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[Ourpawprints]

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|| Kale || Team Dog || Picture || ♂ || Ourpawprints || Out in the snow ||

That voice. Kale opened his eyes, seeing Shila running towards him. Tears began running down his face. He didn't want to face her, he didn't want to face his guilt. But now Kale had no choice, he couldn't hide forever. "Shila..." he whimpered, his voice the same thin, bedraggled tone as when he spoke to Angie.

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.: S H I L A :.
I whimpered with sorrow, skidding to a halt. I lowered my head and crawled on my belly towards him, sadness rolling off me in waves. I crushed my body against his, licking his chin. It's fine honey. I understand. I whispered, pressing against him. He was the only dog I wanted to see now.

[Ourpawprints]

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|| Kale || Team Dog || Picture || ♂ || Ourpawprints || Out in the snow ||

"No... you don't understand." Kale cried. "Nobody understands." his legs were trembling and his eyes wide with fear. The brute was afraid of the dreadful images of his nightmare and afraid that he was turning into a murderer. His tail was twitching and he began chewing on his paw once more, although his paw was now a scrap of bone and blood barely held together.

Kale looked at Shila, his eyes stricken with fear although still loving. He licked her forehead tenderly, tears pouring down his face. "I'm sorry." the brute whimpered.

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.: S H I L A :.
My heart wrenched with pain to see him like this. I whimpered softly and licked his cheeks, the salty taste of his tears stinging my tongue. I glanced down at his paw and gasped, licking it with soothing strokes. Anger, fear and sorrow raced through me at a mile an hour. Anger at the team. Fear for the future. And sorrow for Kale.

I looked at him with soft eyes. Kale, you need to tell me what's wrong. If you don't tell me I cannot help you. I said gently, pressing against him. I wanted this to end. I didn't want to see him like this, a shell of his former self.

[Ourpawprints]

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|| Kale || Team Dog || Picture || ♂ || Ourpawprints || Out in the snow ||

Kale didn't know how to answer. What was bugging him? Was it no more then just a stupid nightmare? Or was it the realization of the fact his nightmare was nothing but the truth. The fact that Sierra was toying with his emotions, attempting to destroy Shila from the inside out. Realization had lead to anxiety, anxiety lead to fear, fear lead to hate and hate lead to him attacking Sierra. Kale had done nothing more but try to realize that his self-conscious was exaggerating the situation, but how he handled his new-found realization was the problem.

Ever since Kale had awoken from that dreadful nightmare and had achieved that realization he had been giving clear signals something was wrong. His lack of belief that Shila was alright, his tail twitching, him avoiding eye contact and when he had told Angie he wasn't alright. It was all signals there was something wrong.

"Sierra..." Kale whimpered. "She, she hurt me. Not physically but she hurt me. She forced my into not only feeling bad that she was heartbroken but making me feel guilty for... us. As if I should. As if I were a monster for not loving her. She had toyed with my emotions, putting on a mask of sadness when she realized I didn't love her then taking that mask off like it was nothing. Leaving me confused and hurt. She never cared, once she realized I wasn't a doll of her's she decided to try to wreck me. And I don't think it was an accident. She hurt me, and I had just then realized that." Kale explained, at some parts his voice cracking. There was more to the story then that, there was the exaggeration of the situation that had forced him into realization. But he left that out.

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.: S H I L A :.
I was a like a tiny iceberg, floating around on an icy sea, being tossed around on the waves and thrown into the unknown. I didn't know what I was doing, what I should be doing, or what was happening. A storm raged inside me, emotions clashing together and forming new ones that I couldn't even name. I was a mess.

I looked at Kale with wide, sad eyes. My heart clenched and I whimpered. Every scrap of anger that had ever been in my body had left me the instant I met his eyes. I took refuge in the hazel irises, feeling them sooth my being. I licked his cheek tenderly, tears pricking my own eyes. I sniffed and sat next to him, leaning on his shoulder.

Life is like a mush. There are times of triumph, when the team is one, and these are the best. Times spent with your friends, family and musher. Times when you finish a mush without a hitch, Then there are the times of defeat, when the team in in disarray. This is the worst. Everyone is a mess of emotions and we just drift apart. That is what happened today. But now we have to unite. I will help you to defeat your demons. I love you Kale. I always have and I always will.

[Ourpawprints]

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|| Kale || Team Dog || Picture || ♂ || Ourpawprints || Out in the snow ||

Kale felt oddly awakened. As if for the past day he had been asleep and now he awoke. Kale had been so far away, so distant, now he felt himself coming closer. He had been in a trap, tangled in this mess of his own emotions. But now that entanglement was loosening. Kale needed help escaping his trap, and now it seemed he had help. He had felt so lost before but hadn't realized he had her all along.

"Shila, thank you." Kale spoke gently, with a soft voice. "I love you too, Shila. Always have, always will." he licked her on the forehead. Kale heard a song play in the back of his mind. The song that he had experienced the other day, when he was in a bliss of mushing. This was a different type of bliss but the song of the wind played in Kale's memory as he looked at her. He knew then that he had never needed to worry, he would always have her by his side.

[5sos]

Sierra tried to look up, but she was weak. She wanted to see Kale one more time before she died, but in times like this, he always ran off. A tear ran down her cheek. "He should have killed me!" She screamed in pain. "Don't let me suffer!" she screamed again, beating her paws against the rough snow. More tears. More blood. She began coughing, puking, then coughing blood.

[Ourpawprints]

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|| Kale || Team Dog || Picture || ♂ || Ourpawprints || Out in the snow ||

Kale perked his ears at the noise. Sierra's voice? Was he imagining it? He didn't know. But Kale didn't want to leave Shila's side, didn't want to face Sierra. He couldn't face Sierra, he feared he might return into that mode where he wanted nothing more but to kill her. But Kale was at the very least pleased to see that Sierra was alive, he hated her but still didn't want her dead.

[5sos]

Sierra was spazzing. "Help me! Don't let me die again!" she screamed. She had seen Heaven, and it was as pleasant as it was told. Sunshine everywhere, with unlimited wishes. When you wanted water, it was there, but it was missing something. Flame. She screamed at whoever could hear her. "Let me live! Get me water! Get me blood!" she screamed, tears dripping out of her eyes. She tried settling on snow but it dried her mouth.