by sunhorsestar » Sat Aug 08, 2020 11:35 am
OOC: @Lucy: All good!
IC:
SHADOW | Alpha | L-Pack | Tagging: Lightning Wolves | Location: Camp
Normally, this would be the time when Shadow would’ve announced the death of Ginger, who lay in the middle of the camp, half hidden behind the crowd, but this was a happy occasion, and she wanted to give the graduates at LEAST an hour or two to let things settle in and revel in their achievements. She smiled to see their energy, their pride, their youth. It made her feel old. Older than she was, even, and she was just over eight. She’d lived a good, successful life. Yet she still felt somehow incomplete. Perhaps it’s because I’ve begun to deteriorate. I saw the look on Leo's face. He's seemed uneasy, and when he looked at me earlier, it was with worry. He knows.
Shadow wasn't blind to her own growing flaws. She knew that her mental state would give way sooner rather than later if this chaos continued like this. She could deal with a lot, and she had for many a year, but everything was happening all at once, and it was taking a visible toll on her. She seemed older and more frail both physically and mentally, and she felt it. Sometimes, she felt things were out of her control and tried to take back that control. That was a large part of why her relationship with Ash had fallen apart, which weighed equally heavy on her. All put together, it felt like too much for one wolf to deal with, and the Lead Warrior had been distant, then absent, no Lead Hunter had been chosen yet, and the Beta kept busy. Then the fact so much bad was happening under her rule... I could give it up and return to being a Warrior for my last year and a half before joining the elders...but I promised my father before me when he chose me that I would serve and lead until I breathed my last, and I don’t break promises. Not unless I absolutely have to.
KARTER | Warrior | F-Pack | Tagging: Storm | Location: Forest
Storm had a point there, Karter noticed. Man that was getting annoying! She had a point for everything today, it seemed. Well if she has a point, that just means I didn’t, right? He reminded himself. It made sense to him! He smiled despite himself. Thinking too much on the could-have-beens. She’s right. If I dwell on that forever, be it before or after, then moving forward would never be an option.
They walked in silence for a while after that before Karter finally broke that silence. "You’re right," the brown Warrior finally agreed with a nod. "How's it that all of a sudden you’re filled with such wisdom?" He asked. Sky-dogs... I forget how much I missed her until she speaks...