heaven | giaa x peggy

[Burning_Roses]

James smiled gently and squeezed Luciano's hand softly, "Then we'll do it together! We'll navigate the waters of life together And I promise, nothing you so will ever make me want to leave. I'll always be right by your side, rain or shine I'm going to be your loyal partner." He smile gently at Luciano, "Please Luciano, I can't almost lose you again because of my own fear." He squeezed the other male' side hands in his own "I deeply care about you and I don't want to leave you. Besides the greatest battles were fought with more than two people." He smiled, "I know your scared but I'll be here whenever you get scared just shout and I'll come running Luciano because I care so much about you, I don't want to call it love because that takes time." He interlaced their fingers much like in the hospital

[pereyra]

Luciano did not feel steady, but he didn't think James did either, and so he forced himself to take a few deep breaths, mentally listing the things he could say that would probably scare James off then and there.


He vehemently rejected most media that didn't have a Christian message.
He had nightmares and panic attacks and flashbacks.
He hated most animals.
His mysophobia was so bad it interfered sometimes with him acting like a normal person. (Hence the animals.)
He was well aware he was a narcissist. (The first step to fixing this, he had read, was admitting he had a problem.)
Sometimes, he snapped at people when things got overwhelming.
His father had put him through Hell and he was still completely devoted to the man.
He didn't necessarily have a thing against white people, but he found a good majority of them pretty annoying.
There were probably a lot of other things he could have listed, but Luciano stopped there, looking down at his gloved hands in James's, then looking James in the eyes, then looking back down. "You're serious about this," he said eventually, with such a confounded tone that it was almost funny. Well, now was as good a time as any to start the process of destroying the first (and probably only) relationship he had. "Can we go inside? Can I show you something. Because you're really serious about this. And there are things I'm only going to be able to hide so often."

[Burning_Roses]

James smiled and nodded as he stood Luciano up and lead him inside to the nearly cleared out apartment. Zu, recognizing the guest flew down to meet James and Luciano. He chirped and spread his wings. James made sure the blinds were drawn and the door locked, "Ol what do you need to show me?" He smiled softly,"I promise whatever it isn't it will never change how I feel about you Luciano, this path is going to be a hard one but we're here together." He decided to finally shut up and let Luciano continue on with what he was ayijf.

[pereyra]

Luciano smiled softly at James, leaning back against the door, then pulling off the thin leather gloves he was almost never seen without. The hospital had been an exception, but Luciano had done his best to hide his past then. "My father thinks that music is the work of the Devil," he said, holding his hands out to James. The chemical burn scars there were still prominent, and even years after they had happened, Luciano's skin looked mottled, for a lack of a better word. Not that his scars were something he was ashamed of anymore, just something about himself he kept hidden. "That's the worst of it, I promise. But everyone has skeletons in their closet. Some of them aren't pretty. So if we're really doing this, then I need something from you. I need honesty and disclosure. I don't even know if I can trust myself some days. I need to know that I can trust you."

[Burning_Roses]

James looked st Luciano's hand and he bit his lower lip chewing no on it thoughtfully. Then he reaches out and took Luciano's hands in his own, "You can, I'll be fully honest about anything with you I promise." He smiled softly and then chuckled, "So while we're having confession time, I do have something that's. bit of a skeleton." He sighed and breathed in and out, "Crystal and Lee-Ann weren't always married, in fact when Crystal had me, she was married to a man. He was a jerk to her and me before I was even born. So it left with a few problems that later in our lives could prove to be bumps in the road. Are you ok with that?" He asked still holding Luciano's hands in his own,"I'll always be here for you. Laughing, crying, both. Making sure Sergio doesn't do anything stupid." He joked, "I'm all in for the commitment long run."