Allentown Mental asylum (ACCEPTING)

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Jani laid there in complete silence, her hand twitched slightly and she stirred awake. Her eyes opened and she squinted at the light "Rilee?.." she croaked out of her sore throat.. Jani looked around and didn't see him right away she started to panic a little.

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::Rilee::
I popped up when she said my name, and walked over to her bed, "I'm here, and you're okay." I said softly and sat down in the edge of her bed,"You scared the crap outta me Jan. " I said looking down at her. I ran my hands through my hair, pushing my hair out of my face.

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Jani looked at his hands and her eyes went wide, "Oh my Rilee, I'm so sorry, i'm so so sorry.." She sat up and took his hand gently , looking at the damage she had done. She looked at her nails all bloody. Her eyes filled with tears "I hurt you.. " she said softly holding back the tears.

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::Rilee::
I shook my head slightly, "It's fine, Jan. really it's fine. It was your head or my hands, and I picked the hands." I said softly as I looked at her. I didn't want her to feel bad for hurting me. I chose to do that, so I didn't want her to think she hurt me against my will. I noticed she was looking all teary eyed. I put my hand on her cheek, "Please, please don't cry." I begged her quietly. I heard a bit of evil laughing in my head, trying to ignore it now.

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Jani looked at him as a tear dropped from your eye "I said I wouldn't hurt you..And look what I did.." Jani put a gentle hand on the one that was on her cheek. Jani looked at him for a few moments trying to remember exactly what happened. She gave up and moved forward pulling him into a hug, laying her head on his shoulder." I don't know how to thank you.." she said softly feeling his warmth.

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::Rilee::
I leaned into the hug, eventually wrapping my arms around her once again. I held her close to my chest, wanting her to know that I was okay, she was okay, and she didn't have to be sorry, "It's fine, Jan." I said in a little bit above a whisper. I clenched my jaw tightly as the voices returned, You no good, loser. You really think she cares about you!?, each of them saying the same thing right now. I closed my eyes tightly, hoping for them to leave, She's gonna turn on you. Just like your family kid. one said and other ones chimed in with other thoughts of their own, No one can love you... You're a monster... Look you even scared her before! others said as I tried to block them out.

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Jani held on to him tight, not wanting to let go. She could feel him tense up "Rilee... You ok?" she said softly.

-Sorry I'm super brain dead at the moment *.*-

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I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I nodded slightly. My eyes closed for a moment, "I will be in a minute," I said quietly, almost weakly actually. There wasn't really anything I could do about them, but wait it out. So they would shut up. I was tired of being a crazy skitz. It sucked. But I didn't know how to be any different. I was too young o even remember what not hearing voices felt like.

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Jani pulled away slowly, her arms still around him, but just enough so that she could look at him. "Ever wonder where you would be if you didn't have the voices?.. Ya know.. Like what type of person you would be?" Jani said softly. She had always wondered what she would be like.. Or what her life would be like. The voices had made her life a living hell and it always made her depressed knowing she would never be normal again therefor nothing would ever be the same.

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I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I looked at her, concentrating, well trying to concentrate on what she was saying more than needed so maybe theyd go away. I nodded at her question, "All the time. I was only normal for five years of my life, and I don't remember a second of it..." I said quietly and then looked down at the space between us. "If lobotomys were still legal.. I'd ask for one to be honest. I'd rather just be a breathing body that does nothing than hear voices constantly." I admitted.

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