Tagged; Violet
Mood; Nervous and Doubting
Location; Countryside in NJ
"Well- I can't exactly explain without telling you my history so erm- get comfy, I guess" I say as I sit on a nearby tree stump. I carefully think about what to say and how to explain why I left England. "So about 10 years ago- when I was 6-ish, my-" I sighed and looked down to floor to relax and not to be so tense. It didn't work. I sat up strait and just went through with it. "When I was 6- my mum was killed in a car crash, leaving just me and my dad. My dad always said it was my fault that she was killed in the crash, so that just demolished my self-confidence completely- so I avoided people and when I tried to make friends they didn't want me or they left me in the dark with no-one to talk to. So I got to be friends with wildlife instead. Then when I heard about being able to get away from my old life and start again- I took the opportunity- anything to get away from my drunk, abusive and constantly shouting dad. So ever since I arrived here I have been desperately trying to make friends and to not be left lonely like before, so that is why I keep on following you." By this time I have a few tears rolling down my face. I look up and manage a smile, but it is a nervous smile.