Between Enemy Lines

[Octember]

Overly empathetic
Reading into what isn’t there

Feeling every emotion
Understanding every action
Even the ones that don’t exist

Constantly worrying
Not wanting to appear offensive
No one else is worried

Attempting to heal
Even the fading scars
Only causing more hurt

Overly empathetic
Reading into what isn’t there

[Tanetane]

She is gone
It numbs him

Dulled colours
Sounds
Motions

She is leached from everything
The clouds parallel the blue
A cruel balance
He hates it

He barely hears their voices
Offering their condolences
Pitying him
He hates them more

Time is a millstone round his neck
He carries past in his head
Present and future are posthumous
He hates them too

Keep moving forward?
He doesn’t know the meaning
He clutches at straws
He never could let go

His internal screams tear him apart
A familiar concept
Her face is a tantalising memory
He never could forget

Help?
The word is foreign
It doesn’t fit in his mouth
He never could ask them

Days, weeks, months,
He is numb
Years
He is numb

His life has become posthumous
She is gone
It numbs him

And no matter what
He could never
Let
Her
Go

I absolutely adore this one.

[Octember]

I'm sorry, I somehow didn't see your post till now.

Thank you very much, that truly does means a lot to me that you said that. C:

[Octember]

Going home, I'm all alone
At home alone, I'm on my own

Besides these voices in my head
Two are at war and one is dead

Three have faith, four have hope
Five stand in line for the hangman's rope

Six are lost, seven don't care
Eight have a secret they can't share

They all reside within my head
Sometimes I wish they were gone instead

But if they left I'd feel so alone
So in my head I'll make my home

I am theirs and they are mine
Together we will draw the line

Going home, I'm never alone
At home on my own, but I'm never alone

[Octember]

Regret
It fills me
Consumes me
Controls me

I am a hollow cavern
I am empty

Regret
It deadens me
I am lifeless
I am hopeless

A puppet cut from its strings
I am useless

Regret
It holds me
Restrains me
Owns me

I am empty
I am useless
I am hopeless

I am so sorry

[Octember]

All the hearts that he owns
And yet he walks all alone
'I'll push you away
Don't you dare try and stay!'

There's only cold in his heart
But you're the light in the dark
'I'll only cause you more pain
I just can't do this again!'

You are the reason he lives
There's so much love he can't give
'Please just let me be
I know you're gonna hurt me.'

Sometimes he thinks he could trust
Sometimes he knows that he must
'Can't help but doubt in myself
I'm dangerous for your health.'

But you persist and perceive
And you help him to grieve
'I really can't keep you safe
I know I'm such a disgrace.'

But he can't stay alone
It's his heart that you own
'I just can't do this forever
I'll try and change for the better."

[Octember]

Tranquil
Moving through molasses
At peace

Safe
Together
Warm in this light

Bending
Swaying
In this golden light

You and I
In our own world
I'll never let you go
Swaying together
Closing our eyes
You're in my arms
And I'll never let you go

Waking
Shaking
Gasping
Sobbing

Opening my eyes
To this dark house
I let you go

I let you go

[Octember]

Steps outside into blinding light
The darkness gave him such a fright
Took his love and took his life
Leaves a son and a scared young wife

Ascend, descend
Stay the same
Pointing fingers don't share this blame
Body mind soul
Made of coal
Dark with a spark
Heart sings like a lark

Shades of grey, shades of grey
It all comes clear on judgement day
White to black, black to white
Does anyone care
About your plight?

You're a bad man
Sad man
Mad man
Make them glad
When they're black clad
Make them laugh and sing
At this horrible thing

Standing at the scales
Breathing heavy face pale
Justice against mercy
Painted face is dirty

You shudder and shake
Await your fate
White grey black
Heart attack track

Ascend/Descend?

Dirty faced son
Better run
Better run
When the other kids come
Worn shoes torn shirt
And a broken nose
This is the life
That his father chose

Pale faced wife
Tries to raise your son right
Sits alone
In your darkened home
Nowhere to turn
But an empty urn
Nothing in the world
No solace
No hope
But a necklace of pearls

Remember, remember
Hate, hate,
Gold or charcoal
Barred gate
Morally ambiguous
Just like the rest
Where to go
After the final test?

Shades of grey, shades of grey,
The crowd's all here but there's just no way
You're going nowhere
Same as everyone else
Fluid apparitions
Without a pulse

Face turned up for fear of falling down
Ascend/Descend?