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[koegami]

ＡＬＥＩＧＨＡＮＤＲＯ ＭＯＯＮ

...........i was close to being asleep, my eyes closing and opening everytime she moved or started talking. i didn't move when she ran her hand along the outside of my shirt, but when she looked at her fingers, it had me the slightest bit worried. when she sat up, i moved around until i was comfortable again, almost closing my eyes. when she had started talking for like this third time, i groaned and watched her in a daze. "w-what? all i heard was clean cut, can't sleep, and ok. what?" i asked her, tilting my head to one side. i pieced the missing words into the sentence shaking my head no. "it want to sleep and that's all that m-" i started, as she began to run her thumbs along my cheek. 'matters....' i thought as i watched her in a daze, my eyes focusing in n' out on her. "what's going to.... OH NO. NOT THAT. GET IT AWAY." i said, scrambling away slowly. "no, get. it. away from me. i'm not getting that salt water anywhere on me got it." i hissed, holding up a - clawed - hand in my defense. i growled at her, before groaning and laying down again, completely forgetting what had gotten me so worked up only seconds ago. "sooo.... tired... kitten, let me sleep....." i muttered, rolling onto my side and slowly closing my eyes. i knew she told me to stay awake, but i was sooo drowsy, i couldn't stay awake to save my life.

[littleghosthunter]

"No Luka don't!" I yelled once he had laid down. I frowned not walked over to him. I still had the water in my hands and I let the water dribble into his cut as he laid on his side. Before releasing what was left into his wound. And stepping back a good few feet, just in case he you know. Flipped out. He was going to flip out on me anyway. But I had saved his life. I could tell, because his wound was already looking better. I sighed and looked at him. I feared his reaction though, he wouldn't hurt me. At least not on purpose. But I knew if he got angry. That i'd have to calm him down no matter the consequences. I bit down on my lip nervously. Digging my toes into the sand, and staring down at my toes. Before looking back at him. The wound was closed, which means he'd feel the pain any moment now. And flip out on me, after he got up that is. Because salt water stings, badly. I know I've had it done to me before.

[koegami]

ＡＬＥＩＧＨＡＮＤＲＯ ＭＯＯＮ

........... I groaned as she let the ocean's salt water clean out my cut. It stung a little at first, and I closed my eyes, thinking that was all, and it was over. No, I was wrong. The stinging got worse, to the point where I was digging my heels and feet into the sand, and crying out. I was thrashing my head back and forth, canines extended, my eyes were open. Only, they landed, on her. I had tears streaming down my face, but all pain subsided when I felt this feeling of Anger spread through me. I growled at her, bearing my fangs at her, getting up, slowly. ''Why. Even after-'' I started, before I jumped at her. It was an instinctive move, that's all. I pinned her, getting about nose-to-nose with her, before I snarled, and gripped my shirt. The pain had come back. I shook my head again, snarling, crying, and trying to rip my shirt off me it hurt so bad. I continued my efforts, until I moaned, my eyes rolling, and I collapsed onto her. Breathing at a rapid pace. I didn't feel good to say the least, but saying that I feel just peachy is a bit farfetch'd if you ask me.

[littleghosthunter]

I stared wide eyed at him, I couldn't move. But a scream tore from my throat yep he jumped on me, pinning me to the ground. "I had to!" I screamed, but I felt fighting back would do no good. So I just lay limp under him not fighting back. He had to do what he had to do to get him anger out. And I wasn't going to stop him. Even if I meant I end up with a knew cuts and bruises. When he collapsed on top of me though was when I got worried. The salt water must be going to great extents to get whatever was in that cut out of his body. I sat up, looking down at him. "Luka, I know it hurts. But it's for your own good, that pain will go away. I promise," I say as I stroke his cheek looking down at him. I hated having to do that, but it seemed to be the only way. "You have to trust me on this I," I whisper. I turned my head looking away from him. It seems that's the one thing he doesn't have for me is trust, it kind of hurt to know that he didn't trust me. But I couldn't do anything about it.

[koegami]

ＡＬＥＩＧＨＡＮＤＲＯ ＭＯＯＮ

........... i just layed there, the pain had eased off only a little and needless to say. pain hurts. i kind of flinched when she screamed, bit she calmed down some before i could truly react. "my own good? didn't you parents tell you never to make promises that you can't keep? i mean, yeah, the physical pain will go away, but not the others." i said, sighing. when she stroked my cheek, i couldn't help but tilt my head into her hand. i closed my eyes,before opening them quickly when she whispered something to me. "i think he doesn't trust me.....is probably what your implying. am i right?" i asked her, my voice cutting in n' out now and then. but i didn't talk anymore when she turned her head away from me. yeah, the salt water had stung worse than being stung by a jellyfish, but.... i guess i didn't trust her. i mean i wanted to, but all the fights, and turning me down on most of my offers, getting angry with me when i had no control over myself, then sometimes giving up on me when i needed her and i didn't know how to express it. trust.... is hard for me, i mean i can't necessarily trust anyone at this point, not with these voices in my head, and my medicine being over due for weeks now. i just can't help it, i will get angry with her, i will occasionally loose it and attack her, i will, i will, i will, it's all a routine. something i can't control. and trust.... isn't one of my strong points to say the least.

[littleghosthunter]

I licked my lip looking down at him, I sighed. "I'm sorry," I muttered, I didn't know why I was apologizing. I just felt like I needed to. I was just trying to help, but whatever I do just angers him worst most of the time. I closed my eyes facing away from him. Was I really that bad of a person, that every little action I do just angers him? I blinked my eyes and looked around just now realizing it was getting dark. I looked back to at Luka, and just noticed that I was tracing circles on his cheek with my thumb. I pulled my hand away. "I'm sorry Luka, I don't try...." I trailed off scooting away from him. I looked out over the water pulling my knees up to my chest burying my face in my knees. I mumbled things to myself, but I wasn't paying attention to what I was saying. But it sounded like I kept repeating i'm sorry. I closed my eyes as I wrapped my arms around my legs holding them to me, as I sat there. I didn't know what to do, I was back to being completely confused. And I felt vulnerable. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear.

[koegami]

ＡＬＥＩＧＨＡＮＤＲＯ ＭＯＯＮ

........... i nodded simply, not really bothered. i had already forgiven her, for everything. but i just wasn't ready to say it, i think. i bit my lip before closing my eyes and heaving a sigh. i just laid there i guess, staring up at the darkening sky and the sun going down. i shook my head before sitting up. "we need to go. wanna stay at the boys' cave tonight? i mean it would take too long to gather wood and get ourselves situated. or i guess we could sleep out in the rain." i said as a rain drop hit my nose. it had gotten cloudy quickly. i sighed and made sure that i had taken my shirt off and it was covering my wound, just to be cautious. even if i was closed. i gritted my teeth and stood up shakily, feeling as though a 1 ton weight was pushing me down. i groaned before moving - more like stumbling and falling every other step towards - the woods.

[littleghosthunter]

I stood up without a word to follow him. But I had run up to his side when I noticed the troubles ad had walking. I grabbed his arm to help steady him a bit. "Are you going to be okay with walking?" I ask. I don't think it'd be very good for him to walk. But not waiting for a reply I slipped under his arm. And wrapping an arm around his waist. I was going to try and help sturdy him a bit. Because it looked to be to much of a hassle on his own. I looked up at him for a moment, before looking back in front of us. So I knew where we were going. I didn't want to trip over, or run into anything. My eyes mainly focused on the ground, because every other step there'd be something in our path. And if it were in our walking path, i'd be able to see it before I even look up. Running my hand threw my hair I sighed.

[koegami]

ＡＬＥＩＧＨＡＮＤＲＯ ＭＯＯＮ

........... "yeah, it's not like you'd carry me." i said, chuckling softly, patting her on the head with my free hand. i kind of helped her by not putting too much weight on her. i mean putting all my weight on her would probably send her to the ground, and me after her. i kind of watched where i was going, so i didn't trip of her, myself, or anything else in my way. i bit my lip as i walked, finding it uncomfortable to have her help me, i mean yeah, i was a bit on the wobbly and unstable side.... ok, maybe abit disoriented too, but i could do it. i kept my pace steady, trying not to make it too hard for her. but i kind of felt a bit dizzy, leaning on her, with another groan. i was sure i was going to pass out, but i'd keep myself awake - and alive - until i do.

[littleghosthunter]

I bit down on my lip as he leaned some more of his weight on me. I could handle it, I really could. I'm not that weak! Geesh. I looked up at him, "We're almost there.... Are you going to be able to make?" I ask, I was a bit worried. I've never seen salt water do this to a person before. So the way he was reacting to it, had me worried. I bit my lip again, as I stumbled slightly. My eyes instantly went to where I was walking. Gosh i'm a klutz. I have to keep my eyes on where i'm walking, I remind myself. I look up for a second, and notice the sight of flames dancing threw the trees. Just by that I could tell we were nearly there. "Just a little farther," I mutter more to myself than anybody else. Once we had made it into the clearing I knew we were fine. Running my hand threw my hair I sighed. All the boys looked over at us once we hobbled threw the brush.