- the first thing taemin did once entering the bedroom was crash onto his bed and try to bury himself underneath the blankets. all he wanted to do was fall asleep and wake up in the morning, hoping that everything would go back to where it was the day prior. when his boyfriend was still human, and there weren't any worries of them losing each other. he didn't want to think about the events that just unfolded minutes ago, but they flooded his thoughts. guilt started to eat him up. guilt over the fact that he should have told him about being a werewolf earlier. that maybe he could have done something to prevent this from happening. thoughts of losing finn started to fill his mind and it was overwhelming for him. soon enough, he was sobbing quietly into his pillow, tears falling down his cheeks. this is stupid, he thought. he shouldn't be crying over something like this, but it happened anyways. this just made him feel so weak and vulnerable at this moment, and he hated it. finnegan was his boyfriend, he tried reassuring himself. he'd accept him no matter what he was. human or not. those little thoughts were enough to calm him down a bit.
hearing the door open, he was quick to turn to face finn. taemin hastily rubbed the tears from his face, praying that he didn't see or hear him crying. although, he couldn't hide the redness of his eyes. for a few brief moments, he could see how hesitant he was to come into bed with him. taemin wasn't even sure if he was going to do it. without realizing it, he'd been holding his breath before releasing it when finnegan took his place next to him. he gladly welcomed his boyfriend cuddling closer to him and shivered slightly from the contact. taemin felt secure in his arms, and he tried to cherish every bit of contact with him. "i don't know," he replied honestly. he wanted to say that he was sure it wouldn't, but something about that felt like a lie and he was tired of lying to him. "i just don't want to lose you..." he added in a quieter tone, his voice cracking causing him to cringe. instinctively, taemin buried his face into the crook of his lover's neck, taking in his scent. there was something so familiar yet unfamiliar about it. the scent was finnegan's, but there was also the smell of wolf added in, and it confused him so much. he'd almost growled out loud again, feeling it rise up in his throat, but stopped himself.
a part of him didn't like being this close to another wolf, despite him knowing that this was someone he loved deeply. it wanted to show the other wolf that this was his territory and to stay away. that was the part he desperately tried to hide away, but now it seemed that it was trying to claw itself back up. another part of him felt intensely protective over him. he didn't want to see him hurt or bloodied ever again. he wanted to hide him away from the things he never should have learned about. still, taemin wanted to know about his secrets. he didn't want to lie to him anymore. never before has he felt so many conflicting sides of himself. he moved his head back to look at finnegan in the eyes again. taemin opened his mouth to talk, but, frustratingly, stopped himself once more. it can wait for the morning. there's already been enough surprises for one night.