Melt your headaches|Ryden 1x1 w/ chemicalwinter

[throam]

Brendon nodded as the memories flooded back in. Beach nights and staying up late into the night talking to Ryan. "Good times." He said.

[ChemicalWinter]

“I loved you that summer.” Ryan confessed, his voice dropping an octave. He avoided eye contact. “I held it in for a long time...” He murmured, more to himself than to Brendon.

[throam]

//i'm dipping into my tissue supply for the panic concert//

Brendon bit his lip, feeling his heart flutter in his chest a little. He reached over to put his hand over Ryan's. "And look where we are now." He said softly, with a small smile.

[ChemicalWinter]

//*tissue confetti* you’re gonna need it//

Ryan nodded and interlaced their fingers. He looked down at Brendon’s hand, loving how perfectly it fit in his own. “It was hard too, though.” He added, rubbing circles into Brendon’s hand with his thumb. “Love has never really felt like a natural thing to me. It scared me at first.” He admitted.

[throam]

"Love scares everyone." Brendon replied. "I think it's just the idea of it." He continued. He sighed softly, enjoying the circular motion of Ryan's thumb on his hand.

[ChemicalWinter]

“I wouldn’t have been able to do it had it not been for Spencer.” Ryan murmured, at this point just rambling. “There was a card game I played with him. Just a stupid little thing we liked to do sometimes. The night you were bottled we’d been debating between ourselves who’d check up on you that night, make sure you weren’t concussed.” He explained. He gave Brendon’s hand a gentle squeeze. “I lost of course. So I’d watch you. Make sure you weren’t straining. I stayed up all night just listening to you breathe...” Ryan clenched his jaw a little, the memories flooding his mind as well as his heart. It was hard for him to own up to, but he hoped Brendon would understand its significance.

[throam]

Brendon got a little choked up listening to Ryan speak, and all he could think to do was lean forward and wrap his boyfriend into a warm embrace. "I love you." He breathed out, almost inaudibly.

[ChemicalWinter]

Ryan smiled and set down his cards in his lap, pulling Brendon in close so they were skin to skin. “I loved you then.” He murmured softly. He caressed the back of Brendon’s neck. “And I love you now.” Ryan closed his eyes, breathing in the comforting scent of the other male that reminded him of home.

[throam]

Brendon closed his eyes for a moment, letting the words process. He exhaled, a slight shakiness to the breath, then pulled back slowly, smiling lovingly at Ryan as he did so.

[ChemicalWinter]

Ryan smiled back at Brendon as he hesitantly let go. He ruffled Brendon’s hair and cupped his cheek. “You’re my boy.” He said softly, shakily almost. “Always will be.”