the affairs of the heart, maybe someday they will come to understand. I just hope it isn't too late by then." I couldn't say I understood what being in love was like, but our situations were still similar so I knew that was she was going through wasn't easy, and sometimes it seemed like she was facing it all alone.
He was right, those kits are ours, if Starclan felt otherwise they surely would have sent us a sign, right? They wouldn't abandon us and leave it to us to figure out if we were doing something wrong. Mousefoot was up there, watching over me with other late clan cats. If we weren't doing the right thing then we would know. I lifted my head looking up towards the sky with a heavy gaze, my eyes burning with pale fire for a moment. I believed in them, and I believed in our choice. "Those kits will not be taken without a fight. Ivybriar and the kits belong here, this is their home." There was nobody who could convince me otherwise, they could try, but I would ignore them. I felt in my heart that this was right, and I was perfectly fine being stubborn and insistent when it came to defending my choices. When Lilypool mentioned talking to Ivybriar myself I looked at him for a long moment. I was silent when I switched my gaze from him to her, I hadn't really talked to her at all since this started. Mostly I just watched her from afar, not because I didn't want to talk to her, but rather because Dawnblaze and Lilypool seemed to have the situation handled, but maybe it would be a good thing for me to talk to her. Really it was good to talk to anybody, I kept to myself too much lately, it wasn't healthy for me to be so distant from the clan.
Ivybriar was a sweet cat with a gentle heart, she never would have meant to cause the clan so much grief. I could only imagine how upset she must be feeling with herself, but she was following her heart and I could never hold that against her. Something in my gaze softened for a moment at this thought, if only the whole clan could see and understand. Well I could at least show her that I understood and that I would never judge her for what happened. Maybe I could even help her see that she was welcome and so were the kits. I would never want to see her or them hurt or thrown out of the clan. Darkfrost was wrong, he shouldn't have left, he shouldn't be demanding the kits, he shouldn't be killing for them. He should be here with her, properly ready to raise the kits as his own together with her, but it was too late for that. She would need emotional support, and even though my heart remained heavy I was always willing to help someone in need, and looking at her now I could see that she needed as much support as she could get so I turned my eyes back to Lilypool and nodded at him. "Yes, let's go rescue Dawnblaze, I will do whatever I can to help Ivybriar through this." The conviction in my voice could not be doubted, nor could the pure determination in my eyes. She would be safe with me.
《 The pain I feel not on display. An old excuse just one of those days. 》
☠ H A W K F L I G H T ☠
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Hawkflight || 36 Moons || Rogue Fighter || Rogue Camp || Tags: Darkfrost, Hemlock
《 I'm not always who you think I am. Sometimes I feel like I'm the renegade. 》
Hearing my name mentioned my ear flicked and I raised my head looking towards Hemlock and Darkfrost. Hemlock was my favorite cat to hang around within the group. I would never say no to venturing out with him regardless of what task we set out to perform. There was just something about him that I found refreshing. A twitch of amusement moved my whiskers at his words to Darkfrost, he was right we did make a good team. As someone who was always up for a good fight I was really hoping that Darkfrost would approve and allow us the chance to go out and leave some clan cat bodies in our wake, but it was not to be and my ears slumped a little in disappointment. How long were we going to have to wait for more action?Turning my head away I stopped paying attention to their conversation briefly since I wasn't going to be sent out to have some fun. How unfortunate, but I didn't doubt that the leader had something sinister in mind, if he wasn't plotting something then what was he doing with his time? Wasting time didn't seem like something that would be fitting of him, so I would just have to be patient, something I was very poor at.
When my name was called by Darkfrost I angled my neck to look in their direction. Hunting? Well at least I got to do something, and even if the targets weren't enemy cats some blood was better than no blood. Getting to my feet I strode over towards them and came to quick stop next to Hemlock. The tom was smaller than me, but no less lethal, especially with his little deathberry trick. the clan cats never expected it, they were all imbued with the warrior code, with a sense of honor. Did they even know how to fight dirty? It didn't seem like it, if they did perhaps they would be the ones to be feared, but I had no fear of them. It was almost sad to think that my old clan wasn't fearsome, in fact they were weak. When would they just give up? As long as that fool, Fawnstar, was in charge I wasn't sure they would ever give up. My lip curled up when I thought of her, I never liked her, but as soon as she started defending Ivybriar I realized how much I truly hated her. Following a mouse-brained leader like her just wasn't good enough for me, at least I had escaped that life, it was such a bore.
Looking towards Hemlock a devious grin allowed me to flash my fangs for a brief moment. "I'm ready when you are." When Darkfrost walked away I started to head out looking to make sure Hemlock would be joining me. Maybe we could have a little competition, see who could catch the most prey? It wasn't the most exciting thing to do, but it would bring s small amount of entertainment, or so I hoped. I tilted my head as a thought occurred to me and once we were out of ear-shot from other cats I looked at my companion with a spark of venom in my eyes. "What if our hunt leads us to some clan cats? You never know where chasing prey might lead you. It might make our leader furious, acting against his wishes. What do you think?" Fully aware that I was asking for trouble I wasn't really bothered by it. Even if we didn't attack any clan cats maybe we could give them a little bit of a scare at the very least. Different thoughts strung through my head at the idea, scaring them was almost as good as killing them in a different sense. It gave me pleasure to be sadistic, to get in the heads of my enemies, there was nothing better than breaking them apart from the inside out.
《 And I can't just sit back and watch it fade. This time I hope you see, I'm not the enemy. 》