1x1 ; Blackpearl44 & commander lexa

[`sappho]

the commander smile and turned back away from octavia before she swept her hair to one of her shoulders, showing off the long scar on the other shoulder. nadezhda turned back towards the bed and nonchalantly laid her sheath, containing her sword, beside the bed before sitting on the edge and swinging her feet onto the make-shift bed. she could tell that octavia was in deep thought and didn't want to disturb her. she was having some thoughts of her own. she did care for the girl, probably more than she'd care for someone in a while. was it okay for her to keep the girl like this? she didn't really think of her as a prisoner anymore but that was technically what she was. it hurt her to say it but would it be better for her to release octavia and let her choose what to do? she looked over at the girl and saw that she was obviously troubled. "octavia, i think it's time that i-" she hesitated, her breath caught in her chest. "it's time that i release you," she finished trying to sound confident. "i care for you and i want you to be happy so i want you to be able to choose what your path is and if you decide to stay with me i want you to know that it wont be as a prisoner," she told her. "but i won't stop you if you want to stay here with your people," she said to her. she looked away from her, waiting to hear what she say.

[swiftie 13]

Octavia looked over at Nadezhda with a shocked look on her face, not quite believing what she had just heard. The commander had released her. She was no longer a prisoner and could stay here with her friends. But hen she wouldn’t be able to see Nadezhda any more. If she went back with the commander, she probably wouldn’t be able to see Clarke or anyone else, either. Why couldn’t they just all get along so Octavia could be selfish and have both? She let out another sigh, if only she still hated the commander as much as she did when Bellamy had died. So much had changed in this short period of time. She wasn’t ready to give up the girl she had grown close to, but she wasn’t ready to give up her friends. She wasn’t particularly close to all of them, but many had been Bellamy’s friends, and they’d helped him when her mother had been floated. She couldn’t abandon them. How was she supposed to choose? She knew what she wanted, but she couldn’t have both. “I need some air,” She mumbled, quickly looking away from Nadezhda as she got up off the bed and headed out of the tent.

- sorry, busy couple days. Had to take care of my cousins kids yesterday, and football was today.

[`sappho]

suddenly, the commander knew that she should have waited to release nadezhda until they were in a better place or time. they had already had so much on their mind and now octavia had another thing shoved onto her. she had to choose between her friends and nadezhda. to her it seemed like a clear choice, octavia would choose her friends over her captor but it wasn't so simple anymore. they had both made it clear that they cared for each other with complicated everything. on top of that, nadezhda was being truthful and she was so selfishly trying to push the sky girl away. she couldn't think straight when she was around, all she could think of was octavia and if she was going to lead her people like that, she would eventually fail. she looked over at Octavia when she spoke and nodded in silent reply, not knowing what to say.

--- it's alright! also this rp is really taking a turn lol

[swiftie 13]

Octavia took in a deep breath once she was outside in the fresh air. She wanted to run off in to the forest to clear her mind, but she knew that it was dangerous. And not because of the grounders, she wasn’t scared of them, and as far as they knew, she was still a prisoner. The worst they’d do to her is capture her and take her back to Polis, to wait for the commander. The only thing she feared out there were the wild animals. She wasn’t exactly sure what was out there, but she had over heard some of the grounders speaking of large apes and big cats. She’d rather not run in to any of those, unarmed and unable to defend herself. She took another deep breath as she wandered over to a fallen log in the center of camp, by a large bonfire. She wondered what to do. She knew that Nadezhda cared for her, but she also knew that the duty to her people would always come first over Octavia. That’s how it was for the grounders. If she had to choose, she knew that the commander would choose her people. Perhaps Octavia should too. At least that way, she could make sure they were safe with the little training she had gotten from her stay in Polis. It wasn’t an easy decision, but her mind was made up now. She let out a shaky sigh as she rose to her feet and made her way back to the tent once more.

- I know, it’s getting serious lol

[`sappho]

the commander was extremely nervous. what if octavia decided to stay? nadezhda couldn't fight her but her people would see her as weak if she didn't fight alongside them. if there was a war she would have to fight against these people herself, alongside her troops. usually this wouldn't be a problem but if she encountered octavia... no, she couldn't think like that anymore. she was the commander of the twelve clans, she had to think of her people first, no matter what octavia decided to do. she would let her do whatever she wanted, it was nadezhda fault she had to choose anyway because she was the one who decided it was smart to make her choose right now. she looked up as she saw octavia walked back into the tent and waited to see what she was going to say to her. she was nervous but did her best not to show it.

[swiftie 13]

Octavia took a moment to study Nadezhda’s face. She could tell that she was a little nervous. In their short stay together, she was able to figure out what the commander was feeling, even if she was trying to hide it. They had grown close enough for Octavia to read her, even when her grounder followers could not. How could she throw that away? She opened her mouth to say something, but she couldn’t form words. This had been a lot easier in her head, just go in there, tell the commander she’d stay with the other sky people, and go to sleep. Instead, however, she found herself taking a few steps closer to the commander, not breaking eye contact until she pressed her lips against Nadezhda’s in a passionate kiss. Her eyes instantly closed and her hands found a place on the back of the other girls head, tangled up in her hair. All rational thought flew out the window, she just wanted to enjoy the moment.

[`sappho]

their eyes contacted and nadezhda felt a spark between them. maybe that was the same that had brought them together in the first place. it was like the world didn't want them to separate. she could tell it was coming and she was preparing herself to nod and go along with whatever octavia decided. she would have to act like whatever she choose didn't either excite her or give her deep dismay. she opened her mouth, ready to respond to whatever the sky girl was going to tell her. before either of them could say anything, she felt octavia's lips pressed against her in a dangerously passionate kiss. she pulled octavia in closer and then stood from the bed. she took a moment to breath before playfully pushing octavia onto the makeshift bed with a smirk. she kissed her again before climbing onto the bed with her.

--- ominous fade to back lol

[swiftie 13]

Octavia lay curled in to Nadezhda’s side, tracing patterns on the commanders toned abdomen. She ran her fingers along the defined muscle on the other girls stomach, a small smile on her face. She let out a content sigh, nuzzling her head into the crook of her neck. There was no way she could stay here now, not after what had just happened. She didn’t really want to, either. Not anymore. She wanted to be with Nadezhda, she could still protect her friends from Polis. She could ensure that there wasn’t a war. She looked up at the commander, staring up in to her eyes. She moved so that she could prop herself up on her elbow, looking down at the commander. “I want to stay with you, Nade.” She said, leaning down for a sweet kiss. She wasn’t sure what would happen from here, but they’d figure it out.

- These two are too cute fam.
I may not be able to post over the weekend, maybe only once if I do. I’m working all weekend.

[`sappho]

a shiver was sent down her spine as octavia's finger traced over her tattoos. nadezhda smiled down at her and closed her eyes for a moment. she was content, just for a moment, and it felt liberating. she could just relax and not think about the oncoming bloodshed. she felt octavia nuzzled against the crook of her neck. this was how it was suppose to be. nadezhda didn't want her to leave, ever. she gently ran her hand through octavia's long brown hair. she watched intently as the sky girl moved up to prop herself up beside nadezhda. she smiled. "good because i don't think i could let you go," she said honestly before pushing her head up a bit to catch octavia's sweet kiss. she gently pulled away. "we'll figure this out, all of it," she said.

--- ikr! they are adorable! c:
that's alright! ill try to post the most i can tonight then lol

[swiftie 13]

Octavia smiled down at Nadezhda. She lay back down, turning on to her side so that she could face the commander. She moved to lay her arm across Nadezhda’s stomach, smiling happily. It seemed she did that a lot around the commander. She hadn’t smiled a whole lot when she was locked up on the ark after being found out, and she hadn’t been truly happy until she had started to grow close to Nadezhda. It was such a nice, warm and cozy feeling to be happy. She wanted to stay like this forever, curled up in bed with the commander, not having to worry about everything. But, she knew that once morning came, they’d have to get up and deal with avoiding a war. For now, though, he real world and it’s problems could wait. Octavia yawned, letting out another content sigh as she scooter closer to the commander so that she was pressed flush against her. She pulled her close, cuddling her as if she was going to lose her. “Good night, Nade,” She said with another yawn as she collided her eyes.

- I might be able to post tomorrow night, depends if I finish early enough. Sunday I’m working early in the morning so if I don’t finish while late tomorrow I won’t be online.