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she sat back in her seat, letting him drive since he was so good at her. she put her feet on the dashboard, turning on some music as background music while they talked, the soft evening breeze running through her hair. "yes, i think its all that. i don't get how you don't think its all that, considering you put your heart and soul in those lyrics," she said as they pulled up to a mcdonalds and she just ordered a large fries and a coffee like he did, knowing how long you could be stuck at a studio trying to find the right beat. the rest of the ride was kind of quite, but not an awkward quite. they both enjoyed each others company and enjoyed the views of the backstreets of new york. they arrived at the studio and she got out, letting him lead the way. when he brought up how it could get boring and to tell him if she wanted to leave, she shook her head. "nah, i'll let you do your own thing. i'm happy to just watch," she said, walking into the room in front of the booth, with all the mechanics. she didn't mess with anything and pulled out her phone as he was getting everything ready. as he began to wrap, it was silented in the room so she didn't hear anything until after he was done. she recorded him on snapchat, captioning it, "sneak peak into the life of x, music, mcdonalds and girls," she put jokinly, turning the camera to herself at the end, referencing to herself when it said girls. she was obviously joking, but sitting in the silent room, watching him record his music, it led her to thinking of what this was going to turn into. he suddenly came out, asking for her opnion on what he had just recorded. she put on the headphones and was hit with a whole new wave of emotion. it was an amazing song. "i love it, especially the so if alive or in the dirt, i swear to god, you'll be my first priority part," she said, setting the headphones down.

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name ; jahseh ofrey
age ; 19
sexuality ; heterosexual
gender ; male
tagged ; jackie
mood ; visibly upset

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he grins "thanks." you can say he definetly valued her opinion. he wasn't sure why he valued it so much but it was important to him about what she thought. he plays around with a couple more things and saves the one song. he's still not sure if he wants to release it yet. "well, im about done here. hope i didn't bore you." their conversation is interrupted when his phone starts ringing. he answers and when he puts it to his ear and hears the voice his face goes pale.he instantly tenses up. "jahseh?" she says on the phone. he forgot to mention there was one other person that knew his real name, but he would never speak about. he's silent for a second before talking "why are you calling me." his voice cracks half through the sentence because this brings back so many bad memories. "i'm sorry jahseh.. i-" his tone is extremely cold and rough "dont talk to me, delete this number." he hangs up abruptly and almost smashes his phone on the floor out of anger. he sits down on the couch before mumbling a few things to himself. just when i think everything is fine... he looks up to jackie "sorry. about that." he says, pinching the bridge of his nose. "ready to go?" he asks her as he struggles to keep his composure. why would she do this now out of all times...

[RingoStarr]

♛ - jacqueline regan
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[where] the studio [mood] concerned/uneasy [tagged] jahseh [doing] listening/comforting

she smiles in response to his thanks for her opinion. "i'm just happy i get to be one of the first to listen to it," she said, spinning around in the chair that sat in front of all the recording panels. she watches with content eyes as he finishes a few more things and takes care of the one song she had listened to. she shook her head, about to open her mouth and say that he didn't bore her at all. she had never done anything like that before, and it was fun. spending time with him was so much fun and laid back, nothing like her regular life. but before she could say anything, his phone started ringing. she figured it was his manager or something, but he immediatly tensed when the voice on the line said his real name. she shrunk a little, knowing it had to be someone close to him because they knew his real name. it sounded like a feminine voice, and she thought it was his mom, but something seemed very off. just the way the person was talking, and the way jah was responding. she realized it wasn't his mother when he yelled to delete the number. she silently watches him almost smash his phone, flinching slightly. her eyes followed him as he sat down on the couch, visibly very upset. she had no clue what to say. when he asked if she was ready to go, she shook her head. she got up and sat down next to him, resting her head on his shoulder. "do you wanna talk about it? i'm not leaving until you're okay. obviously something was up." jackie said, curious what could put him over the edge like that, but something in her gut told her she knew exactly who it was. a girl from his past. jackie's thoughts immediatly went to the nioght before when he explained his 17 tattoo, the age where his heart was broken beyond repair. jackie's over thinking began to set in. what if she tries coming back into his life? what if he goes back to her?

[badvibesforever]

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name ; jahseh ofrey
age ; 19
sexuality ; heterosexual
gender ; male
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mood ; very upset

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he ran his fingers over her hair as she asked if he wanted to talk. he zones out for a second "i guess." its silent for a moment before he starts to speak. "geneva. her name is geneva, i promised myself years ago i would never let her name slip from my lips again." "it was a month after my breakup with ayala, another girl who screwed me over, but no as bad as geneva." "we met at a skate park. she was with a few friends and i was with my best friend." "stokeley. that was his name, i had known him since a kid because we met in jail." "i was crushing on her, it was obvious so he told me to talk to her. i did. worst mistake i ever made." "we hit it off right away and it wasn't even a week before we started dating." "it was my fault i grew attached so quickly. i was already in a bad state of mine and i had a void, she filled that void and i liked that. she made me feel alive again." "she cheated on me. i didn't care though, i still loved her. i gave her all of me and every inch of my love but she never returned it." "i got a phone call.. she had been drunk and she had crashed. stokeley was in the car and he died on impact." "but she survived. i still wish to this day she would of been the one to die instead of him." "i didn't break up with her though, she broke up with me." "she broke it off by telling me some pretty harsh things and then never spoke to me again, until now." some tears spill from his eyes. he didn't really care if anybody judged him for crying, everybody does it, even people like him.

[RingoStarr]

♛ - jacqueline regan
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[where] the studio [mood] dumbfouded/pissed [tagged] jahseh [doing] listening/comforting

she felt his fingers run through her hair as she let her head rest on him, listening to his shaky breathing. she stayed silent, letting him speak and get anything and everything off his chest. she slid her hand into his as comfort, squeezing it. she listened carefully to what he said so she didn't mix up anything important. he said her name, geneva and talked about his bestfriend stokeley, who she figured was the one from the tattoo he had for their group. she nodded her head when he talked about how they hit it off fast. she shook her head when he said it was his fault for falling for her so fast. "you shouldn't put yourself down for developing feelings for someone, sometmies following your heart just leads you down the wrong path," she tried defending him and his past feelings for geneva but immedistly regretted it when he began to talk about how she never really loved him and emotionally abused him. not only that, but cheated on him. the saddest part was that jah was so blinded by his love for her, he just let it go. the next thing he said completely surprised her and her heart broke for him. his own bestfriend had died because of the woman who was destoying her. "your toxic relationship killed the only thing that made you happy." she said softly, trying to wrap her head around the amount of greif he must have been through. that woman had put him through some much and wanted to crawl back into his life. she looked over at him, almost speechless. she saw him begin to cry and she whiped his tears away with a gentle finger. "i don't even know what to say. i'm so sorry she put you through that. who knew one person could be so evil. what could she possibly want"?
does she want to come crawling back because you made something of yourself after she tried to destory you?" her words were harsh and sharp. she began to form a hatred for the woman she had never even met.

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name ; jahseh ofrey
age ; 19
sexuality ; heterosexual
gender ; male
tagged ; jackie
mood ; frustrated

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his sadness is quickly replaced with frustration "most likely." "and don't be sorry, it was all my fault... i-i don't know..." he was still confused about the situation to this day. "you know i promised myself i would never catch feelings again for anybody under no circumstances..." he hesitates "but i broke that promise..." "but i think it may be for a good reason." "lets go, i don't wanna dwell" he gets up and walks outside and is instantly surprised by the time of day. time seemed to go quicker when you were in the studio, at least that was his opinion. he walked over to the car and got in before driving back to the apartments. he got out of the car and walked in with her and got in the elevator. it was pretty silent between the two, but it wasn't awkward silence, it was a comfortable silence. the elevator dings and the doors slide open and they walk out walking to their houses which were side by side. he crookedly smiles at her "i'll see you tomorrow." he really wanted to kiss her, but didn't know how she would take it. just as she's about to walk off he puts his hand on her shoulder and when she turns around he connects their lips. it was short, but every second of it was pure euphoria for jahseh. he pulls away and silently walks into his house, not giving her time to react or respond.

[RingoStarr]

♛ - jacqueline regan
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[where] home [mood] surprised/dazed [tagged] jahseh [doing] floating on cloud 9

she squeezed his hand as he became frusterated, tripping over his words and not being able to get it out. "it's alright, i understand," she said softly. she listened when he began to say he promised he would never catch feelings for someone again and her heart sank. was this a one sided thing? was she falling for an emotionally unavailable guy? but what he said next relieved her. she wasn't dumb and figured he meant that he had broken that promise by catching feelings for her, but he didn't say that outright and she didn't push him too. she nodded her head and got up when he wanted to leave and stop talking about it, respecting his space. they rode home in silence, but the good kind of silence. the city at night was beautiful and she figured they needed a little to think to themselves. she caught herself looking at him a few times, admiring the way he clenched his jaw slightly when someone wouldn't turn at the light, or when he would grunt softly when the person in front of him was driving slow. they say you pick up on the little things when you're attracted to someone. they walked to the elevator, listening to the soft grinding of metals and as the door opened, she walked out. they walked side by side, and she had an urge to turn around and kiss him. they stopped at their doors and he said goodbye, and her chest fell in slight disapointment. she was hoping he had the urge to kiss her, but she guessed not. she waved and went to turn away, but felt is hand on her shoulder, turning her around. she turned about half way and was suddenly met with his kiss. she closed her eyes and enjoyed the warmth of his lips. as short as it was, she enjoyed every second of it. and as quick as the kiss lasted, he was gone, slipping away behind his door. "wow," she said softly, almost breathless. she walked into her apartment, laying down on the coutch, starring up at the cieling, an uncontrolable smile on her lips.

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name ; jahseh ofrey
age ; 19
sexuality ; heterosexual
gender ; male
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mood ; distressed

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ending the night off with a kiss ended up with him beaming a smile as soon as he walked in the door. he was beyond happy, but he wasn't sure why, at least not yet. it had been a long day and he was tired and ready to sleep. he had fell into comfortable sleeps for two days straight now, but even he knew good things like that don't last. he changed into something more comfortable and got into bed, closing his eyes and slowing his breathing. it took a while, but eventually he was asleep. he had been skeptical about even going to sleep, because of the troubling phone call from his ex. it left him wondering. his dreams were nothing like nice, they were filled with darker things. death and past events that came to haunt him every night. people that had been around him while he was sleeping said he had said some pretty weird things in his sleep, but it didn't surprise him. tonight it was one of his very repetitive nightmares. in his nightmares there was many voices, threatening him and telling him things that made him question his worth. dark figures were everywhere, surrounding him. a familiar face was there, it was jackie. he couldn't move or speak as she was seeming to be dragged away. a suffocating feeling came upon him and he attempted to speak or yell but nothing came out. he could almost never speak in his dreams or ask for answers.he woke up and was greeted with a sheer layer of sweat of his back and teary eyes. he was shaking and could hardly breathe. his heart was pounding, his dream had felt so real it was scary. he wiped his eyes and slowly walked out of the house knocking on her door. as soon as she opens it he instantly engulfs her into a hug. "thank god you're ok." she probably didn't understand what he was saying. he sniffles slightly and holds tighter. it had been the second time he had shown his emotional side to this girl, and he usually would hate to do this but with her it was different. he felt like she understood him, even if she didn't.

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♛ - jacqueline regan
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[where] home [mood] grpggy/concerned [tagged] jahseh [doing] looking for answers

the rest of the night for her was a beautiful daze. the kiss had placed her on cloud 9 which covered her like a bliss. she was pretty tired and got ready for bed, throwing on some shorts and a t-shirt, slipping under the covers. she had been watching tv for a little while before she fell asleep, only sleep for about an hour before she heard a banging on her door. she laid there for a moment, wondering if she was imagining things or one of her neighbors was banging something around, but the familiar knock echoed through the apartment again. she quickly got out of bed, shuffling to the door, rubbing the tiredness out of her eyes. as she opened the door, she was met with the unexpected jah rushing to embrace her. "what's goin-" she was cut off by his hug and she melted into his arms, hugging him back, enjoying the warmth. normally a hug from the guy who had made her night by kissing her would be great, but he semed upset and it was odd timing. what he said puzzled her. why wouldn't she she be okay? "what do you mean? i'm fine. i've just been in bed," she said softly, resting her palm on his cheek and looking into his tear smeared eyes. "what's wrong what happened? are you okay?" she said, checking him over for any wounds.

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gender ; male
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are you ok her question echoed in his head "i don't know if im ok." he says in a barely audible voice. "you couldn't of just been...you....darn it." he takes her hand down from his cheek and flips it over so her wrist is showing. he traces over her veins with his fingers with a touch she could barely feel. he looked down at her wrist as he talked. "i don't know what to do anymore.." he shakes his head. "i don't want to do this anymore." he says. he looks up from her wrist and meets her eyes with his frightful ones. he can still feel himself shaking slightly. she was ok but he was still paranoid, he didn't want anything to happen to her. mostly because she was making him happy and feel.. better. "c-can i stay over tonight.. i don't want to be alone." he gives her a pleading look. in the back of his head he remembers her mentioning her father supposedly coming back today. must of not came yet.. it worried him but it was the least of what he was worrying about at that moment.he was worrying about her well being, even though she was fine. he didn't feel as if she was fine.