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[kopus]

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"Interesting ... My favorite is probably those Bruce Willis movies or those awesome movies. I like thrillers. "I reply to him, shrugging a little.

After a while, I had been gazed a little, looking into the distance of the woods but was utterly distracted by Andy moving forward to me. I knew what was going to happen now, and normally would know a guy for a few more months before getting romantic, but he felt like the one and it didn't seem dangerous or anything. I blush a little and lean in towards him, our lips almost together when I feel my cell phone buss against my thigh in my left pocket. I pull back with a soft sigh and wince a little. "Sorry ... " I mutter to him and check who the caller was. My dad. I mumble a few bad cuss words under my breath and answer the call.

At first, all I heard was colorful swearing from my father and could almost visualize my 10 year grounding. "Dad... Please just calm down." I said into my cell phone. "Where are you young lady?" He yelled but I could tell he was trying hard to calm down like I had asked him too. I had to come up with some lie because if he knew I was actually at a party, WITH teenage boys who are drunk and could ... Yeah, he would kill me. "I'm spending the night at Nick's house. I'm sorry I didn't call earlier, I just forgot sort of ..." I say softly, chewing my lip. I wait for his reply silently.

There was a long pause of seconds. I glanced at Andy with an embarrassed smile. "Alright .." My dad replied after a while. "I will see you in the morning, sweetie." He said.
"That's daddy." I said, keeping my fingers crossed still until we both hung our phones up. I sighed in relief. "Wow ..." I murmured to Andy. That was totally embarrassing but I would probably live.

I stood up quickly, very embarrassed now and chewed my lip, looking at Andy. "Come on .." I whispered. "Lets get out of here and go back to the party or something." I said, raising a eyebrow even though what I said wasn't a question.

[xstarbabe]

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I hesitated a moment, lips almost touching hers, raising my hand slightly towards her cheek but not much.. Just being this close, drove my thirst crazy..begging me to feed. Now. The smell of her blood, rich,and sweet..I can't..I breathed, once she pulled away. I snapped back, regaining control. My fangs disappeared back to their place, and my eyes switched back to their normal pale blue color. I looked down. I could hear, what the other person was saying..rather loud. I bit my tongue gently, just out of..anger? With what I was about to do. I moved my hair from my eyes, and looked over at her. Daddy just saved your life. I almost said it, but caught myself before I did. This is unacceptable. I almost..killed her, just cause I can't control my thirst. I looked away, toying with my lip piercing I smiled a little, at what she said,nodding a little in reply. I looked up at her, from where I was sitting as she stood abruptly."Oh..Kay." I murmured. I stood and brush myself off, then look out in the direction of the house. "Come on then." I said ruffling my hair a bit. I smiled slightly,"Um.. can you walk or..?"

[kopus]

-{Thanks, I might change it in a while with my signature. Here is a embarrassing, slightly sad post for Veronica. Whoops. I might of made this post a little too long. Oh, well. Take your time! Hahah.}-

I nod slightly and stand beside him. "Ladies first." I joke and playfully punch him in the arm slightly. It was a little weird, because we were about to kiss and then of course my dad had called and interrupted a good moment in my life. I was a little afraid to speak, even when he asked me about if I could walk but I did reply. "Yeah, I'm fine." I say softly and start walking beside him. We walk in the direction of the house where the party is and get there quickly. As we arrive to the front door again where people where just hanging out at, I turn around to Andy with a warm kind smile. "Thanks for walking with me .."I say softly to him and enter the house, hoping he will follow behind me.

At first, I see Nick sitting on a couch with a bottle of beer in each hand and a blonde prostitute looking girl in his lap. I roll my eyes with a sigh and walk over to him. I felt a little protective over him because he had been my friend since we were eight years old.

"You're a mess. You know that?" I ask, folding my arms over my chest, glaring at the girl. Nick smirked, pleased with himself. "Yes, babe. And I'm happy about it." He said with a small smile. He reeked with the smell of alcohol on his breath. The girl in his lap kissed his bare chest and that's what really ticked me off and I just walked away, angry. It wasn't embarrassment actually; it was like if someone very loyal cheated on you or lied. I felt hollow inside and weak now, and I wasn't being dramatic ... I was hurt inside. It is what Morgan might do but not Nick, he had been my loyal best friend ever since I was seven years old and he was eight and now he had betrayed me with some skanky girl.

I take a deep breath, interring the kitchen where Morgan was sitting at the table alone. He looked sober. "Hey .." I said, sliding into the chair beside him. "Hey ..." He replied, glancing over at me slightly and then at his hands again. "What's wrong?" I asked him, brushing the hair from my eyes. He looked sad and weak at the moment and I was hoping this would be a good reply. "Mine and Sammi's relationship isn't working out pretty good. We've been married for seven whole years, lost one baby and now she is pregnant again. I just ... I... I don't know. I still love her as much as I did before ... I just think she might not feel the same for me anymore." He said, shrugging to himself.

"I'm sorry, Morgan. I'm in fact going through the same thing right now; although it's with friendship." I said, not knowing what to say next because this was a little awkward but he needed to get it off his mind. "Just enjoy the party and think about those things later." He smiled and nodded to me, getting up and going into a crowd of people. I sat up from the table and went to the front door again, thinking about Andy. I stepped outside, not seeing him anywhere and went back to the pool where we had been earlier. I sat down ran my fingers in the cold water, looking at my reflection too. I smiled, and then ran a few fingers through my hair, playing with my earrings.

I could see the reflection of that blonde girl behind me too, her arms crossed with a snide looking on her Barbie doll face. I stood up, looking at her. "I don't want you talking to my guy, okay girly?" She asked, her voice very high pitched. I smirked as she slid her hands on her hips. "Uh, actually he isn't your guy and you don't even know him. You might buy him with looking like ..." I gestured to her clothing and curves in her chest. "But, he isn't yours and he will never be." Her jaw actually dropped. "Oh, you think you can talk to me like that? Do you, well you're wrong!!!" She yelled, taking her hands off her hips and shoves me back, making me fall into the pool.

At first I was unsure about what was happening until I felt the water explode in my face and all over my body. I hit my head hard on the side of the edge of the pool, almost making me black out. I hit the bottom of the pool fast, air escaping from my lungs. My eyes fluttered open, colored spots in my vision for a second until I was fully awake. I struggled to swim to the top but my muscles wouldn’t work right then. I could still see the girl hovering over the water and then run off in a prissy way, not saying a word. I came to the top quickly and gasped in a breath, my thick eyeliner and mascara running down my face terribly. And, now my dress was completely soaked and ruined.

I grabbed onto the side of the pool and pulled myself out of the cold freezing water. I stood up; water pouring off my body like someone was pouring a bucket of water over my head. I was really angry now, but even more than that ... I was embarrassed. I don't know why I didn't just stay outside but I didn't. I stepping inside the house again, water dripping everywhere, my hair and whole outfit soaked with water. I stand in the middle of the living room as everyone backed up and laughed at me as the pointed and watched. My nose flared a little; glaring at the blonde he giggled a little girly giggle as she hung onto Nick. Nick's mouth was open, but no laughter came out of it until I started trembling a little. I didn't see Morgan anywhere but if he had seen me I bet he would have helped me. I was now crying, crying so hard that my brain hurt and I felt so terrible. People started chatting again like nothing had happened and I curled up in the corner of the room, hiding myself. Tears ran down my cheeks and onto my hands and dress as I hugged my knees to my chest. maybe somebody we know of should possibly appear ... Hmm? ^.^

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I smirked slightly,at what she said, rolling my eyes a bit. I began walking,back to the house,chewing my lip gently. I followed her into the house, looking down as I moved through the crowd. I was pulled away, by someone. Aiden. For a human, he was really strong, I started thinking he might be stronger than me, but being a vampire,well.. He was laughing, "Dude look," he said, raising his beer slightly,pointing at something. There were two guys, fighting.

I looked back, over my shoulder,crossing my arms slightly, thinking of Veronica. Was she looking for me? I had no clue..I spotted her, talking to her friend. I turned my attention to Aiden, as he spoke,"Still won't let me dump you in the pool?" He asked, I snickered shaking my head as I watched the fight. He made a face,"We needa find someone else to dump in the pool, then." He mumbled, looking down,deep in thought. "Yeah." I murmured, blinking slightly as one of the guys was pushed into me. I barely moved, but still.. I laughed a bit, along with everyone else, just watching them push each other around. They were drunk, so I guess you could imagine how this was.

I heard something, like gasps and then laughing.. I turned my head, looking towards the window, I raised my eyebrow slightly. Mostly everyone in the group we were in, began walking to the back door. I tilted my head slightly,"Come on." I said, walking outside, with Aiden following behind me. I pushed through the crowd. I saw her standing there.."What the f*ck.. " Aiden mumbled..I looked her over, when she walked by. I realized who it was..what happened.? I followed her, again, brushing past people. I stopped, as they backed up, laughing. I heard Aiden call me, "Hey wasn't that your friend?" I nodded, "Yeah..." He moved past people, trying to get to the front of the crowd. I followed. He stared at her, eyebrows raised. I frowned slightly, then walked after her. "Veronica..What...how..what happened?" I asked, studying her.

[kopus]

I leaned my back against the hard wall, scooting down onto the floor, hot wet tears running down my cheeks. I just wanted to go home now, I wanted to be comforted and out of this place at the moment.

I look up all of a sudden when I hear a familiar voice near me asking what had happened to me. I look down, tears running down my cheeks. "Uh ..." I mumbled, sniffing slightly. I wipe my eyes and chew my lip, looking up again. "That girl ... Nick was with ... She pushed me into the pool because apparently he is 'her guy' as she says." I mock her voice at the end of my sentence in a girly prissy voice.

I stood up, trying to rub the smudged eyeliner away from my face but it just smudged even worse. I stopped crying and walked over to him, looking down. I looked up, not knowing what to say or do but the only thing that felt right was this ... All of a sudden, I hugged him tightly, crying into his shoulder hard. "I don't know what to do ..." I whispered to him, inhaling deeply through tears running down my face.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, not letting go for a while, worried and scared.

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[xstarbabe]

I looked down, as she said this, biting my lip. I glanced over at Nick,and that chick he was with. Surprised? I guess, that he didn't do anything about what happened. I scrunched my nose slightly and turned back to her."I..Oh.." I paused, biting my lip slightly. I didn't know what else to say , didn't have anything to say. I felt bad,just seeing her like this.I hate seeing people cry.Always have. I blinked, taken off guard..She was cold, freezing, considering she was soaked in water,..I hesitated before returning the hug. Toying with my lip piercing I asked,"Do you want to leave..?..." I pursed my lips into a thin line and pulled back a little.."We should go look for Morgan,first..." I murmured,thinking. I inhaled deeply and took my hoodie off, then held it to her."Here.."

[kopus]

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I felt like an idiot now. Uncomfortable and embarrassed. I back up a little but I am still close enough where he probably didn't notice. I rub my eyes a little, trying to calm myself down enough where I wasn't crying and embarrassing myself to death. I looked around at the crowd of people just partying again like they didn't see anything and I was half way grateful for that.

I sniffed a little, looking up at Andy who peered around at the crowd for a moment, like he was searching for someone. "Yeah ..." I say in a shallow voice. "I would like to go now ... " I said and let my shoulders sink a bit. When he mentioned Morgan's name, I turned to look at him again because I had my attention looking for Nick in the crowd of people.

"Wait ... Why do we have to find Morgan first?" I asked, raising my eyebrows. Even if I did know what he was talking about, my mind was full of other things at the moment and then I remembered I had drank a little bit tonight so it was probably that too. I groan and then glare at the crowd a bit for some reason.

[xstarbabe]

~{ Its okay. Sorry this took so long! xD I was gone for the holidays,
and i've been really busy lately. Oh and Happy New Years !! ( Its late, I know )
This might be short, I have a little wb for Andy :( }~

Toying with my lip piercing, I looked out at the crowd, looking for Morgan. I didn't see him.I nodded at what she said."I'll drive you home if you want." I pursed my lips into a thin line. I decided to take Jonah's car. He'll be spending the night here anyway. I think.. I looked away and back down at her. "Um. Because. Do you really want to walk around like," I paused, looking her over."-this? Sam should have something you could borrow.." It sounded weird. Did I care? Not really. "-unless you prefer staying like this..well then.." I shrugged slightly. I breathed deep, and glanced around. I looked over at the stairs, biting my lip, deep in thought. How the hell am I going to get the keys? I stepped back."Okay, come on.." I murmur, glancing over at her, then begin walking towards the stairs.

[kopus]

-{ No problem-o. And Happy -LATE- New Years too! Haha. My New Years wasn't the best but whatever And ... Wow. I can't write!!! *darn*. Ugh, well are they going like walk up the stairs and find Jonah, or get clothes for Veronica? *confused terribly* But don't worry, my writer's block will go away after a few more posts my luff.}-