"Efrak, please forgive me. All I did was change my name. I did absolutely nothing else." a tear trickled down her cheek. " I miss you. I miss having our family all crowded around in the den. I'be always been scared this day would come. I don't know what to say anymore." She took a step forward. "I've lost my parents, I've lost most of my friends, I've lost all sanity. . ." She whispered, nearly puking once again. "I've done everything wrong. I'm not a good alpha, I'm not good at talking, I'm not a good hunter, and I'm not a good mother. I know that. The only thing that was keeping me going was you, and if I lose you, I won't have any meaning. My babies will hate me, and knowing that you hate me. I couldn't live that way. You've been so supportive, you've been so nice, you're perfect. I've hurt you badly, you're absolutely wonderful and all I've given you was crap. I'm so sorry Efraksher, I know you hate me. I understand that you want to kill me. I know I sound selfish. But you're my completion, my love, my whole life. I couldn't stand being without you. I know this all sounds cliche. I know. But it's all true, from the heart. I love you. No matter what." her head lowered "I've screwed my entire life up." She sobbed once again, walking away with tears blurring her vision. "Goodbye, Efraksher. I hope you find a better fae to rule with." Though she stopped and turned around. "Oh, and thanks for all these years I have gotten to spend with you. They were wonderful. Ironically, if you hadn't attacked me that one day, many years ago, I probably would have died." She smiled weakly, continuing on her way. "Thanks. for everything. You've given me the best life I could ever ask for." She was tempted to lick his cheek, but refused, and kept walking.