{Journalism and raptor training} 1x1 with Natasha Romanoff.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I could tell he still wanted to ask about my past but had decided to ask something different. When he turned around he gave me that look. I couldn’t explain it. It was just that look. Like the look was a statement itself but not a clear one. It was one he was trying to hide. I snapped back to the question. “Well, it depends. I don’t really like Hibiscus tea but I like normal mint tea. As for coffee I can only drink it with creamer and milk. If it doesn’t have those two things I don’t like it. I’d prefer tea though. The reasoning behind it goes back to when I was in…” I thought for a moment. “6th grade. My friend and I had a sleepover and drank tea and I had a cup every morning since.” That most sound so weird. Who just picks up habits like that?
“What bout you?” I asked looking into his eyes. I don’t know why I continued to do that to myself. I tried not to get lost in his eyes again but I always look people in their eyes when they talk. It’s just what I do. I had always done it since I was little. No one ever taught me how to. I just simply did. It was hard not to lose track of everything. His eyes where just...I don't know. I can't explain it. I kept myself together while waiting for his response.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxx she was adorable when she became lost in thought. As though all the questions in the world were rushing through her blue eyes which were dimly lit from the pale moonlight streaming in through the one nearby window. The food was almost done. I turned down the pan that had the carrots and peas in it the potatoes needing to be mashed. I listened to her story as I did the final touches on dinner. I only had to plate. But first I needed to ensure that I answered her question first. I loved her answer, it seemed so personal to her. Now that I thought about it I didn’t really have an answer for the question that I had asked. I wish I did, or hadn’t asked it in the first place. I did have an answer hit me in the face.

xxx I needed to think about how much of the truth I was going to tell. Despite my need to ensure the full truth was known... but stop! Just stop. I cannot think about that anymore. Just focus on what you are doing now. “coffee, tea is awful and bland at sea. So coffee was the only logical choice. Besides the higher concentration of caffeine is what I need after taking up night watch” it was true after all. Just missing a few details. Like who I would drink it with, who was obsessed with coffee and was convinced she was going to taste every single kind available to her. I again brushed the thoughts off. It hurt too much.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown


To be honest, I couldn’t care less that we disagreed. I thought it was nice that we did actually. It was just proof that people were allowed to be unique. Not to mention caffeine was a nice plus of coffee, especially when you have to deal with some grumpy, rude people all day. Welcome to the job of a reporter. I was honestly a little over my head when I started out. I was probably still just a little over my head. Not to mention I could have long nights and early morning, meaning about 4 hours of sleep. Turns out people need 8 hours of sleep to function like a normal person. Also, I’m sure while being out on the ocean things could taste very different. Now that I was thinking back, I was lucky working in the K-9 unit. I basically drank tea and ate protein bars. Super exciting I know. I guess that makes up for Owen’s childhood. I got the boring adult life and he got the raptor-training, water-battling, chef life. That was a very long thing to say. Thankfully I wasn’t saying it out loud. I had finally realized that without noticing it or bothering to stop myself, I had gotten lost in Owen's eyes. I was honestly so upset with myself."I understand that. So how is the food coming?" Now i was trying to distract myself from getting lost in thought again and talking would help me do that.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxx I felt as though I had said something wrong that had upset my newfound companion in some way. It was probably irrational and I was just being overly dramatic but the silence was getting to me. The guilt that was beginning to settle on my shoulders was not a new feeling whatsoever but it was just as irritating to say the least. I continued to plate the food that I had made. Just in the way that my sisters used to do so. They were always so skilled at this, I had so much to learn. But thankfully they had someone to teach all of their skills too. Once I was satisfied with the two plates I gave one of them to dawn along with some cutlery. I hope she liked it, I think that it should be okay, but you never know. People are so different that she might absolutely hate what I made. Which would be a pity. I wouldn’t mind making something else for her. It wouldn’t be the first time that I have had to do something like that for someone else before.

xxx I sat down next to her on the swivel chair that was on the island. Honestly I’m not sure why they had one in the middle of the kitchen but it was nice. It was a lovely change from having an oven and a fridge with very little counter space to work with. It’s probably why the counter was so clean when I was done with it afterwords. Because I could never really afford to have dishes lying around for long periods of time. “enjoy” most found it funny that I knew how to cook well. Which I suppose in some ways it was. It’s certainly unexpected from someone like myself. Which is nice, I’ve spent most of my life fulfilling the expectations of others. This was one thing that managed to leave them confused.

[lavender moon]

The food looked very promising. At this point I could eat pretty much anything and be happy. However, it did help that the food smelled amazing. Owen had made the plates look nice as well. I had to admit, I was a little surprised at his skills. I was pretty sure at this point that he could tightrope walk over fire while balancing oranges and juggling them. I mean at this point I knew he could train raptors, fix up old motorcycles, and cook. Not to mention sneak into cafeterias at night. I decided to stop thinking so much and eat. After all, I was hungry and not eating because I was thinking so much.

I took a bite of the steak. It was pretty good. It wasn’t so hard that it was hard to chewy but it wasn’t extremely soft either. Just the right balance of both. The vegetables were clearly good because if you can mess up cooking vegetables you don’t belong in the kitchen at all. Over all, it was really good. I was also a picky eater so it was a lot to say I liked everything I was given. ”It’s really good.” I said to him with a smile.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxxShe seemed to be enjoying herself, I could tell that she seemed to hesitate a little bit when she was going into eating the food that I had made. I felt a little bit guilty, as though I should have asked her about what she liked before starting to cook a bunch of food that did come out of my paycheck using my wristband. Despite this wristband not being on my wrist at all ever. I felt waves of guilt hitting me as though I assumed that she didn’t like it. I just watched her for a second not touching the food that I had made for myself despite my body begging me to eat something.

xxx I wished that I knew more about her She seemed to be thinking about the conversation that we had with each other. I had told her a lot about me and I seemed to pick up on what she told me about herself. I still had things to learn about I am sure. Once I heard that she was enjoying her food I took a few bites of it as well. It was good, up to my standard anyways. “Thank you” I said once I finished eating the bite that I had in my mouth. It was pretty good, which was nice. I still had it.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I noticed he didn't eat until I responded. He had been worried I wouldn't like it. I smiled at him to make sure he knew I was being sincere. I quickly finished my plate. It was another habit of mine. I was pretty thin but I ate a lot when I got the chance just because my life was pretty unstable and I wasn't always positive where I would be staying or if I'd be able to get food. "It's lucky that none of the guards have noticed us yet." I said as I brushed my hair behind my ear and scratched at the wrist with the star on it.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxxDawn practically inhaled her food. Which was fairly impressive for someone her size. Honestly I expected her to leave a little bit afterwords but against my expectation she hadn't. I am honestly glad she liked it as well, I have had a few people not like my cooking. I remember a fight between myself and Claire over the fact that I cooked something that went against her diet. I told her the tequila had been reduced but still. I have never really been offended by anything more than I have that. I am certain its because of how little I cook for other people.

xxxI smiled at her comment. "Honestly, no one cares. I know the head of security and he seems alright with me sneaking around in the middle of the night" I shrugged. I suppose it was true, he did know about my habits of sneaking out. Most people told me to cut it out but I never did as they never understood having a brain full of memories that you would do anything to try to escape. AS I finished my plate I saw that her wrist had a tattoo on it. "What does the star on your wrist mean?" I asked. I realized too late that I had not tacked on that she was not obliged to give an answer.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I looked down at my wrist. I had never really talked about it. I guess now would be a good time to just let it all go. Owen had been open and honest with me. I relaxed for a moment a thought of where I should start. "Well... It stands for hope. I said. "It's from a time that I'm not proud of though. I was around sixteen when I got it. I was living with a friend in New York City and I was on the streets a lot. I had run away from another foster home. I didn't it often. I just didn't feel like I belonged in any of the homes and most of the adults were awful people anyways. When I was about three my parents gave me up.
They kept my older brother though." It hurt to say. It would hurt anyone to know that they were given up but there siblings weren't. I met him when I was 16 and he was 21. He gave me a lot of hope and for a while I was just glad to know that I had a brother or someone who cared in my family. I got a lot of hope for a while and I was basically adopted by the police force and my brother helped me train and what not. That's when I got the tattoo. A few years later, he went missing. I went out to find him with my K-9, who was named Stormy, and we only found his vest." I looked down and covered it again. My voice cracked a little but I attempted to keep it strong.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxx I listened to the story that she told and it sounded a lot like the one that I knew about myself. I had lost someone that was important to me a very long time ago... I paused for a second feeling the memories coming back, however the medication that I had taken dulled the pain a little bit. Thankfully it was still doing its job to keep my mental health in check. Which was a relief. That I knew something was helping me, something that the doctor hoped I would be off of in a few years once my symptoms began to clear. However she acted as though it were not my entire life. Which I was getting increasingly thankful for.

xxx I paused again for a second deciding how I was going to react. I could barely think about what happened there was no way that I was going to share it with a total stranger. I paused for what would probably normally be considered to be socially unacceptable before deciding to respond to her. "Im so sorry, but I know how you feel" I said. However I am sure that it is a lot worse considering there was no doubt as to what happened on that night. I tried to keep the memories from pulling me under. I needed to distract myself, I grabbed the two plates and turned away. "I will clean the kitchen"