by mikhailo » Wed Oct 26, 2011 8:15 am
Chase sat on the couch. He was thinking about what had happened the day before, still taking it all in. He looked at his wrists, disappointed in himself. He pulled his bloody razor out of his pocket and examined it, tempted greatly to make another cut. He didn't want to disappoint anyone again. Though cutting is addicting, and the only way to get his anger out, he resisted, but by a little. He still just stared at his reflection in the sharp piece of metal. He looked at the blood stains on it, and just held it in his hands, contemplating whether to do it again or not. It was increasingly hard not to. Thinking about his childhood, he brought it to his wrist, but didn't do it. Chase brought the razor away, wanting to cut now. He mumbled, "I'm so stupid." He discouraged himself, which made him want to cut more. Jessy wasn't there to stop him and neither was Jace or Joseph. It was hard for him to think about why he shouldn't do it. He had no motivation other than what happened yesterday to stop.