Don't Judge Me

[Pochi]

"Alright, Lie to me. Say he cant. You're an idiot." Terrance grumbled pressing his eyes tighter together in an stubborn way as he refused to let himself wake. He wanted to grumble and groan and growl like a beast but remained silent with his back towards Jayden. Terrance shivered and almost squealed like a girl as it tickled. The rustling of the blankets made him smile and the warmth he was getting from both sides made him incredibly happy. In sync luke and Terrance sighed deeply. "I dont want you around him.. I just promised I would ask." He grumbled after a long pause.

[spaceguinea]

Jayden blinked in surprise when Terrance snapped, staring at the boy. "But-" He stopped himself, as if it'd be a mistake to say anything else. He continued to stare at Terrance with a frown. He kept his arms over his chest as he lay there, and moved his eyes to the ceiling while he listened with a confused expression as Terrance began to speak again. "Well then you could have said you asked instead of making a fit out of my answer. If he wants to stay he can. If you don't want him to then he doesn't have to. But I'm fine with either choice," he told him calmly, keeping a thoughtful expression on his face. "Why don't you want me around him?" he asked curiously, turning his head again to watch Terrance although he knew the boy was turned away from him.

[Pochi]

Terrance sighed as the phone continued to vibrate against the wood on the nightstand. "You're too nice a guy. It's hard to be mean to you... I keep....*yawn*... trying to have you push me out of your life because heaven knows I cant let you go.... but you just.." He groaned pulling the pillow over his heated face. Why are you doing this too me? Why are you letting me back in? why are you not caring but you continue to show me a kind hand? It's torture. I cant leave you. I love you too much but you.... I cant tell with you. If you care if you love me back. Words mean nothing. If you asked me too... I would do anything for you. I would stop my double life. I would live for you... I would be by your side but, I cant. I dont know what you want. I cant make you happy... Im boring. Im boring, Jayden, boring.... And Im so afraid... of losing you and knowing the truth, so I wont even ask you what you think of me. My heart is shattering each day I stick around, and I feel like I should end this play date and put us both out of our missery. Why? Why cant I? Why cant you? What is this feeling? My head hurts.... Terrance sighed pushing Luke to move and scooting over himself to put distance between him and jayden. Im so cold... Terrance quickly slipped into sleep not wanting to carry this anyfurhter.

[spaceguinea]

Jayden moved his gaze from Terrance to the phone, watching it curiously. It was hard for him to hold back from answering the phone as it was getting on his nerves. He blinked at the short explanation from Terrance. Frowning confusedly, he sat up with his hand on the bed where he was laying so it supported him up. "Answer your phone..." He silently stared down at Terrance for a long while. "What do you mean 'trying to get me to push you out of my life'?" Jayden asked, not quite understanding. He sighed, guessing Terrance was asleep anyway, but even if he wasn't, he wasn't sure he wanted to continue the conversation. He stood up and slowly walked out, returning to the other part of the house down the hall, but he sat on the floor of the kitchen, staring across to the other wall in the living room. And you think I'm confusing? I'm not trying to be. I don't think I'm confusing. How am I confusing? You're confusing, Terrance...

[Pochi]

Terrance awoke to the dark room. he was alone once again. He sighed picking up his phone. "Yes. Just stop calling already. Im on my way." He groaned scratching his bed head. He looked around the room and put on the clothes he was supposed to wear for bed that night. He looked at the time and sighed. "It's four in the morning." He complained in a hushed tone as he zipped up the hoodie and walked out of the room. He smiled to Luke and rubbed his ears for a second before heading out into the living room. He looked around for Jayden for a second and hooked a leash on Luke and then left the house into the cold moring with a shiver.

[spaceguinea]

Only a few minutes before Terrance had woken up Jayden moved from the kitchen floor to the couch; his head rested on the arm of the couch, his legs crossed over eachother in a criss-cross position and his eyes closed. He was half asleep. Tired, but not able to rest. Too caught in thought. He heard Terrance, and saw Terrance leave with Luke, but he failed to except the fact into his mind that he saw them. Too distracted to acknowledge their appearance from the hall. After Terrance left, he half-opened his eyes and stared blankly at the ground without moving his position. Oh... He wants to leave, but wants me to be the reason to make him leave?

[Pochi]

Terrance smiled to himself as he walked out and across the street. "So close.. he cant walk to the f****** convenience store by himself. Such a child." He mumbled but was still smiling as he growled. He walked up the stairs of the apartment and into the room. Seeing the man still calling his phone that was now on silent and sitting in his boxers on the couch with a beer. Suddenly Terrance lost all sanity. "You're so lazy. Stop calling me. Get a job. Get A LIFE. I am not your slave. My life is not a spare. The 24 hour convinence store is a block away. Pick your lazy @ss up and walk there yourself." He growled and turned to walk back out and back towards Jayden's house.

[spaceguinea]

Jayden stayed where he was for a few moments longer before standing up, still unsure of what to do. His eyes stared at the door, but he was interrupted when he sneezed, his eyes having to close as he brought his arm up to his face. "Multiii~" he complained as he made his way to the kitchen. After a minute he had gotten the cat some food, and now he was walking into his room. He quickly changed into gray skinny jeans and a black tank top before returning down the hall and out the door. He blinked seeing Terrance walking back, but he turned his head to look forward as he walked down the road, his hands in his pockets, tho he held his phone in one.

[Pochi]

Terrance looked up to see Jayden turn away from him and a large smile caressed his lips as tears welled in his eyes and raced down his cheeks. He turned around hearing his name being called and as he glared at the boy in sweats and no shirt he couldnt help his tears. "What do you want?" He croaked. Terrance clutched his chest as the man asked him what was wrong. "My heart hurts... but that's not important right now." He wiped his face. "Come on." He shoved him with his shoulder. "Ill show you the store." he muttered beginning to walk back towards the apartment and then past it.

[spaceguinea]

Jayden kept his head bowed but he was watching Terrance as he slowly walked on. Maybe I should go back. Before he gets the wrong idea... Really, I just want to go for a walk. But what he said... Maybe he really does think I'm giving up on him? I don't know, I'm confused... He paused his thoughts as he watched Terrance walking the opposite way with the stranger. Must be his friend, he thought. Turning his eyes and head forward again, he gasped as he walked into a lightpost. "God dam-," he stopped his sentence, bringing both his hands to cover his nose. He glared at the pole as if it was alive and did it on purpose before turning around to go back home.