by huddson » Sat Sep 12, 2015 2:51 pm
(I have a clan like Ashclan... multiple xD)
Creamstar sighed and looked down. Why had she chosen Petalpelt? Petalpelt looked strong, and she fought that fox once... But Darkwing seemed more loyal, more able to hold it. Perhaps I'll ask an older leader for advice after the Gathering... She didn't care to show that she was worried, upset, confused and distressed. The death of Stormstar came so suddenly... How was I supposed to be ready to take on leadership? Is it even possible to change the deputy, while the other is alive and hasn't re-signed? I know the deputy was changed from Patchtail to me when Patchtail retired... Poor guy, died a moon later... But why was I chosen? I'm not good at planning... That attack on the rats was terrible... I'm not that strong, I did need a bit of help to kill my father. But I'm not strong enough to die time after time again, I nearly fainted when recieving my last life! I'm not that fast, any fox could outrun me. And I'm not big, I look like a badger's kit! I'm not smart and I'm not clever, I'm dumb. She frowned and looked down, shaking her tail tip. Closing her eyes, she sighed. And I'm not even full clan... My father was a rogue. So really, why was I chosen? She opened her eyes, staring straight at Darkwing and Petalpelt. I could surely give reasons for choosing either of them. Petalpelt is kind and soft, and she's not too too strict. And Darkwing is loyal to the very end of his blood, and he's strong enough that he would stand the lives. I should think that's strong enough. She turned to the other leaders, aware of the cold stares burning at her pelt from cats everywhere. If I was still a deputy or warrior, I would just leave now... But I'm a leader, and every single cat would notice. Should I? Her mind wandered to her deputyship again and she looked up at the moon and stars. My time as deputy was so short. Maybe Stormstar was trying to tell me something? Or was going too? Why is everything so confusing? Looking down again, she felt most cats weren't looking at her. Jumping down, she silently slipped away.
(sorry if her personality is diff than her form. I forgot the form a little, and my charries tend to change their outlooks easily...)
(just filling in the blanks of the clan history xD)
(whoever plays Petalpelt (my memory has so many usernames...), is it okay if I change after a half-moon or quarter-moon of viewing Petalpelt as deputy?)
(will only be on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays, sorry =( )
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