{Journalism and raptor training} 1x1 with Natasha Romanoff.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I saw Owen lean against the counter and I wish I had run over there. I hated watching people have panic attacks or stress out. It reminded me way too more of working on the K-9 unit and watching people just crumble and cry. It hurt me every time I had to come back with bad news. They would do the same thing Owen continued to do every now and then. There was nothing that hurt me more. I always had to stay strong for those people and of course for my dog. I think people forgot that it was hard on us too. We felt helpless sometimes and just... defeated. That's how I felt in that moment. The split second where he crumbled. I was about to say something but he seemed to recover.

This. This is why I couldn't have relationships. I just felt too much of what the other person felt. It caused me a lot of pain. Once Owen relaxed I did as well. "It just so happens that I love surprises." I said, returning his smile. I didn't comment on what had just happened in fear of sending him back into the same state. I couldn't continue to watch him fall apart like that. I got up on one of those stools that spin around and I spun around in it like a kid would. "So do I get a hint?" I did want to know a little about what I was about to eat. Not that I thought it wouldn't be amazing, it already smelt like heaven. If heaven was a kitchen of course. I was excited to see what Owen was cooking. That strand of hair was in my face again and flowing as I spun around. It was a lot of fun. More fun than I thought it would be.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha || --

xxx I saw her spinning around in the chair out of the corner of my eyes. I tried to act as though it were not catching my attention but It was. she is beautiful, the way her hair flies around her face as she spins around. I realized that I was staring for a while that may have seemed a little bit socially unacceptable. There are some times where I manage to get so lost in though that I didn’t realize what I was looking at. I snapped out of my little trance and span back around putting the steaks on the oven hearing the sizzle. It was good, perfect. I hope that she likes it. But Dawn appears to like surprises, I will make sure that I take note of that. However I could not help it when I felt a pang of guilt hit me in the side again. I cannot help how I feel about this new person, but I can ignore it. Which is probably a better option than actually doing anything about it.

xxx I continued to get the food ready one careful step at a time. Chopping the carrots and peas. Together they made a lovely splash of colour. I will have to clean in here after we are done of course so that no one gets to suspicious of what I do during the night. “since you seem to be such a good judge of character, why don’t you try to guess something about me: if you get it right, I’ll give you a hint.” I said allowing her to talk to me about what she’s noticed about me. I will ask her questions as well of course. I’m not completely socially inept. Cooking was always interesting, I flipped the steaks carefully ensuring an even sear. I turned the oven on as well so that they would cook. It makes it much better.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown


I noticed him watching me out of the corner of his eye but I didn't mind. I find it slightly amusing that he was watching me acting like a little child. It was fun thought to just forget everything and go back to where I was younger. I stopped spinning and rested my head on the counter top. Now he wanted me to earn a hint. Weren't hints supposed to be free? I did like to guess though. It was fun. It was like a little game. I had noticed some things about him that pointed out certain things. "Alright."I agreed.

I leaned back in the stool and thought. What could I guess about him. "You have blue eyes!" Of course It was obvious but I did what he asked. Of course it was in a joking manner. I decided to guess again but a little more honestly. "Well, for starters, I bet you were in some form of military or police force. Judging from the tattoo on your back and how you train so well with the raptors." I had spotted the flag on his back when his white shirt was coated with God knows what. Basically I had spotted it. Not to mention we connected in odd ways and he was way to brave to not have been in the military.

Of course I really didn't know his past and I knew that it could've scarred him. I know the K-9 unit had scarred me but it had also been some of the best years of my life. I had saved some people and made some people happy. It made me glad to see that I was making others happy. I couldn't do that anymore though. I still hadn't built myself up to the person I used to be before David died. I just had to breathe sometimes and know that everything would be okay. Sometimes though I would just freak out. I'd never done it in front of another person before. I was able to keep it all hidden.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha || --

xxx Well I was certain that the first thing that she said was not going to win her a hint. It was one of the most obvious things that anyone could point out about me. it was the first thing that most people pointed out anyways in what made me distinctive. However, it was not something about me that I managed to keep hidden from others. It was difficult to hide them in the first place.

xxxI then froze a little bit when she talked about my tattoo, the mostly white flag with the end being cut so that it looked like too blue triangles had been attached to it. I didn't expect her to be able to notice it, but she had and I still froze turning to look at her. The word was on the end of my tongue as I wanted to say it out loud for the first time in months. "The Navy." I responded my voice obviously dropping. "Its a signal flag, meaning alpha." I decided not to go into more detail about it. "Garlic mashed potatoes" I explained. "however its not why I am so good with the raptors, believe it or not they won't let you get a major in zoology". I smiled a little bit. however this game was a little unfair as I still don't know anything about her.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I smiled brightly. For starters that sounded freaking delicious and for a second thought I had gotten it semi-right. "Close enough. Now you have to guess one thing about me. Other than the fact that I have blue eyes too." Yeah, he wasn't allowed to steal my joke and sarcasm. I spun more slowly in the stool as I waited. I wanted to know what all he could guess. So far, he didn't know much. I really was curious to see just what he would come up with.

(SOrry it's so short! My next one will be longer! I promise)

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha || Thats totally fine, don't worry about it.

xxx I was thankful that she had dropped the subject of talking about the navy. Even the word was had to think about. It was after all that I have had to suffer though after all. I just needed to clear my mind. it was the only way that I was going to get through this. cooking, I had food to make. I placed the steak in the oven beginning to boil the potatoes in water alongside some garlic that I had squished. Its barely tastable once you mash the potatoes, which is the best part. The carrots and peas just needed to be steamed so that is going to be last.

xxxIt took me a second to think of something about her. Honestly I hadn't noticed anything about her that seemed too exciting. Other than the tattoo on her wrist, I wonder what that meant? But since I didn't know that was not my answer. "You clearly haven't died your hair, as its natural. Honestly a rare thing to see these days" It was almost as scarcasic as the way she had pointed out my blue eyes. "You must have a passion for both animals and writing, you are the only one in the group who seemed to care about the conditions the Raptors were being kept in" I raised my eyebrow as I turned to look at her. i didn't explain the writing part as I figured it would be self explanatory.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I held up a finger the way someone does when correcting someone. "Actually, one time I died my hair when I was in one of the foster houses. It was jet black and I had it all over my hands." I said. It was true. I recall I had been about 13 years old. Just the average kid thinking they were cool. Now I would never dye my hair. The other things were right though. "Well, after I left North Carolina I rode a bus to New York City and joined a K-9 unit where I fell in love with animals.
I've been working with them ever since. As for writing, it was just something I did in my free time. Those are both right though.
So what was your childhood like?" I noticed it could be a pretty personal question after I said it. "You don't have to tell me about it if you don't want to." I added. At this point we were just kind of filling in time so I thought to ask more questions. It wasn't doing any harm. I certainly wasn't one to prod anyone else for answers to my questions. I get that some things are just too personal to share. I felt so strangely safe and relaxed around Owen that I didn't mind telling him all these different things. It still made me feel guilty. I was going against everything my mind was telling me. I was going against EVERYTHING I had told myself for the past 5 years. I couldn't believe myself. That doesn't mean that I didn't enjoy the time we had together though.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxx I couldn't help but smile when she commented about her hair. however I did pick up on the foster care part though. was she just a child that was taken from her parents because they were unfit to take care of her? Or was she an orphan? I felt as though it would be inappropriate to ask. We had just met each other after all, so I paused there and decided not to ask any more questions up that alley. "Im glad you left it its natural colour, I honestly cannot imagine you with black hair" I tried to be light and pretend that I had not heard the comment about foster care. I feel as though she won't want to talk about it.

xxx I am glad that she got to fall in love with animals working with a K9- unit. Despite the psychological downside that it could potentially have on someone. I allowed a small smirk to cross my face, I managed to get something right. "Something you do in your free time is the definition of a passion". Owen one Dawn Two I think is the score anyways. I cannot be sure. Nor did I really care enough to keep track. She asked me about my childhood, I probably guessed that her hesitance came from the fact that hers must have been tragic. "Well, pretty normal I guess. As normal as you can get being the only Brother in the house with two sisters. My parents were always there for me, if anything a little overzealous. Not just sending me to university but also to the Naval academy. Eight years of school" I finally finished. I felt as though I answered her question fully, its not like my childhood was too exciting. I decided to skip out of talking about her childhood. I wanted to opt to ask her something but I was all of a sudden all out of questions.

[lavender moon]

✷~🎀 𝒟𝒶𝓌𝓃 𝐻𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓈 🎀~✷
"Take every chance. Drop every fear." ~Unknown

I finally had stopped spinning. I couldn't help but smile at his comment about my hair. I couldn't see myself having any other colored hair to be honest. I liked it's natural look. I listened to him talk about his childhood. Sounded pretty normal if you could really call anything normal. Really normal was nonexistent because everyone has a different story to tell but then again that sounded like something stupid a person would say on a tv show to boost someone's confidence or something.

I saw him hesitate. He had wanted to ask me a question about my past. It didn’t hurt me too much to talk about it and it was only fair that I told him about me. After all, he had told me about his childhood. “It doesn’t hurt to talk about things for me. Especially my past. It’s something I have to live with and if I can’t change it then I might as well deal with it and learn from it.” I said with a shrug. It was me being honest. I had learned so much from my past. It had made me who I was. Hopefully that was enough to show him that I didn’t mind if he asked. I really didn’t mind it when people asked… That part was a lie. But I trusted Owen not to run around or treat me differently because of it. He didn't seem like someone to do that. I liked this game though. I felt good to get rid of the weight of secrets. Now matter how big or small. Plus, I'm almost positive that he was curious and trying not to be rude.

[Spock and Kirk]

◗-----------𝒪𝓌𝑒𝓃 𝒢𝓇𝒶𝒹𝓎
“Friends are medicine for a wounded heart..."
xxxxxxxxxxx~ Unknown
xxxxxx|| Male || Alpha ||

xxx She could tell that I was being hesitant about asking her about her past. It was comforting to see the way that she seemed to want me to ask her about her past. However Dawn seemed too open about it. I used to be that way as well. I used to be wiling to tell people about my past but now I kept it inside me, for the sake of myself as well as others not thinking about me any differently. I pulled the steaks out of the oven and let them sit while putting the peas and carrots on to steam. It wouldn't take very long as they were not that fancy. Which was nice.

xxxI wanted to ask her about her past but I decided to ask her about something else that was more trivial instead. "Tea or coffee and why?" I asked turning around and looking at her folding my arms. She was so cute when she looked at me like that. I tried not to wear the fact that I was beginning to like her on my sleeve. I needed to keep it down, I cannot talk about it. I don't think that I am ready for a relationship again. Not after last time. I just want us to be friends. Thats it, nothing more.