“And like the sea… I am constantly changing from calm to hell”
xxxxxxxxxxx | Female | I-Rex handler | mood: Calm
- xxxI could not see too well into the paddock as the sun was falling on the right place that made sure that almost all of the shadows fell onto the little corners where I had a feeling that Wraith would be hiding. I cocked my head to the left a little bit trying to give myself a different look of the paddock but it was no use. She was clearly sticking to the shadows where she knew that she would be safe from any imminent dangers. I could not scathe her for following her instincts. Wraith has suffered so much, and has fought daily to get where she is now she has the right to want to stay hidden until she has given the situation her full assessment. Any other sane person would do the same, I can speak from experience.
xxxI heard the familiar sound of her footsteps, they were more and more calculated as time wore on. She initially had very clumsy steps trying to figure out how to deal with the disabilities that her sister had given her. It was fascinating to watch her grow and learn how to live with her newfound disabilities. The veterinarians were not sure if she would be able to cope, with her age mixed with the trauma if Wraith would ever be able to make a full recovery to a somewhat normal state. I suppose they underestimated her, I had befallen the same fate many times over again. I suppose it’s part of the reason it was so easy for us to bond. Despite the bond being as fickle as my emotions could be, one second she could be right beside me almost hesitant to leave and the next she could be giving me a warning growl to stay away. I cannot blame her for this, no more than I could blame myself for slipping into a depression one day and feeling as though I could be the queen of the world the next.
xxxDuring my mind being captivated by the topic of disabilities that the two of us have in common I have threatened to enter her Paddock many times over. Mostly because I felt like I would be able to make contact with her in her own territory. Being able to outstretch my hand as though I were invincible and even Wraith would not harm me. Not even I were crazy enough to enter her sisters paddock but there was a side to Wraith that I knew she trusted me. Sure even this had its limits, she was still an animal with her destructive instincts. I am sure that if I made a wrong move she would happily snap me in her jaws ending my small existence on this earth. She really did make me feel smaller than I really was, which I suppose was the purpose of the park in the first place. To make us realize how truly small we were, and how little control that we had over the world that we liked to pretend that we had in the palms of our hands.
xxxI smiled a little but when I heard the little greeting chirps coming from Wraith. The sounds were so familiar, I remember when I had to be on edge constantly while I was still learning what each of her individual sounds ment. I am sure that she was studying the way that I spoke in the same way. Attempting to understand all the little nuances of the language that came from my lips. It was an interesting relationship that had formed between myself and the younger Indominus Rex. Most feared her as her sister remembering the power that she had, but I was able to think about the bond that we had formed. Despite it constantly being on the edge of falling apart sometimes. I smiled when I could see what I thought was her faint outline as well as hearing the greeting chirps turn to conversational chitters. “Hi” My hand was still pressed on the glass as though I would be able to dislodge it from where it was and give me the contact with Wraith that I had been looking for since I first met her.
