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Relief filled in Lance when Keith said they could start over. He'd been so afraid, so scared that he wouldn't be enough.
That he wouldn't have time to repay him. he was almost happy for a moment, but then he remembered that Shiro was
dead and almost started crying once more. Keith seemed to fragile in this moment, like a new butterfly coming out of
it's cocoon, so frail. Lance didn't want to say anything because he didn't want Keith to break. he didn't want to start crying
again, even though he was on the verge of tears.
He didn't want to be here. He wanted to be at his home across the street from keith, their families eating dinner together
like they used to. He wanted to he somewhere happy, he wanted to be happy. He doubted things would be the same after
this funeral. Well, they both have gotten older and probably wouldn't play man hunt in the park anymore, but with Shiro
gone, Lance doubted that things would go back to normal. Whatever 'normal' was.
He wasn't surprised when Keith said he wouldn't forgive him, or may not. Lance suspected that, he didn't deserve to he
forgiven. There were so many things he wanted to say he was sorry for, so many people he wanted to say sorry to. Like Shiro.
Lance, not being very good in english class, could probably write a three page essay on things he wanted to apologize to Shiro
for. But Lance being Lance, he wouldn't.
He was surprised however, when Keith hugged him. He wasn't expecting words out of the boy let alone physical contact.
And Lance didn't know how to feel. At first, he didn't return the hug, but didn't hesitate afterwards to wrap his arms around
Keith. It felt good, someone he'd been so far away from, now so close. And he felt happy.
He wanted it to be like this forever. Lance almost forgot about the funeral, or the death, or the sadness. All he could think
about was Keith. And warm tears started running down his cheeks, he wasn't shaking. It felt so natural, to hug Keith even
though they haven't talked for almost six years straight. He wrapped his arm tighter around Keith, almost squeezing but
careful not to give him a painful bear hug. He turned his face slightly into Keith's hair, hoping he wound't notice. He wanted
this moment to last forever.
"Yeah, I'm really staying," he said, answering Keith's question. He voice cracked a couple times through the tears. Lance,
after pushing down years of feelings and becoming practically a rock for years on end, had a breaking point; and this was
it. His heart was pounding out of his chest, he was almost certain Keith could feel it. So he slowly pulled away. He wiped
tears off his face and tried to man up. It was strange what he felt towards Keith. On one hand he wanted to run away, to
hide. he didn't want to see keith. But on the other hand, he never wanted to leave. He opened his mouth to say sorry,
but closed it after realizing that would be lame and probably ruin the moment.
He knew it wasn't the time to talk about something as light as how their lives were, but he needed to break the ice,
"So what have you been doing in the six years since i've been gone?" He almost regretted talking about this at Shiro's
funeral right after he said it.