by ,rain » Wed Jun 19, 2019 6:12 am
He choked on a lung-full of air, eyes wide with disbelief. Help him fix that? Why did the idea seem so intimate? He thought she'd be repulsed, not volunteering to look inside his head. His hand shook.
"No! N—No, that's fine." He raised his hands, as if providing a barrier between them. As a distraction—and also because it tasted really good— he took another piece of cake and took a bite, not bothering with a plate or a fork.
Anyone questions he had for her? He wasn't sure. There wasn't anything he was particularly curious about, except maybe for this whole plan she had.
"You hired me because you... You wanted to change people's minds about cyborgs?" He hated how he said the word cyborg as if he wasn't one of them. It wasn't as if being cyborg was a choice. Something to be proud of. But still, this was who... what he was and he needed to accept it. He picked the drawstring on his hoodie, feet tapping the cabinets.
"Why? Why do you care? You can't do anything about it. This is who I am and that won't change just because someone else decides to accept me," he hadn't intended to say any of that. But it was like the dam in his head, trapping any emotions he had, collapsed and it was all slipping out now and he knew he must look like a lunatic, breaking in front of her, "or, at least, doesn't look scared or disgusted whenever I'm around." He said this last part quietly, his head hung. He was trembling now. From rage, or fear or something else? How could he blame others for not liking him? He hated himself too, he was scared of himself. He hated that he was anxious about everything. That he stumbled over every sentence. That his hands shook when he was even slightly uncomfortable. He didn't understand why this stranger, Kyori, would willingly be around him? His eyes stung from unshed tears, begging to be let out. But he wouldn't cry. He'd do one thing for himself.
{{ I might leave the desert haven rp and we could maybe continue Jae and Prim 1 x 1? I just have a harder time replying to group rps for some reason and I hated holding everyone up because of that.
Hey! I'm Rain! I love to rp so hmu if u wanna 1x1
and I'll tell u my preferences/etc. ....