~K e e p H o l d i n g O n~ Roleplay thread

[littleghosthunter]

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"I-I..." Jordan stuttered before trailing off. She didn't know what to say. She was so used to being strong, used to pretending to be strong and hide her emotions from the world. She knew she was crying even before she felt the wetness run down her face. She shook her head raising her hands up to hide her face. "It's just so hard! To let someone in, I fear I will lose them! That they will leave me. Just like my parents did! Like my sister did when I needed them all most. They died! Now I have no one, and it's so hard! I hate being strong, I hate that I have to act like everything's okay when I know it's not! People judge me, they judge me on my scars Xavier," she said thrusting her arms out towards him, where her scars were. They showed, almost jumped out of her skin in the sunlight. "Everybody avoids me, looking at me like I'm a ticking bomb, like I'll just up and take my life like my sister! Or I'll just up and have a mental break down at the loss of my parents, at the loss of my family!" she sobbed falling to her knees and wrapping her arms around herself hiding her face in her hands. "It's so hard when everybody judges you on how you look and your past.... It's so hard," she whispered, sobbing.

[xiao.]

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"Anytime," he muttered as he leaned back on his arms and blew a bunch of smoke between his parted lips. He closed his eyes as he sat there the cigarette dangling from his lips. He slipped his lighter and box of cigarettes back into his pocket after she was done, and opened one eye looking at her.

Jinx nodded slightly and sighed, taking the cigarette out of her mouth and holding it in between two fingers as she blew some smoke out. She looked at him for a moment before looking back down.

[Elujen-]

Xavier Kaii Chambers;

Xavier shook his head as he started to see her eyes water. He couldn't watch her cry. It would sting him like a bee. Frowning again, he felt a sharp pain in his stomach. I felt for her, and it was hurting him to see her pain. As she showed him her scars, Xavier looked away, hating it when people harmed themselves. Sighing, he got onto the ground beside her, pulling her into his lap and wrapping his arms around her tightly. He didn't know what to say, but he knew that she needed a hug. She needed someone. And now Xavier wanted to be that person that made her life better. "Shhh.." He whispered, trying to calm her down."It's going to be fine, Jordan. I'm here."

[littleghosthunter]

➸J O R D A N ➹ A L I Y J A ➷ W O O D S➸

Jordan wrapped her arms around his neck sobbing. All the pent up emotion was now being let out. It wasn't frustration and anger. But sadness and despair. She always felt so alone, like no one even wanted her in this world. That she was just placed on the earth to be mocked and poked fun at. That she was forced to live a miserable life. She managed to calm herself down to look up at Xavier. "But you won't stay, people never do." she whispered causing more tears to run down her face, her grey eyes clouded. She was sure by now her make up was running down her face, and her eyes were red and puffy. Her face blotchy. She hung her head her messy hair falling into her face. Hiding her from everything.

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Logan raised a brow at her but didn't say anything. Be bit down on his lip as his eye traveled over her. Taking in her.. form. She was quite a pretty lady. And she managed to make wearing all that make up look okay. He ran a hand threw his hair as he blew out some more smoke. He rested the cigarette between his fingers. Placing his hand down on the porch for a second he sat there thinking. About nothing in particular, just... thinking.

[xiao.]

Jinx scraped the cigarette on the ground before chucking it across the yard. She stared after it, propping her chin up on her hands. She glanced at him and let out a small sigh as she stared at Posion when the tarantula crawled onto her hand.

[Elujen-]

Xavier Kaii Chambers;

Holding onto her tightly still, Xavier didn't plan on letting her go yet. "I won't." He whispered, putting his face into her neck. It was like he was protecting her. Sighing softly, he didn't want her to cry more. "Please stop.." Xavier soon pulled away, moving her hair from her face and wiping her tears away with his thumb. As he did that, he looked into her eyes, trying to tell her it will all be okay. He grabbed her arm and looked at her scars for a second before lifting her arm towards his lips and softly planting a kiss on them. "I'll make it all better." Xavier pulled her back into his chest again as he rubbed her back, making sure she was full calm before moving again.

[littleghosthunter]

➸J O R D A N ➹ A L I Y J A ➷ W O O D S➸

Jordan closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Her hands rested on his shoulder when he pulled back. She fisted the material of his shirt slightly before resting her hands in her lap. She met his gaze when he gently wiped her tears away. She closed her eyes leaning into his hand slightly, before opening them again. She bit back a gasp as he kissed her scars. No one had ever done that before. No one had ever even cared enough. Jordan nuzzled her face into his neck wrapping her arms around him when he pulled her back into him. She squeezed her eyes shut and sighed. "Thank you," she whispered before tilting her head back to look at him. "Thank you for caring, for not running for the hills when I... broke down." she muttered.

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Logan flicked his cigarette planning to finish it the best he could. He didn't like to fly threw a smoke. He preferred to take his time, so he didn't have the urge to smoke another one so soon. He looked at Jinx. "So Jinx, why are you here?" he muttered raising a brow in her direction.

[Elujen-]

Xavier Kaii Chambers;

Xavier sat in silence, knowing that sometimes silence helps with a lot of things. As she thanked him, he faintly smiled before looking down at her hands in her lap. "You're welcome, Jordan." He ignored her comment about running, wishing she wouldn't say things like that. Xavier knew she didn't deserve to be treated the way she did. Biting his lip, he looked back at her, wondering if she was okay to go back home yet. "Just promise me that you'll talk to me if anything comes up? I don't want you to harm yourself ever again. You're a beautiful girl, and you don't need to take it all out on yourself. You can even use me as a punching bag. I don't care. Just please, don't do this again." Xavier frowned, grabbing her hand and holding it as he waited for her promise.

[littleghosthunter]

➸J O R D A N ➹ A L I Y J A ➷ W O O D S➸

Jordan smiled slightly. She looked up at him as he spoke, biting down on her lip. She let out a small laugh when he offered to be her punching bag. She raised the hand he wasn't holding to her face running her fingers along his cheek. "Your to sweet for your own good Xavier," she muttered giving him a small smile. She looked down at their hands resting her other hand on top of his. Before looking up and meeting his gaze. She sighed, "I promise, I will never ever harm myself ever again, and I promise to talk to you if something-" she had never had a friend to help her deal with her problems. A genuine smile spread across her face, "I promise to talk to you if something comes up." she said before wrapping her arms around his neck again. "Thank you," she muttered against his neck. "It means a lot to know someone will be there for me."

[Elujen-]

Xavier Kaii Chambers;

Seeing her brighten up and laugh at him, Xavier grinned with pleasure. He was glad to see she had accepted him, and to promise the one thing he begged of her to do. A chuckle escaped his lips as she said he was 'too sweet for his own good'. Shaking his head, he looked down at their hands and bit his lip again. "You've made me soft. You've changed me into a guy I'm not. But I like it. I like being here for you." He whispered, looking back up at her grey eyes. "You're welcome." Xavier sighed, but this time, it was a happy sigh. "Did you want to go back home?" He asked, realising that time was ticking away and they should be getting back. Xavier looked at her face again, wiping away her make-up lines caused by her tears.