patchy's poems and other writing

[the folly of man]

the end of the year is so bittersweet
just finished my last trick or treat

the end of the year is so heavy
i want it to be over already

the end of the year isnt fun
all the times we've had are done

the end of the year is almost here
its coming more and more near

the end of the year pleases me
because its in the past, finally

the end of the year makes me upset
because there's so many things i regret

as the year comes to a close
we remember all our friends and foes
but i hope that we never forget
because you never know how much time is left

[the folly of man]

im so scared, but i'd never admit to you
why? because i dont want to lose you!
but, yknow what? after all that, i've been left with trust issues!

i want to be okay
i just need help
i want to trust you
but im stopping myself
because they damaged me mentally
and now i cant tell the difference between a friend or an enemy
i just need you to put up with me

...please...

[the folly of man]

i want it
i need it
im going to die without it

"you cant get what you want"
"you cant get what you need"
"you cant have it!"
"YOU CANT HAVE IT!"

im just running around the floor,
hoping to find something more
something else to do
something else to think of
so i dont have to feel the way i've felt before

"its all the same"
"its all a bore"
"you dont get what you want anymore!"
"YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT ANYMORE!"

please, please!
give it to me!
i hate being like this
i dont want to be starved of it
please-

"no!"
"not for you!"
"you dont deserve it!"
"YOU DON'T DESERVE IT!"

i guess i just want it
i dont really need it
i can go longer without it...

"good"
"because you dont get what you want"
"you dont get what you need"
"you cant have it"
"you cant have it..."

[the folly of man]

do you know how much it breaks my heart
when everyone i know is falling apart

she said she's nervous
he said he's not alright
they said they wont be fine
i dont know how i'll sleep tonight

actually, it more than breaks my heart
i cant stand everyone being torn apart
i feel like the worst
because i cant do anything

i cant even help myself
when im mentally unstable
i dont bring anything to the table
i just leave it on the shelf

i want to be okay
i want YOU to be okay
i want us ALL to be okay
i want EVERYONE to be OKAY
but no one's okay
they're all dying
you're dying
and what can i do to save you?
i cant do anything but watch
as time ticks away
off the clock

wilting flowers, thats what we are
when we go out
we're beautiful like stars
but when we get home
we crash like cars
and what once brought us joy
now seems so far

i dont like how i am
i want to change
but i cant
im held back
to you, D,
what do you want from me?
what do you want so badly?
and to you, A,
whats worth all you've taken away?
why on EARTH do you stay?

i want you GONE
i want you OUT
get out of my MIND
get out of my HOUSE
and leave me and my family ALONE

[the folly of man]

[K]
hello, everyone!
seems like nothing good comes
feels like there's no sun
but dont let that ruin your day
we'll find something else to do
something that makes it worthwhile to stay
we'll have each other's backs
and we'll paint this map black
what do you say?

[Y]
sounds like a plan
let's work together
to stick with each other
and make the situation look better

[C]
alright, i think that sounds good
how about you, jack? do you think we should?

[J]
i'm with you two through anything
we're brothers, after all
we'll be together, rise and fall

[K]
so it's settled, then!
we'll be the main attraction
and our name?
we're team satisfaction!

[the folly of man]

[C]
h... hey.. um..

[P]
what do YOU want?

[C]
i just came to say-

[P]
what? sorry?

[carvoi nods]

[P]
well, sorry doesn't cut it.

[C]
but- i-
i didnt mean to-

[P]
so you're telling me,
you went on a killing spree
and didnt mean to?

[carvoi lowers his head, looking ashamed of himself]

[C]
is it.. really my fault though?
if i knew what i was doing at the time.. i..
i wouldnt have done that...

[pete raises his voice]

[P]
of course its your fault, idiot!
we were trying to evacuate, cause you just DECIDED you wanted to murder us all!
and just because she was having a hard time with who to trust, you KILLED her!

[C]
i-

[carvoi starts tearing up]

[P]
you don't even have the right to say sorry! you had the choice to not do that!

[C]
pete-

[P]
just stop talking!! it doesn't matter if you say sorry, because i dont forgive you! and i never will!

[a tear rolls down carvoi's face]

[C]
...okay. i... i guess i'll go, then.

[carvoi leaves]

[end]

[the folly of man]

there once was a terrible storm
the sky was dark, the land was torn
rain fell from the black void above
it felt like the death of love..

until one day, it all changed
the weather finally behaved
a bright light shone over the world,
and thats when the story began to unfurl

red, blue and yellow came, shining bright
and behind them was a being made of white
it was a battle long and tiring
black fought hard, bullets firing

we dont know what happened in the end
but we now know that we can depend
on the light that saved us from the dark
and we can begin again from the start

[the folly of man]

the party's over
go home
the party's over
now you're alone

[the folly of man]

"wh..."
"why are things... going this way?"
"i.. i dont understand! no one's the way i thought they were!"
"the world is a terrible place!"

"please dont hurt them.... i dont know how to get mad and defend them"
"all i can do is sit back...."
"the world is a terrible place."

"i..."
"i'm sorry..."
"the world is a terrible place...."

[the folly of man]

(new hair dye
new hair dye
new hair dye
new hair dye)

new hair dye
to change the time
so i can save the tears
i dont have to cry

im facing hardship
its difficult
but i'll still have hope

i just need more color in my life
to help me cope with the struggle
it wont make it alright
but at least i can try...

its not much change, but at least i can try
i can try
i can try!

new hair dye
tell the old feelings "goodbye"
there's nothing to fear
everything will be fine

(wip)