Allentown Mental asylum (ACCEPTING)

[»αℓιcɛ-ιи-cнαιиƨ«]

I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I shook my head, "no, I'll be better in a minute though... Hopefully." I mumbled the last part and closed my eyes. I don't even notice anymore when I'm hurting myself. Especially in my hands or arms. My body is pretty much numb to pain. I put my forehead onto my knees and my nails ended up digging deeper into my skin.

Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ ＩＮＳＡＮＥ！ Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ！

[<3FallinginReverse<3]

Jani looked down "Just cause you can't feel it doesn't mean you won't see the scars it leaves afterwards .." she said in a hushed voice. She looked back up and her eyes shot to his arms, she felt so bad she didn't know what to do..She thought maybe if she did what he did for her it would help some. Jani scootched over so that she was behind him, she laid her head on his shoulder and put her arms around him and on his hands so that he would loosen his grip, she didn't know what to do next so she started humming softly.

[»αℓιcɛ-ιи-cнαιиƨ«]

I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I felt her go behind me and did what I was doing for her earlier. I let my hands relaxant I wrapped my fingers around the gashes my nails had made in the backs of my arms. Her being there helped just quiet them down a little bit. I started shaking my head, which was sill pressed against my knees. I felt tears wet my jeans, "I can't take this any more Jan..." I whispered in a shaky voice. "I really really can't do this."

Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ ＩＮＳＡＮＥ！ Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ！

[<3FallinginReverse<3]

Jani rubbed his back "Sh..." she said quietly "You have to hang in there for me.. I need you more then you think."

[»αℓιcɛ-ιи-cнαιиƨ«]

I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I picked my head up and looked over my shoulder at her. My eyes were all puffy and red, and my cheeks were a little red, "I know..I... It. I wish I knew what they were saying." I growled to myself and slipped off the bed and to my feet. "They're just mumbling and mumps urging and saying everything at once, and it's getting louder and louder until I can't take it anymore and I just wanna scream, and smash my head against a wall!" I said pacing around the room. My voice getting a little bit more excited as I went on. Getting a little bit louder with each few words. I walked over to the wall on the opposite side of the room and pressed my forehead against the wall, and my hands in he wall as well. I paused for a minute as my anger built up inside of me even more as they talked all at once. I slammed my fist into the wall while trying to dig my nails into the wall like I had to my arm. This wasn't something I didn't do often... It happened all the time. I'd go from crying, to angry over situations similar to this.

Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ ＩＮＳＡＮＥ！ Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ！

[<3FallinginReverse<3]

-Ermergerd.. XD -

Jani watched as he got angrier, she sat there scared not knowing what to do. She watched him punched the wall, it was such a loud bang she covered her ears and closed her eyes "Rilee, stop, please.." Jani sat there and tears started gathering in her eyes. Getting the staff involved would make it worse, seeing him all drugged up on pills would just kill her. Jani walked over to the window and looked out, seeing no one had noticed the commotion. Jani could hear some faint laughter in her head "No." she said sternly to herself. "Not now. "

[»αℓιcɛ-ιи-cнαιиƨ«]

I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I turned and looked over at her my face not angry or sad anymore. I felt bad for doing that... I couldn't control it, but I felt bad about it. I probably just scared the crap out of her. "I'm so so so so sorry Jan..." I murmured looking down a my feet. I didn't hear her say anything at all when I was on my rampage right there...

Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ ＩＮＳＡＮＥ！ Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ！

[<3FallinginReverse<3]

Jani looked up at him then at the ground again, the voices were saying something. She was focusing on what they were saying.Jani.. he doesn't want you.. hes trying to hurt you... hurt him before he gets to you first.. Jani could tell all four voices were saying it they all said the same thing but at the same time.. Jani stared blankly at the ground, her head tilted to the side a little. "No I wont.. Rilee.. Stay over there.." she said quietly backing over to her bed. Do it Jani!.. Before its to late.. They started getting louder and more violent. "No! I wont! Leave me alone!" Jani grabbed on to both sides of her head.

[»αℓιcɛ-ιи-cнαιиƨ«]

I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love
To outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face
I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not!
Not insane-
-"Almost Easy" by A7x-

Ʀιlεε's my name...

I looked over at her with my brow furrowed. I stayed backed up against the wall like she told me to.i didn't know what to do. I couldn't help her because she didn't want me to. Well.. I was assuming she didn't want to possibly hurt me. I took a step forward though, "Jani... " I said softly not knowing whatelse to say.

Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ ＩＮＳＡＮＥ！ Ｉ'Ｍ ＮＯＴ！

[<3FallinginReverse<3]

Jani let out a scream "Rilee, I don't want to hurt you" Pushing herself up against the wall and holding her ears. You stupid little girl, why don't you ever listen? hurt him , make him pay for hurting you Jani shook her head "He hasnt! and he wont!" Jani started shaking her head back and forth violently and repeating no, each time getting louder.