by Sunni » Sat Jul 11, 2015 8:05 am
Moonkit
Following morningstar, as we sat down I begain. "I had a dream, I know it wasn't that Important, but I had the dream about my mom, but this time when I fainted at the scene.. I was still seeing through something elses' eyes. I saw my mom get up." I wanted to cry. "Morningstar, I saw my mom. I wanted to help heal her, But how could I? I was just useless. I still feel that way. A useless mouse-brain cat. I miss her, Morningstar. I believe she is still alive, but I know my loyalties lay here. I just.." I searched my mind for the right words. "You've pretty much been the Mom i've never had. I can't explain. But, this clan is my family. Others may not like me, but I know that I'd want to help them. I can't abandon them, MorningStar. I won't. My mother is a monster. She left me, when she could've followed my scent. Im happy here in DreamClan. I'm sorry about earlier, too.. I was not having a good day. I know how busy the clan is I just... I can't go through abandonment again. I've lost everyone and everything but this clan. And seeing my clanmates suffer while I can't do anything, it kills me. it feels like I'm abandoning them. Because I'm just a kit, and I can't help them. I just wanted to help." I tried to make this not confusing. "I want to help DreamClan." I repeted. "I'm useless, worthless cat. But I feel like I can mend them. I feel like that some cats are not happy. Some cats are snapping at kits," I whispered. "And I'm just Moonkit the useless..." I fell down on my paws, burring my face grief all hit me at once. My mom was still alive. But I didn't want her to be, is that bad? She abandon me. "This is all I have left." I chocked out. "I hate being useless."
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