by SunnyJustice » Sun Nov 15, 2015 3:07 pm
Alder nodded, beginning to feel better after Amber's words. "Thanks, Alpha Amber," he said affectionately before straightening up. Amber was right, he had to think positive and stop being an idiot, or Paige would hunt him down and slap him silly. "Speaking of food..." he began as a smile actually began to form on his face. "If you have something ready, I hope you don't mind if I dig in. But if you don't got nothing, then this means I finally get to do the one thing I'm really good at!"
He grinned mischievously. "You should see me in the kitchen; first of all, I think I look really good in an apron, and second of all, even Paige is proud of my food!"
In silence, Rowan stood up, and this time he made no attempt to hide the tears of joy that were forming in his eyes. He gently leaned in and planted a shy, soft kiss on Esme's lips, then drew back with a timid smile. "I suppose this means you are the First Lady, for real this time," he said before extending his arms and pulling her into his warm embrace.
Acacia had been listening intently to Rori before a black-haired ball of murder and excitement bounded towards them. Oh dear, she was loving Eboni already, but the tiny girl had so much energy in her it seemed impossible. She was like one of those Earth hummingbirds, the small dark ones that flew around upside-down whenever they wanted, just because they had the ability to. Yet, this wasn't the first time Acacia had met a girl so loud and yet so affectionate... but the blue flash intercepted her mind when she tried to access those old memories. Brushing it aside, she set her full focus on the small girl who was now bouncing on the spot. A smile formed on her face, this time making the corners of her eyes rise in genuine joy.
"Thank you," she told the young girl, putting a hand on Eboni's shoulder in an attempt to calm her down a little. "I heard you are quite the combat prodigy. If there is anything specific you want me to show you, I would love to," she said with a smile.
Icaron was alone again. He understood completely; Rori and his daughter had important business, and Icaron couldn't always be around them. But Icaron had seen better days, and today was not one of them. He didn't know why, but he was just so afraid; presenting Acacia's weapon to her seemed to be the trigger. Icaron had forged that weapon for her by himself, and he had a reason behind it, but that reason disturbed even him. He didn't like to think about it, but maybe one day it would be inevitable.
He descended the stage and exited to the left, making his way back to his room. No one waved to him; perhaps they recognized the dark, serious expression on his thoughtful face, or maybe they simply did not care. Icaron would not have been surprised either way.
He walked down the dormitory halls, but made a sharp right instead of a left, and entered his daughter's empty room. He locked the door behind him.
The room was the second largest bedroom aboard the ship. The first belonged to Rori, the third to Icaron himself. It was also dimly lit. Back on Mogadore, Acacia had an eye problem; she was born on Lorien, with perfect air conditions, so the harsh pollution of Mogadore was a stark, unpleasant contrast. During bright days in the smog, Acacia's eyes would irritate her so much she would have headaches, and it pained Icaron to watch his daughter suffer. He had given her the most mild, gentle lighting conditions possible, fearing it would happen again on the mothership. Luckily, it never did -- but Icaron knew Acacia liked the warm, dim lamp in her room instead of any other light, so he never changed it.
It was so well-kept, with everything in its place. Except for one area, Icaron knew, Acacia never checked. He removed his shoes and walked across the soft carpet, carefully removing a single piece of stationery from her filed collection, and taking the fountain pen he had given her. It was black with a crimson tip, and scarlet blazes adorned its length. He felt touched that it was on a special pen holder in the middle of her otherwise-empty desk; maybe she did truly love that gift.
My daughter, he thought wistfully, but do you love me as much as I love you?
Maybe one day, he would find out, in his own way.
He should have been looking forward to that day... but he feared it.
Because that day would also be his last.
He sat down at his daughter's immaculate desk. It was pristine and homely; not the convoluted mess of Mogadore, not the arrogant fake perfection of Lorien. It was beautiful, like Earth. Like the home he hoped they would all belong to, someday, living in peace among the humans. And they would all teach each other to love, because love would be the only thing they ever needed.
My dearest Acacia, he began to write.
How was he going to do this? How could he? Already, Icaron felt his heart beginning to break. But he had to, because he feared the worst. Maybe one day, he would fail everyone. He would find himself metaphorically running in circles, but having nowhere to truly run to. The Mogadorians respected his leadership and feared his power, but if he fell, he would be weak. No one would care; because the Beloved Leader was just a title, Icaron was never truly beloved.
They would stand by and laugh at his suffering, because he would have failed to change anything. The very fact that they did not care... that was a failure. Icaron only wanted to help his people, to teach them what love was, but if he failed... they might never learn.
They would mock the fallen leader, taunt him in his agony, and they would torment him to weaken him further. A vicious cycle, inescapable... only by death.
If worse came to worst... Acacia would have to read this letter.
He would only have to give the word, because she never checked this specific drawer otherwise. It was the only empty one; she could not find a category to organize it with, so simply neglected its existence completely. "Look in your desk drawer. Bottom shelf, far right corner."
Taking a deep breath, he gathered the courage to write.
In the event that you are reading this, I am already beyond hope. I have written this because I believe in you, Acacia; I will always do so. I trust that you can handle what I am about to request you do, and I am so sorry for asking this of you. The very fact that you have opened this letter means I have directed you here out of desperation, because at this point, I will be better off dead.
Please do not skim this letter. It was hard for me to write, and if it's hard for you to read, just picture me standing by your side. I will be gone, but my faith in you will never fade. There is one thing I ask that you understand: A father can die, yet a father's love cannot die.
It was with love that I made your spear for you. I could not ask anyone else to create it, for it is the only one of its kind, and I wanted my gift to you to be very personal. There are three reasons why it is the way it is. First of all, I love you, and it hurt me to watch you struggle to complete your assignments. It is a priority of mine that you are accepted, respected, and loved; if you must kill your opponents to reach that, so be it. I wanted to make it easier on you to do what you must.
Secondly, since you were born, I looked upon you and I knew of your destiny. You are meant to become the strongest and most renowed fighter our race has ever seen. When I write this now, you are a soldier; but one day you will become a Lieutenant, then a General, and before you know it, you will be in my place. But you will not make the same mistakes I did, the mistakes that ensure the reading of this letter. I am so sorry. You are stronger than I was, and you can finish what I failed to do.
And the third and final reason is that I am afraid. If I make a mistake, and fall from favor, there will be no mercy granted to me. I cannot ask anyone else what I am about to plead from you. I love Rori very much, and if she feels the same, I will not bear to burden her with this task, and no one else holds the compassion you do. I know it is difficult, but please try to understand. In this situation, you are the only one I can turn to, and I beg that you lend a hand just one last time.
Tears pricked at his eyes at the thought of having to leave Rori behind. He would write to her, too, but he had to finish this letter first. One page turned into two, and then into many, as he removed more pieces of the elegant black-embroidered stationery from his daughter's shelf. The most difficult thing, perhaps, was that he truly believed this letter would be read one day.
If you still have not killed before now, take comfort; this will be your true First Blood. Acacia, a Mogadorian's First Blood ceremony defines them. If this is to be who you are, then it will mean more than all the others'. Your First Blood will not only tell of your strength, but also of something else the others don't yet know. Something you will one day teach them. You can call it compassion, but I'd like to call it love.
I love you, my daughter, no matter what. I never asked for reciprocation, but just this once I beg you to understand, and I'm so sorry that I ask you to make this choice.
If you love me, Acacia, kill me.
Sincerely,
Your father.