Elijah felt weak. He was used to the feeling but to feel weak around Andy was different. He felt disappointment towards himself settling in his chest like a bag or rocks, uncomfortable with his every breath. Elijah felt stupid around Andy, but at the same time something tugged at his heart in a way no one had ever done to him before, but Andy was able to muster that feeling in Elijah by the slightest touch or word. Elijah knew it was stupid for feeling something was wrong with him and Andy. What had provoked this? The game? Elijah didn't know why he was so focused on their problems suddenly. Had he really not realised his uselessness in this relationship until now?
He felt the sting of tears at the back of his eyes, of frustration and sorrow, but he didn't want to cry. Not again, not again in front of Andy. This had been a miserable trip. Elijah worried his bottom lip and swallowed the lump in his throat. Now was not the time to spill his guts out to Andy, now was not the time for Elijah to cry into the others chest because he wasn't worth Andy's time. Elijah gave a small tug of a smile, lifting his head and shaking it a little.
"it's no one's fault, Andy, don't be silly."Elijah said lightly. "When the rain stops, we can just trek our way back. No big deal." Elijah said, reveling in the heat coming off Andy, habitually snuggling closer to him.
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