Yesterday I had several flashes of inspiration. I don't know if you guys read my last post, but I saw the steampunk key again as I was trying to visualize my Godsona. By then I was getting really pissed off at the thing, but I forced myself to relax and scared the hell out of myself when I saw a white-tail deer walking besides me. He looked like he was solid, but at the same time like he was made of silver mist and dust. Then I found a fitting name while browsing the net: Ramiel, the angel of Hope, who guided the souls to resurrection and delivered godly visions during the dreams.
Today Ramiel still appears as a silvery-brown-furred deer to me, his antlers seem to be real silver, and as a human I saw him as an angel of sorts, with white hair and wings, soft gray clothes and blueish-green eyes. I don't know if he's a false god or a true one, and I know nothing of his powers either... I just know that something real weird happened today. I was really bored and began to feel very sleepy, so I put on some calmer music on my iPod. The problem is, they were really sad songs, the kind of songs that always makes me become depressed for no reason at all. i was already lying down, nearly sleeping and nearly crying, and I suddenly heard a voice in my head saying, 'now, let's get you out of your lethargy.' In my head, he was there, looking at me and pulling me back up to my feet. I got up instantly, put on rock songs and danced my sleepiness away, and voila, no traces of the almost-depression. Whoever Ramiel is, I've got to thank him for that.
Oh, and I ordered that freakin' key on Etsy - or at least one that looked as similar as possible. Hopefully it'll become a charm of good luck and help me find my true Godsona. <'3