ƬнɛβяσκɛиĦɛαят(Ƨɛмι ˩ιт Ƭɛɛи Яσмαиcɛ)(Closed...)

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Giovanni had just finished taking the last few pieces of bacon out the pan when he heard Lizzie come into the kitchen. “Hey, good morning.” He said groggily, his throat still feeling a little sore. “I made you breakfast…or what I could make of it.” He stated turning around and held the plate out towards her only to see her step on a broken piece of glass. My god Giovanni you’re so stupid! He shouted angrily in his head. He Giovanni quickly sat the plate back down on the counter and went into the bathroom to grab the gauze tap and bandages. He came back and kneeled down in front of her and began cleaning and wrapping the wound on the bottom of her foot. “I’m sorry Liz…I got mad and I wasn’t thinking. I meant to clean it up but I just…” He sighed not really sure how to explain his actions, it was hard for him to. Even with the amount of years he’s been in anger management and therapy it was still hard for him to talk about his problems. He looked up at her after wrapping her foot, his green eyes apologetic. “I know you haven’t seen me get mad like that it’s because I try my best to suppress it when I’m around you or hold it in the best I can. But here it just…comes out full force and I can’t stop it.” He admitted feebly. He somehow felt ashamed of himself and he knew he shouldn’t let his anger get the best of him but basically all the time it was still hard for him to control it. He was like a ticking time bomb and at any second he could go off and the action scared him.

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Lizzie shook her head and reached out to brush his hair back. "Look, you're not like this." She whispered and rubbed his temple softly with her thumb. "I saw you get mad and ... and that's just not you. I know your dad makes you mad and everything but I've known you for months now and that's not including the time you were ... were in jail." It almost hurt her to say the word. "And you just aren't this angry I know you aren't." She said softly and felt his cold hands on her foot. She noticed the gause on his hands and sighed. "You don't need to be mad. Well ... I mean." She sighed, knowing he was probably hurt by her saying that to him. He had a right to be mad, his father almost killed him. However, she still couldn't see her friend who was so nice to her and so happy-except when she was being difficult-to be angry enough to break glasses and fight people. Lizzie sighed and took his hand in hers. She turned it over and noticed how some dark blood was seeping through the gause and she shook her head. She met his green eyes with her blue ones and bit her lip as she decided what to say. Finally, she said, "I want to help you, I don't want you to ever get angry at me. I just don't, and I'm afraid that you will." She looked down at his hand and then kissed the back of it, waiting to see his reaction to her words and actions.

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Giovanni let her words seep in for a little bit. And quite frankly, he wasn’t sure if he was this person; someone who was angry at everything and everybody. He didn’t want to be but he’s dealt with it for so long that he just figured that was the kind of person that he was, the anger that he carried inside of him morphed him into the person he is to this very day. His lips curled up into a small smile when she kissed the back of his hand then went back down to the frown he previously had. “This is me Lizzie…I’ve learned to accept that and for a while now I’ve been thinking that I won’t ever change.” He sighed and stood and went over to the sink to wash the small amount of blood off his hands. He stood there for a moment, leaning on the sink basin trying to make sense of it all. “I don’t like getting angry at anyone, you especially but I can’t stop it… guess it’s something that’s always going to control me.”

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Lizzie couldn't believe that he thought of himself that way. Even she knew that she wouldn't always be some hurt little girl-she just knew she wouldn't, even though she had been hurt for a while. She shook her head a few times and tried to get up but couldn't because of her foot. She sighed, "No that's not true. You don't have to think that you're a monster or anything like that because you're not." She said and then stood up on her other foot, leaning up against the table for balance. "Look, Giovanni ... I, well I l-don't want to see you like this. And you shouldn't have to live thinking that you're uncontrollable because you aren't. You don't hurt me or get mad at me .... I mean that should mean something right?" I can't believe I almost said I loved him ... I'm so stupid. I don't love anyone anymore

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He turned around now leaning against the counter, the food he cooked probably cold by now but it didn’t matter to him, he’d lost his appetite. “But you’ve seen how mad I get I mean…that’s not normal right? For someone to get mad over the littlest things, it’s petty that’s what it is.” He stated and held on to her when she came over so she wouldn’t fall. Or maybe he just wanted a reason to touch her, either way he felt a little better with her being near him. “I do get mad at you Liz I just can’t hurt you that’s all. That’s probably the only thing I’m able to control; my ability to hurt you is just not there. You’ve already been through enough and I don’t want to add more fuel to the fire.”

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Lizzie blushed when she felt his hand around her waist and put a hand gently over it, partially to comfort him but also because she loved how it felt. "Well ... I dunno. I mean, people get mad at stupid stuff all the time ..." She said to try and answer his question, but then she lost her train of thought when he said he didn't hurt her. She turned her head away for a moment and took a deep breath to try and process all of it. You don't love him, Liz. You just don't She thought and glanced towards him, shuffiling forward a little and she gave the smallest smile she could, though it wasn't on purpose. "Maybe you're just ... I dunno you're not mean or anything you just get angry sometimes." She looked up at him, straight into his green eyes. "You're not mean or anything, you're really nice ... a-and cute and ..." She trailed off and stood up on her tiptoes, about to kiss him but she couldn't. She turned away from him and nodded, letting go of his hand. "Well you just need to work on it then, that's all."

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“You and I, we’re a work in progress and we’ll get better in due time…I suppose.” He stated trying to hold onto the little hope that he had that maybe, just maybe he could actually work through this and in return, he’d be able to help her the way that she needed also. Sometimes though, Giovanni was so tired of fighting against this horrible nature inside of him but then he’d remember Lizzie, he’d remember how damaged she is also and that she needed him to be there to help her pull through. So he continues even though he feels frail on the inside that he can’t handle his problems the right way. He was fighting against this not just for himself but her too and though he didn’t quite understand why she’s become such a big part of his life when he hasn’t even known her for that long. It was like she somehow weaseled her way into and although he was annoyed with her at first; he’s learned to accept that she would just be there no matter what. The feeling that she gave him didn’t necessarily calm him down because there would be those times when she would push his buttons to no ends but he loved to have her around regardless. Giovanni wasn’t going to let her go for anybody. She bought him back from his thoughts when she leaned up to kiss him and he didn’t hesitate to lean down and kiss her before she looked away. It was a subtle gentle kiss but it still made him smile a little and he bought his hand up to gently brush it across her cheek. “We’ll work on it, one day at a time.”

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][Oh I think that they should go to a dance then he gets in a fight over Lizzie & have to be sent to the principals office or something :3 Then after that I think he should take her somewhere special ... I dunno where though haha][

Lizzie blushed a little when she registered that he had kissed her. She pulled a strand of hair back behind her ear an nodded. "Yeah ..." She said softly and looke up at him before smiling. "Well ... Okay then. That's a plan." She said and took both of his hands with a smile. She wrapped her arms around his body and leaned on him right after, though and she smiled. "Giovanni ... I don't think your scary or a monster or anything. I'm just a little sad that you're acting like this-that's all."

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{ omg, he gets into so many fights lol I was thinking that maybe he could start to get into a relationship with another girl and Lizzie gets jealous and then she confesses that she loves him or whatever...or would it be too soon for that? I just want her to get jealous lol.

“I’m sorry.” Was all that he could say and he wrapped his arms around her. They stood like that for a moment, holding each other and he sighed softly then pulled away and looked down at the breakfast he made. He snagged a piece of bacon and bit into it. “Food’s cold…I mean unless you’re hungry I could always warm it up for you.” He stated.

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][Ooh yeah that sounds interesting too :3 Hmm ... what if he took her somewhere romantic and she thought they'd start going out, then he gets in a relationship with the other girl & she gets jealous, then they go to the dance and then he get in a fight? I dunno xD Mixing in both haha. I just wanted him to take her somewhere special and she think he was wanting something more between them ;)][

Lizzie closed her eyes in his embrace and looked up a little saddened at him and shrugged. "I'm not all that hungry, really. Y'know maybe you should just take me home ... I-Well my parents are probably looking for me that's all." She said and stepped back a little, realizing that he didn't want to hold her anymore.

][Hmm ... Yeah I like the new idea because then he can still have feelings for her :3][