Amber Lockhart || Female || Eighteen || Depression/Schizophrenia
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I like my name. It might be the only thing about me I DO like. Amber means broken-hearted. Fitting, huh? It even has a nice ring to it, don't ya think? My middle name is a secret, however. If I ever tell you, consider yourself special. That name is rarely voiced and rarely known. So don't mention it. I chose my own last name, though. My last name is pretty self explanatory. If you don't get it you don't deserve to. Oh, and in case your the kind of person who loves to nickname, don't. I don't like nicknames and don't have any tolerance for them. You've been warned.- full name: Amber A. Lockhart.
nicknames: "None. Give me one, you die."
gender: female.
age: Eighteen.
ailment: depression.
I am 18, as stated for the third time. I was born on December 10, 1994. Nothing particularly eventful about that day, which I like. Events make me sick. I lived with my idiot of a father who drank his imaginary "worries" away. He beat me and my mother frequently. My mother gave up and left. Unfortunately, I had no choice but to stay. Woopee. And in case you were wondering, I brought myself to this place. My parents are the reason I'm so dysfunctional, so why should they care?
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I've been called a lot of things I don't like. Not that I even care to remember what they are. I'm quite pale, bronzing well in the sun. My lips are pretty plump, I suppose. I don't stare at them long enough to describe them as anything else. I kinda like my eyes, and bring them out with lots of eyeliner. I have curves despite the fact that I eat like a man, and pretty much do nothing active. It's obviously not for no reason at all, I have a fast metabolism, but I'm not some health nut.- height: five feet, six inches.
weight: one hundred and twenty pounds.
body type: Skinny and curvy. I fit the stereotype for "beautiful" but that doesn't mean I believe it..
hair: Sun-bleached caramel. Call me blonde, it'll be the last thing you say.
eyes: Sea green with ivy centers and navy blue edging
I'm kinda tall, kinda short. What boring people would call average. I have no opinion when it comes to height. People come in different sizes. In the end, it doesn't really matter. I'm a skinny little stick, but not to the point of being anorexic. I am proud to say I am pretty strong. I'm the girl who is constantly surrounded by close guy friends and they all know I can whoop their behinds. Needless to say, I use this toughness to my advantage.
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Amber can definitely be described as bitter. She has a rough life but will never admit that to you. Her past is a sensitive topic, so stay away from it. She has a short tolerance for nonsense and stupidity. Her fuse is short and explosive due to her Hispanic roots. She knows some spanish, but only the naughty kind for when she has her outbursts. She is a mine field with danger at every turn. If you want to get close to her, be prepared for a battle. She is constantly pushing others away for fear of caring too much. She will be REALLY mean to you if you try to be nice to her. If you want to be her friend, be honest. Be blunt, and try hard. Her favorite quote is: "Those who are with you at your worst, deserve to be with you at your best." As cheesy as it sounds, her heart is locked. And frozen. Are you up to the challenge?- likes: Books, Alternative rock, dogs, and hoodies
dislikes: Lots...including hair-touching, annoyingly cheery people and people who act like their all that
fears: *growls* Who wants to know....
skills: Singing, reading, and electric guitar playing.
Besides her depression, she has an extreme case of schizophrenia. That's what drove her to finally check herself in. Unlike other schizos, who dance around and have tea parties with their hallucinations, Amber hates hers. There even worse than her disposition-wise. They constantly tease her, exclaiming how worthless she is. When she can't see them, they whisper snide comments in her ear. If you see her shiver randomly, it's most likely because she has just felt the hot, spiteful breath of a tormenter on her neck. She'll brush it off as the cold, though. She also keeps this a secret, as secrets have become her only friend in life. Even if you are a fellow schizo, she doesn't care. She doesn't believe in bonding over disorders.
Amber is an outdoors person, but only at night or on gloomy days. She HATES sunlight except to tan. You might find her sitting in the grass, curled up with a good book and her Black and white I-pod nano. She likes violent video games. The more gore, the better. She especially loves multiplayer, due to her need to always be on top. Whenever possible, she is at the library. It is her sanctuary.
She will lie to you a lot. A LOT. She is also a lover of sarcasm. She uses it whenever possible and considers it an art. She will cut you if you say different. She is full of opinions and is not afraid to show them. If you don't want to know, don't ask. She will always be blunt and harsh with advice. If that boy doesn't like you back, she will say it straight out. No sugar coating. She doesn't care about sparing your feelings. After all, when were HER feelings ever spared?
Trust and love are fantasy's to her. She believes in neither, and will never believe without some SERIOUS convincing. She is a bit dark when it comes to humor, and has a twisted soul. You can call her any name you want. She isn't trying to impress you and honestly doesn't care. Bullies never bothered her more than once, and boys stay away from her. After all, who would want a girlfriend with baggage? She is convinced she will never find love and has stopped looking. A sad existence she lives, but that's why she's here, right? To her, its Amber vs. the world
