lonely || open || accepting 1 female

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You're alone in a world that doesn't know you exist. People see right through you. No one takes the time to see what's inside. It's painful to watch, to feel. You see yourself falling through the cracks. You see that no one tries to help. So instead you keep faking a smile or a laugh. But how much is too much? When will people began to see that you're not alright? That inside you're slowly dying? Never. No one sees it. You wonder if anyone actually cares or if it is just for show. You're beginning to feel like you're going over the edge, like the cracks are finally big enough for you to fall straight through into oblivion. And maybe you want to. Maybe you're done trying to keep yourself up by yourself. Maybe your legs are no longer strong enough to hold you. You're alone in this world. You want help. But you can't get it. Everything is falling apart. Posters are being torn off the walls, things are being thrown. Your oblivious parents turn a blind eye to the ruckus, pretending this is just teenage things. But it isn't. Your done with high school. This isn't normal. It isn't right and you want out. But no one cares right? Everyone is too caught up in their glorious lives right?

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I Need Help
These are the four people who are desperately in need of some help from someone. Their lives are falling apart and no one knows it except for them. They can barely hold onto themselves any longer. Unsure of where their headed they don't think, they just keep slipping. And one night their parents discover their little secret. They lash out, maybe they worry, but they put you somewhere. They put you somewhere where they're convinced you'll get better. But getting better isn't easy when no one cares for you. You remain locked in rooms, don't talk to doctors, don't talk in group sessions. You just want someone to hear you without another's voice speaking up. You want someone to help who is doing it because they want to, not because they're getting paid to do it.

I'm Here For You
These are the four people who want to help. You were never one for doing much volunteer work or maybe you were. One day your parents pitch the idea that you should go help at the rehabilitation center. They claim that they are looking for people to help others the same age as you. You are hesitant at first but eventually you agree. And when you do go you're more freaked out then ever. These people are a mess. They barely talk to you and you know you'll be working to get them out of their shells. But eventually it works and they begin talking to you. You learn the routine and it's easy for you. One day a nurse comes in and asks you to step outside for a moment. You go and she tells you about someone your age who is in desperate need of help. That they won't talk to anyone and keep themselves in an air tight seal. They say they're a tough case but you're convinced you can handle it. And so you agree. But you want to work with the other three that do the same thing as you. The nurse tells you one day maybe.

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one ; literacy I expect this to be a high semi-literate roleplay. I will take no more then two well written paragraphs with about six lines each. Or about twelve lines per post, per character. I will also expect proper grammar, spelling, and punctuation. The occasional mistake I can accept, but if it is constant mess ups and multiple, obvious ones, we may have a problem. Chatspeak is also unacceptable in roleplaying as well as OOC. Only ones like LOL or GTG are acceptable in OOC only! And if you write with good quality, then your posts should be decent lengths.

two ; loyalty I want only loyal members for this roleplay. I personally like the idea and I don't want it to die before it even starts.

three ; characters For now please only have one character, there are limited spaces. If we need someone to play another character then I will ask for anyone who is willing to do so. Please remember to keep forms correct and at the right age. Also, the age and problem are corresponding, so make sure that is correct.

four ; realistic This is a realistic roleplay about people struggling with a problem and someone trying to help them. So keep that in mind when roleplaying, they won't be okay right away. As far as romance goes don't do some instantly falling in love type of thing. If there is even romance it will take a while to develop. All Gary/Mary Sues, power playing, god modding, and any forms of supernatural ability are forbidden!

five ; joining Please pm me for reserves also. Spots will only be reserved for 24 hours. If you are planning on reserving a spot please send me a writing example first.

six ; drama As is normal drama is allowed. But let's not go overboard! Please do not make any deaths, they're in a rehabilitation program and it would be nearly impossible for them to do so. Also, let's not have any pregnancies, this is also very unlikely.

seven ; have fun I know I may seem a little strict, but that's because I want this roleplay to do well. Otherwise! Have fun!

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We Are In Need

19;I Eat My Feelings, Then Toss Them - taken ; ~SoundWave ; male
People use to call you fact, but they don't anymore. It was because you ate all your feelings. Buried them in yourself. But finally you began doing something about it, though unhealthy. After every meal you hit the tanker and threw them up, or maybe it was an unhealthy amount of diet pills. When your younger sibling found out they told mommy and daddy. There was a fight, and now you're here.

18;I Cut, Because It Feels Good - Alaina Robins ; LovelyRhymes ; page 1
People were never nice. They gave you threats that made you tear up. And one night you were home alone. And the razor seemed to be staring back at you. You had timidly picked it up and for the first time ever, cut your arm. It felt good, like all the insults were draining with the blood. You didn't place to do it again but you did, and again. Eventually your parents caught you, the fight was huge and landed you here.

17;I Drink, It Makes Me Forget - taken ; lonely ; female
Abused for many years by alcoholic parents or simply tired of feeling. You turned to lots of alcohol to help with the pain. But it could never permanently get rid of the troubles. And so you continued, getting drunk more and more and even going to school hungover. A teacher finally noticed and called your parents who found your stash. And now you're here.

16; I Do Drugs, It Helps - taken ; broken frames- ; male
You were in with those bad crowds who did drugs. And soon enough you too began to do them, thinking that maybe they do help. They don't. You just feel emptier and you just do more. You don't think you'll ever overdose, but lately how much you do is getting bigger and bigger. But nothing helps, you can't quit. The drugs are too important to you. Your parents finally smelt the smoke coming from your room, and there you were. And now you're here.

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We're Here To Help

19;I Eat My Feelings - open ; female

18;I Cut - taken ; Red. ; male

17;I Drink - taken ; west; ; male

16;I Do Drugs - taken ; E d s h e e r a n ; female

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Updates
11/19 - The roleplay opened!

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"You choose not to see, therefore you are blind."

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n a m e ; Alaina Faith Robins

Bonjour, I see you have stumbled across my little slice. So I happily welcome you though I must warn you, I tend to be a tad critical, or so say. But anyways I am Alaina. That is pronounced a-lan-y-a. Please do not mess it up, I do not appreciate such a thing. Alaina comes from French heritage, I'm not completely sure what it means however. I am named after my grandmother who was killed when crossing to America on a tragic "boating accident". The rest of my family believes my grandfather killed her when she back talked him. Needless to say he grew up in a family where women were supposed to be submissive and weak. So that being the case I'm not sure why in the world he would have married such a strong will woman such as my grandmother. I suppose he was different when he was younger and married her. Oh well, the past is the past and nothing can be done to change it. My middle name is Faith. It is pronounced f-ai-th. Now, for those of you who like blood types and all that jazz here is where my middle name comes from. My mother is Rh negative, meaning she has no Rh in her body, really not a big deal except for if she has kids. My older brother who is Rh positive, helped my mother to produce anti Rh antibodies, things that would fight off all Rh in her system. Well when I was in the womb I too was Rh positive. Here is where the bad part starts. Seeing as though I was Rh positive my mother's anti Rh antibodies began to kill off my Rh, as well as my red blood cells. She was beginning to lose hope, certain that I would die. But I did not and I was born-although I needed a blood transfusion. To remind herself to always keep faith she made my middle name Faith. My last name is Robins, pronounced ra-b-ins. As is normal, it is my father's last name which transferred over to me. Seeing as though I do not like going a hundred years into history I am not all too sure about where the last name Robins comes from. I suspect it comes from somewhere in England where my father's ancestors come from. Well, there goes our introductions. Au revoir.

a g e ; 18

It seems as though you wish to continue no? Well I suppose I should inform you of my age then. I am currently 18 years young. I am not old darling, old is above the age of forty in my book. But anyways I believe I was born on a rather cold January night. It was the 20th that month, a lovely shining day. Just kidding with you darling, it was pouring down rain and lightning was lighting up the night sky. My father even says when lightning struck and blinded the room is when I "popped out" as he so eloquently put it. It was a rather odd thing to say if you ask me, why not just say you came out. Popped out sounds like a child was sucking their thumb, pulled it out their mouth, and it made a 'pop' sound. Wouldn't you say? Well I would.

g e n d e r ; Female

Oh mon Dieu ... Vous êtes un grand idiot que je pensais. This has to be the most idiotic question I've ever heard in my entire life! You are really quite the character you know? Barely even into meeting me and you've already pinched my nerves! What man, or boy for that matter, looks like me. Have you ever seen a man that looks like this? Long blonde hair? Possibly. Curves? No! Breasts? Most certainly not! Gosh! You know you really are something! Why you must be a rocket scientist no? Well I would hope not! Because you would be the worst ever composed! I am clearly female! But I doubt you can tell the difference you blind marsupial!

"I seek not the troubles of my past, but the beginnings of my future."

h a i r ; blonde

My hair is very simple to explain. Blonde. See? How hard was that? Hm? More? You want more. After everything you've already asked? Fine, fine, I'll play along. So basically my hair is blonde, but I have natural low lights and highlights in them. It isn't a very wide range at all but it's decent. I have what is called beeline honey blonde hair, weird name I know. But they just had to come up with a name for every shade right? And well basically there are highlights which probably get a shade or two lighter, they're more noticeable then my lowlights which are generally hidden beneath all my hair. And if you're wondering, my hair is quite the lovely thicket. Meaning it is very very very thick. And I don't exaggerate, it is really thick. A lot of my friends compare my hair to a dog's, simply because we shed the same amount. Sadly enough it's probably true. I mean have you ever seen my hair in the morning? It's a tad ridicolous. My hair can normally be found up and out of the way. I don't wear it down very much, but when I do I take time with it and make it look nice. And it isn't like it looks horrible up either, I do do something new with it from time to time.

e y e s ; green

I am one of the 2% of Earth's population to have green eyes. So yes I do have a rare eye color, but considering the fact that there are 7 billion people in the world, it doesn't seem that rare. But it is, recessive gene after all. In fact my family has carried the gene for many years now, but I am the first one for it to show since my great-grandmother. You can imagine how that floated over when I was born. Everyone freaking out because little Alaina had green eyes! Oh no! As I heard it was quite the fiasco. How I wish I could have understood it. But back to my eyes. They are a very vibrant green, not hazel, they're green. Stone cold green. Throughout my eyes areas where it is a bit of a lighter hue, they all seem to be connected and go around a circle in my eye. And I also have a darker ring around the outside, which looks alright.

b o d y t y p e ; curvy ; 5'7 ; 124

Despite what people think seeing as though I spend my time inside I do have a decent body type. I guess it's normal for girls, and I would hope not for guys. It would be weird to see a bunch of guys with curves everywhere no? So yes I do have a curvy body type and I am somewhat proud of it. Because when I do go outside I tend to spend a lot of time outside, running around and causing trouble. And I'm sure you'll learn later on I have a sharp tongue, so yes, I do get into trouble. But that is for another time! I have curves in what my mother calls "all the right places". Personally I don't think so, I think I just have big hips. Someone told me that one day, and I slapped them. Hard. Across the face. In front of a cop. Don't ask ever again. So, yes that is my body type. Weight and height? Je n'ai jamais entendu une telle question irrespectueux! You cannot just ask a lady her weight! That is disrespectful and rude! But if you must know! I am 124 pounds and 5 foot 9 inches! Now get out! Go! You are no longer welcome in my presence!

g e n e r a l ; average

Oh! So know you ask something I don't get offended by! Well you know what-I can't say that. It would be too rude of me to do so and I shall not stoop that low of a level. So let us get onto it shall we? I would say I'm probably average. Pretty yes but not beautiful. And no, I am not saying that because I have low self-esteem, I have self-awareness. Beautiful is for models and movie stars and the occasional woman on the streets. I would say my mother is beautiful, she really is. But I don't want to get side-tracked. So you have all those basics but you have yet to see my facial structure things. I do have a broad jaw line, and my face isn't really round. On a man this type of jaw may be more attractive than on my face. But so far I've made it work out just fine. After all, I don't like having features that look like they may cut you at any given moment. I have full lips as others have described them, and all too often a cigarette is placed between them. Nasty habit I know, but it's addictive. I have an average sized nose I guess, I'm not really sure. I've never thought of it as too small or too big, I guess it depends on the size of the person's face. My eyes seem to be a little droopy at the sides but whatever. They're kind of wide anyways so I guess it may help to make them look smaller. As stated earlier I do have a very curvy body, but I'm not overly skinny or anything. I do have some muscle on me, from what, I don't know. But I don't have an athletic body, I think I eat too much for that. And something all my friends hate is the fact that I can eat and eat without gaining weight. Surprise!

"If I am crazy, then you sir, do not know true genius."

p e r s o n a l i t y ; critical/sarcastic/sharp-tongued/calm

And we have finally arrived at the part everyone has been waiting for! As you have probably already guessed I can be a tad bit critical, well I guess you may not have guessed that quite yet. I haven't really had the chance to criticize you yet have I? Lucky you, it'll come around soon so don't worry. It isn't like I criticize about every little thing either, I have what I like to consider a healthy level of criticization. I won't do it just because I can. So don't be concerned about every little thing you do around me. And as I'm sure you guessed already-this one was quite obvious-I am very easily offended. I do not pretend I am not, I know I am. Even a slip of the tongue about some minor thing can offend me and I tend to go on the offensive very quickly. So don't be surprised if I randomly snap at you. It's best if you just think about what you're going to say before you say it. If you do that then we can all get along and be happy together! But if you happen to slip-up, no worries. I calm down pretty easily. Quick enough to where nothing ever gets physical. I am also a little sarcastic, it is more subtle though. And I think a select few people have begun to mistake my sarcasm for stupidity. I say there are the stupid ones though. I mean if they just learned what sarcasm was then they wouldn't think I was stupid! They're the stupid ones! But anyways, enough of that. I don't focus on those things all too often. I am also sharp-tongued, which kinda goes hand in hand with critical. And for those of you who don't know what a sharp tongue is it means I'm skilled at giving insults basically. Which makes me a smart --- at times, more often then others. Such as in school, I often snapped back at teachers with an insult of which they had no clue how to reply to. So that's part of it. What most don't expect from me of all people is that I am generally a very calm person. I don't freak out much and I don't go jump around everywhere. People who do that actually kind of bother me strangely enough. And as always, when I actually find a person who doesn't bother me to no end. I can be nice from time to time and even indulge in a nice laugh. But don't expect that to happen right away. It isn't very often it does in fact, most of the time people never stop bothering me. But once you get there I promise it's mostly worth the trouble.

h i s t o r y ; Exciting

So, before I go on with my history I should tell you a little of my parent's first. My father's parents sailed from England to America a long time ago, and as mentioned earlier my grandmother died during the journey. So my father was raised by his grandfather the whole time. Well, when my father finished high school he and his friends planned a trip to France a year or so later, to which my father was happy to go since my grandfather beat him a lot. Eventually they were up and ready to go, eager for an adventure. While traveling in France their car broke down a mile or so from a families home-that family being my mother's. Once there the family offered them refuge until someone could come for the truck. But during the night it was stolen and so they had no way to get back. My mother's family agreed to let them stay the week until my mother's father got back-he was the only one with a truck. And as much as my parents didn't really expect it they fell for each other. And did a night of the dirty-to which my mother got pregnant. Well, the trip for them all was going to last two or three months, so my mother was able to find my father before he left. And, my father being the man he was, said he would help her in anyway he could from America. Until my mother's father aimed a gun at his head and demanded he marry his daughter. Literally, my grandfather held a gun to my dad's head and forced him into marriage. And my dad agreed, and moved into France completely forgetting his own father of who he hated! So my parents settled down and nine months later there I was! Now in France I was a good kid, but I was never satisfied. And around eleven years old my parents found out my dad's dad had died, and left him everything but only if he moved back to America. After a lot of discussion my parents finally decided it would be smart since they were having money problems. And so they went! In America I wasn't so good, I cut up a lot more. I even fell into a bad crowd. And there's a lot of things I've done throughout life that you can hear at a later time! But eventually it got to too much. I began getting bullied, I found an escape even if it wasn't good.

l i k e s ; I have a few

✗ coffee
✗ writing
✗ calmness
✗ wind
✗ hot chocolate
✗ adventure
✗ french-speakers
✗ relaxing
✗ woods
✗ art
✗ smoking
✗ math

d i s l i k e s ; I have those too

✗ being proven wrong
✗ pizza
✗ talkative people
✗ hyper people
✗ swimming
✗ alcohol
✗ french stereotypes
✗ social studies
✗ constantly moving
✗ burgers

r e l a t i o n s h i p s ; Single, and ready for a pringle

Okay, so I'm technically single, because most people don't understand the complex love of a person loving a bed. So I mean, what can you do? Not much really, get a boyfriend, or girlfriend. Whatever floats your boat. I however, am straight, heterosexual, or however you may say it. Sorry ladies, but I just don't really roll that way. I have nothing against those who do though, so, you know. Roll your own way. I have my few friends, those who could actually deal with me for a while. As well as my enemies who just couldn't take my level of thought. Or those I intentionally peeved off. As far as family goes I have my father Reginald, my mother Elaina, and no siblings. I'm an only child.. It sucks. Don't ever wish to be an only child my friends.

"The road untraveled, is a long one."

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{{ I will be finishing his personality and history as soon as possible :]

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♪ name.
----- ⇢ james toby archer.
⇢ yep, that's his name. james toby archer. 'james' is just your average, common boys name, which is mainly why james doesn't like it. he prefers to be called jay or jj instead. jay also hates the name 'toby', even though he was named after his great grandfather who died in world war two, so his middle name is a sort of tribute to him, though james doesn't really like that name, personally. 'archer' is just another sirname, and it is luckily much better than his first two names. his friends often call him archer, mostly just to tease him but jay doesn't really mind. he is quite laid-back about nicknames, so you can call him whatever you like, really.

♪ gender.
----- ⇢ male.
⇢ well, obviously. james is pretty sure he is a guy, and is one hundred percent sure that he isn't going to change, being a guy is too good!

♪ age.
----- ⇢ twenty.
⇢ jj is currently twenty years old. he was born on the seventh of august, so he was one of the very youngest at school. james loves being twenty, as he is finally free, and he is very excited to get through university, where he is training to be a vet, specialising in equestrian.

♪ occupation.
----- ⇢ jockey.
⇢ james is currently a jockey and rides in races frequently. he owns his own horse, but she isn't a racehorse, so he does have to use other people's horses. jj spends a lot of his time down at the stables, looking after all his horses, and he loves competing. though jay loves being a jockey, his ideal job is a vet and is looking forward to passing university so that he can go ahead and get a proper, well paying job, because he only earns enough to barely keep up his horse and himself.

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♪ hair.
----- ⇢ black.
⇢ jj absolutely loves his hair, and he is always brushing it, looking after it, making sure it looks great. in the morning, the first thing he does in the morning is spend ten minutes styling his hair.

♪ eyes.
----- ⇢ brown.
⇢ jj has very deep, chocolate brown eyes. they do not stand out from the rest of him that much, but when you really look at them, he seems to hypnotise you and you can't look away. james thinks his eyes are actually one of his best features, and takes a lot of pride in them.

♪ body type.
----- ⇢ lean and muscular.
⇢ james is very muscular, yet he is very skinny and lean, which makes him quite light. he likes to think of himself as fit, and he loves to show off to the girls. he has very long legs and long arms, compared to his torso, and he has very big feet, a size ten. for a jockey, jj is very tall, but because he is light and skinny, so he is still able to race.

♪ height and weight.
----- ⇢ five foot ten / one hundred and seventeen pounds.
⇢ james is relatively tall, but he is certainly not a giant. when he was growing up, james was very short until the age of fourteen when he had a sudden growth spurt and grew quite quickly until he was about average size. as for weight, jay is light for someone of his age, and he is sometimes even called underweight even though he doesn't have any eating problems or anything, james is just naturally skinny and light.

♪ body modifications.
----- ⇢ none.
⇢ at the moment, jj has no body modifications at all. he has been thinking about getting a small tattoo or two because he loves the art, and he was also wondering if he should get his ear re-pierced, as the left one used to be pierced twice when he was fifteen, but it closed up when he stopped wearing his earrings, though currently, he has nothing modified.

♪ clothing style.
----- ⇢ cool, comfortable, fashionable.
⇢ james does like to keep up with the current fashion, but he does still love to wear all his old clothes. he loves onepieces, hoodies, jeans and polo shirts mostly, because they are comfortable, yet he does like wearing the new, fashionable stuff. Mostly, he isn't too bothered about what he wears that much, but he does like looking his best at all times. Though he isn't some clothes addict, he does have quite a lot of clothes and he always gets the best use out of them, wearing the same clothes he got years ago, and he only throws them out when they get a lot of holes in them. basically, he likes to look good, but he is not too bothered about his clothes as some guys, and he likes to get the best use out of all of his clothes.

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♪ personality.
----- ⇢ grumpy, athletic, fun, 'slow', joker.
⇢ competitive.
james is very competitive. he loves entering competitions and he never ever backs down from a challenge. jj is very determined to win absolutely anything, and he doesn't like people getting in his way at all. he loves challenging people to things, and he wins quite often, and when he does, jay loves to brag about it, rubbing it in everyone's faces, but only as a joke. he will give anything a go, and he is very ambitious, always aiming high, which means, if he does lose, he gets hit quite hard and he goes off in a huff. james will probably go somewhere by himself for a while if he does lose, mostly because of embarressment because he was so sure he'd win, so he gets quite annoyed and he tries to mask his embarressment by laughing it off or trying to change the subject. he gets embarressed and humiliated easily. jj loves competing, and he finds wining one of the best feelings in the whole world.

⇢ grumpy.
jj is very grumpy. he gets in bad moods sometimes, but in the end he usually just ends up laughing it off and forgetting about it. the best thing to do when he does gets grumpy is to simply leave him alone for a bit, or just ignore him, he'll forget about it eventually. almost anything can set him off, as he can be quite unpredictable, especially losing or getting something wrong, because jay can be a bit of a perfectionist. he could snap at any moment or storm out, so just be very careful with james so that he doesn't get annoyed.

⇢ athletic.
ever since he was young, james has been super interested in sport. he loves all sorts of athletics, especially running, and he loves tennis, too. his favourite sport is obviously, horse riding. he loves horse racing, most of all, but he likes eventing as well, however, he finds dressage quite boring. jj is always entering random competitions, and he will give absolutely anything a go. james is always trying out new sports, and he finds it evenmore fun with his friends, because some things can be quite boring without someone to talk to, and he gets very bored easily, so the more fun the sport is, the better!

⇢ musical.
james is very musical. even though he cannot play a musical instrument to save his life, he is very vocal and he is a very good singer. he loves singing along to all sorts of music, and he just loves being on stage, singing. jj has tried and tried different musical instruments, including the guitar, piano and drums, but he gave up doing all of them after a while because he kept getting frustrated, but he does get quite jealous of people who can actually play and instrument, because it is something he cannot to well, and he really wishes that he could do somthing like that. however, a lot of people are jealous of his voice. he absolutely loves singing, especially in the shower or on stage, but he hates showing off his voice because he is worried about rejection and he gets embarressed quite easily, even though being on a stage doing something he loves is a fantastic feeling, and when people congratulate him it makes him feel good. jj has always loved music, and you can often find him listening to his ipod or phone, as he has over one thousand of his favourite songs on there which he is constantly listening to. the onlt thing he hates about music, really, is how people with no talent at all get record deals when actual good singers are struggling away, trying to get to the top but people don't notice them. this has made him a much more determined and ambitious person, and he will not let anything get in the way of his hopes and dreams.

⇢ fun.
jj is one of the most fun people you'll ever meet. he often does stupid things, and is always making his friends laugh with the random, funny comments he makes. [wip]
⇢ 'slow'.
⇢ sweet.
⇢ joker.

♪ history.
----- ⇢ average.
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♪ likes and dislikes.
----- ⇢ horses, girls, music. / the sea, late nights, losing.
⇢ some of jj's favourite things in thw world are horses and singing, which take up a huge part of his life. in his future, he can see himself working with horses and doing some sort of thing to do with singing. he loves music, and his phone, and he is constantly listening to music and singing along, which some people find quite annoying most of the time. obviously, he likes girls, too, and he likes to pay attention to them. surprisingly, he loves school. jay loves learning new things and he is full to the brim with random and interesting facts. he is excited to start university and he wants to study to be a vet. james adores animals, and he owns several himself. another thing he likes is people, and loves to make new friends as well, he is very friendly and likes talking.
however, he does have dislikes too. the sea is one of them. ever since he was tiny, the water has intrigued him and interested him. the only problem is, he is terrified of it. he loves to sit on the beach and just look at it, but you cannot force him anywhere near it. another thing he doesn't like is late nights. though they can be fun, he always goes home early because whenever he stays up too late, jj gets super tired and cranky, and when he wakes up the next morning he always feels terrible because he hasn't had a good nights sleep. james is very competitive, and gets very frustrated when he loses, this can be anything from horse races to 'who can get to the top of the stairs first' races with his brothers. though he wins a lot, when he eventually loses, he gets annoyed with himself and sometimes goes off in a sulk, thinking everything over. just be patient with him and he will evetually come through and laugh it off.

♪ hobbies.
----- ⇢ horse riding, singing.
⇢ jay loves horses and horse riding, and first sat on a pony aged only three. he never owned his own horse, but bought his own when he was seventeen and he has had his mare for three years already. jj began racing horses at the age of thirteen, when he took and interest in it and his father took him to a place near the local race course that allowed him to become an apprentice jockey. out of the 274 races he has ran, jay has won 37 of them, and some of the races were quite big.
another hobby he has had all his life is singing. he has always been singing, whether it was on the stage or in the car listening to the radio. he likes to think he has a nice voice, and many of his friends and family [ and strangers, in some cases ] have told him that he's a good singer. music is a big passion of his, even though he is useless at playing instruments, he is still a fantastic singer and he has always loved it ans always will.

♪ fears.
----- ⇢ the sea.
⇢ though the sea is amazing and mysterious to him, jj has always been terrified of it. he loves the beach and watching the water, but he is scared about what is in it, and will not even get to the shoreline before he runs back screaming. james has always wanted to go swimming in the ocean or sailing, but he only goes swimming in a pool where he can see the bottom, because he knows what is in there and knows there is nothing to be afraid of, however, he will not go anywhere near the ocean in fear that he will drown or get hurt.

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♪ orientation.
----- ⇢ straight.
⇢ yes, james is as straight as a ruler. he likes girls too much. jj has never considered liking guys, so he knows he is one hundred percent straight, even though he has nothing at all against gay/bisexual/lesbian people, as he believes that anyone should be able to love whoever they want.
so, sorry guys, but james is completely straight and he is not about to change.

♪ relationships.
----- ⇢ a lot...
⇢ jj got his first girlfriend in his fifth year of school. it wasn't exactly a proper relationship, just for fun really. they split up not too long afterwards. his next girlfriend was in the eighth year of school. this girl was a proper girlfriend, and they even shared their first kiss together. their relationship lasted for a whole year, then they ended up breaking up, for personal reasons. since then, he has had many other relationships with girls, some were meaningless, but he then decided that he will only date a girl that he really cares about and really loves, so that they can have a long and happy relationship together.

♪ current relationship status.
----- ⇢ single, no crush.
⇢ at the moment, james has no girlfriend and no crush. he is currently looking for a girl to date, but he is only going to date a girl that he is sure he wants to spend a lot of time with, and someone that he can actually take time with so that their relationship lasts a long time. looks are a bonus, but he really wants a girl that he has a lot in common with, and is also willing to take time and put a lot of effort into their relationship.

♪ pets.
----- ⇢ jake the dog, mirai the horse.
⇢ jj has his own dog, a five year old golden retriver male dog named jake, like the dog from adventure time. he has had him ever since he was a puppy, and james loves him to bits. they are very close and almost inseperable. his other pet is more of a partner, his eight year old, purebred thoroughbred mare named mirai, which means 'future' in japanese. she is very feisty and likes to throw jj off a lot, but they love each other really. he used to show her a lot, mostly in eventing, but recently they haven't done much. both of his animals get along very well, and jake even comes riding with them, either in the riding school or out on the road on a hack, jake comes with them.

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Name - Ever Lynn Thomas, my name comes from my great grandmother. Who was an important person in the founding of the little town, I come from. She also was an activist in African American Rights movements. My mother said she was her inspiration to do everything, she always wanted to live up to her grandmother. That's where I got my name, I used to like it until people started making fun of me. Now I absolutely hate it thanks to people at my school.

Age - I'm sixteen years old. That means I'm sixteen years closer to death than others. Sorry, I had to say it. I was born January Twenty -Seventh at two forty - six am. To Claire and ParkerThomas, twenty-one and twenty-four.

Gender - Female, I am defiantly female. No I will not offer you to check,that's just perverted and gross. So back off.

Family - Claire Thomas - Mother ( Passed Away ), Parker Thomas- Father ( Passed Away ), Gorgina Walker - Grandmother ( Passed Away )
Josanna Lockheart - Foster Mother ,Johnathon Lockheart - Foster Father ,Johnny Lockheart - Foster Brother

History - When Ever was six,both her parents 'left' her. That's atleast what her grandma told her,to keep her away from the fact that they were killed in a car accident.Ever still hasn't found out about that,she just thinks they left her stranded.But that wasn't the end of the young girls loss, her grandma then passed away a short while after,when she was eleven.Ever didn't handle her passing very kindly.She shut herself down,wouldn' talk to anyone,wouldn't do her school work, basically locked herself in her room until child services came and took her to her foster family, the Lockheart's.Even living their with two brothers and a younger sister and to loving parents. Ever didn't change much, she was a mute child for almost three years. Then when she came around to talking it wasn't much. It was very rare to have a good conversation with her,not even her foster parents got more than ten minutes of talking out of her. Everusual found herself writing all her feelings and events of each day in a journal. The only person who actually could get feelings out of her,was her foster brother Johnny,who is three years older than Ever.

Hair - I'm a natural brunette. I dyed my hair to a light blonde, a couple months after moving in with the Lockheart's. I've let it grow out since then, now it's around shoulder length. Josanna says I have beach hair,because my hair is constantly curly. However I have the days when it's as straight as a ruler. My hair as you could say is a complete mystery.

Eye's - 'They are a dark brown,with a small twinkle to them. ' As my grandma would say about my eyes. But to me they are just a dull brown,like millions of other people on earth. Brown,just brown like a tree's trunk. Or Brown, like the dirty we walk on. There is nothing special about them,they are just eyes. I use them to see.I use them to describe things. I use them to hide things.

Height & Weight - I'm Five feet Six inches, I wouldn't say average,because I am taller than both my step brothers who are at least two or three years older than me. As for my weight I'm One hundred and twenty - five pounds. It's not much, but I don't eat a lot either.

Shy - Ever is a very shy person. Not like most,who are shy at first and then crazy as they get used to you.No,Ever is the type of person who is shy no matter who you are. Some people would think she's a mute child,because she never speaks at school,not even when she's forced to and if she tries they are just squeeks. However there is a reasoning behind this, but it's not heroic or special. Nothing of the sorts,but it is very important to the background of Ms. Ever Lynn Thomas.

Trust & Abandoment - Ever finds it hard to trust people. She feels that her parents abandoned her,when she was little. That was the start of her trust issues, then came her grandmothers passing. The young girl only trust one person in her life and they left her. She feels that when she gets close to people,if she gets close to people,they will leave her. Like her birth family did,when she was younger. This would be the reasoning behind,the girl's shy personality. She believes if she doesn't talk to anyone,she won't have to become friends with them and then have them leave her. A psychiatric she met once,told her Foster parents that Ever suffers from abandonment. Which comes from the idea of being alone or being left by the people you love. The Dr. also called it a psychological disorder.She was one of the only people to get Ever to open up about her feeling,to understand her trouble. Other people have tried to help her,but she just pushes them away.Hides from her fear.

Humor - Ever,you could say has a small sense of humor. Though no one sees it , she usually only smiles when she's alone in her room. Analyzing the events of her day and the small conversation she'd have with some people in class. However,the sound of her laugh, is a true mystery to anyone who knows Ever. She once told her brother , Johnny, the last time she laughed was when six. A few months before her parent's passing,since then she has never laughed once That was until she found her obsession with music,when she is listening to music she becomes of totally different person,she laughs,she dances, she becomes a lively person again.

Relationship Status - I'm single. Never once have I been in a relationship. For personal reasons,that I don't wish to share with you.

Thoughts on Love - I absolutely hate love. It's sickening, nobody realizing they will be left one day by the person they love. All those thoughts and time spent dwelling on that special person,for nothing.
Yes,that is what Ever will tell you when asked about love. But in all honest, the young girl wishes for love. She wants someone to love her, the way she loves them. However, Ever will never make a move,because she's afraid to be abandoned again. Or that the person she loves will never love her back. That she will die alone and go through life alone. Not having someone to lean on when she is troubled.

Why She is here - Ever was sent to Mary Hill, because of her attempted suicides. Once when she was sixteen,where her parents just put her in a hospital thinking she had taken one to many pain reliving pills. Which was true but not an accident, she had taken more than she should have to take away her pain of living. The next time when she was seventeen and cut herself to deep and almost bled to death. From there her parents understood what was happening and kept a close eye on her. Then the latest one when she was Nineteen,she tried again with the pain killers. After that episode her parents sent her to Mary Hill,hoping that this place would keep their daughter alive.

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