it.will.rain and Webmonkey 1x1

[rainbowwrowell]

"I never said I want to leave you. I want you to stop being around her, I regret deciding to come. I'm pregnant, and Im elated babe don't think I'm not. I love you. But I hate her. And you can be her friend. But then, you'll lose me because you made the choice over me, and youll be back in your old ways again. " She sighed and looked at her feet

[it.will.rain]

"I know you don't want to leave me right now but I know that you will if I mess up and I don't want that. Like now. You always threaten to leave me and that always hurts me a lot. It makes me constantly worried about it because I feel like no matter what I do,you are just going to leave eventually and there is not going to be anything I can do about it. I am trying so hard and I feel like it does not matter to you how hard I try. If I mess up, I instantly lose you. I am going to go to this cafe I like alone. I will be back in a while." He said to her. He needed a moment to himself after getting all of that off his chest and wanted her to know he was not taking his ex because he would always choose her if he could. He walked to the door.

[rainbowwrowell]

"Like I told you to go with her today. And I feel like no matter what you wont tell me how you feel. You'll lose me if you do the wrong thing because of stuff the stuff you have done has reminded me of. Don't think it's your fault I'm saying it." Mavis flopped down on the bed. If only that girl hadnt gotten involved

[it.will.rain]

"What do you mean I won't tell you how I feel? I love you. Not her. I am happy with you. Not her. What else do you want to know? I am trying and every time you make me feel like I come up short. I am just trying to be with you and our kid." He said to her standing by the door. "You want to know why I am like this? I have been abandoned by pretty much everyone in my life. I have never had someone who has promised me that no matter what I want to be with you. I guess I will never get that and that is what it is." He said to her.

[rainbowwrowell]

"You think I dont wanna be with you? I tell you that because if I break up with you, I'll be broken you know. You fixed me when I needed to be. You make me feel amazing. I never said I wanted to split up. I do say it so you know, I have to leave. Im a dramatic girl, but if you looked deeper you'd see it's because I dont wanna lose you, or our kid.. " She said, she looked hurt

[it.will.rain]

"Then stop being dramatic because every time you say it hurts me. And it makes me feel like you don't really care about me or our relationship. I feel like no matter how hard I try, I get pushed away. I really am trying but it is hard for me to completely change in one day. That is what you want and I can't give you that. I am just not the perfect guy that you want." He said and opened the door ready to leave. He did not want to talk about this anymore. He never shared how he felt when it came to things like this. He normally just put up with it.

[rainbowwrowell]

"Are you telling me to quit being me? Fine then. My kids and I will be fine without you. I'll be getting the next flight out, Ill have your stuff given back, and the stuff you bought and gave to be back. And I rarely even say it anymore, and you could've spoke about it with me instead of deciding to leave." Mavis stood up and began repacking her suitcase.

[it.will.rain]

Jax looked at her. "No... that is not what I meant. You can be dramatic I just don't want you constantly threatening to leave me just like now. I had to change for you but you can't stop doing one thing? That doesn't really seem fair. I don't want to lose you and I don't want you to leave. I am just not good at saying how I feel. I want to be in our kids life and your life." He said shutting the door. "I just want things to be okay and I don't want to be constantly worried about this happening. Every time I tell you how I feel or I do something stupid, this is what happens. You break up with me and then leave and it is really hard on me." He said and wiped away a tear. "If you don't care about me, that is fine. I still care a ton about you and our kid." He said to her.

[rainbowwrowell]

"You think I dont care. Yet Ive done countless of things to try prove it to you. Can you blame me? You think I dont care. You werent saying that when I found your mothers necklace and I was wiping your criminal record clean. Were... were you just using me?" The last line was too much for Mavis to say, she was beginning to cry

[it.will.rain]

"No Mavis. I was not using you. I never expected any of that from you. I would go to jail if it meant I could keep you in my life. I would never use you because I totally am in love with you and that is why this all hurts so much." He said to her.