~Eleven'sPirouette~ and counting stars

[bibliophile;]

JJ followed her and sat by her side. "Hey..." he said softly and rubbed her back. "Tell me what happened. Why are you guys fighting this time?"

[twofrogsinacoat]

Sarah sank into him, keeping her face in her hands. "I don't even know, JJ. I was flirting with other girls, so I came over to tell him to stop, but then he got mad and we got in another fight." She removed her hands and instead hid her face in his shirt, trying hard not to cry.

[bibliophile;]

He sighed and hugged her. He stroked her head. "Sar, this is killing you. He's no good for you." He lifted her head. "Think about this before you answer. Do you really love him?"

[twofrogsinacoat]

"That's just it! He IS good for me! When he's not a complete a**, he's so sweet." Sarah's vision blurred with tears and she quickly blinked them away as JJ lifted her head. "Yes," she blurted immediately to his question, but then sighed in defeat and shook her head. "I...I don't know anymore. I can't keep doing this, but I can't just let him go."

[bibliophile;]

JJ sighed. "How can he be good for you? He breaks your heart almost daily and seeing you broken hurts me!" He said without thinking. He sighed, hoping she didn't catch that. He went on. "I know you think you love him but in the long run, think of how it'll turn out."

[twofrogsinacoat]

Sarah averted her gaze, as she was on the verge of tears throughout JJ's little speech. She swallowed hard, trying to get rid of the lump in her throat. "I don't know, Jayje. I don't. I wish I did, but..." She shook her head and buried her face in his shirt again. She hadn't caught onto the last past where he said that seeing her broken hurt him, so she took no notice of it.

[bibliophile;]

JJ sighed softly and hugged her. "Just let it out Sar." He rubbed her back, thankful she didn't notice. How could he tell his life long best friend he had feelings for... and still be best friends?

[twofrogsinacoat]

Sarah squeezed her eyes shut as a tear slipped down her cheek. "It hurts, JJ," she whispered quietly into his shirt. She hated how she seemed so weak and pathetic. Normally she wasn't like this, but all she wanted to do right then was cry and eat about a gallon of ice cream. It wasn't as though she and Jake had broken up, but their fights never ended well.

[bibliophile;]

JJ just held her. "I know it does. I know," he said and rubbed her back still. He sighed, hating to see her so upset.

[twofrogsinacoat]

Sarah sniffled. "All I want is for someone to look at me the way Jake looks at other girls," she whispered thickly through her tears. "Jake...he used to do that. But now..."